Redeeming Kyle: 69 Bottles #3 (28 page)

Kyle pulls my gown back down, adjusts the blankets and covers me back up. He sits back down on the side of the bed. Talon releases my hand and walks around the bed to the other side where he sits. I’m looking at both of my men. The tears haven’t stopped flowing but at least now, they’re happy tears.
 

“What can we do, baby girl?” Kyle says sweetly.
 

“Get me out of here.” My voice is choked with the happiness I’m feeling now that my family is back together again.
 

“Aww angel, I want to, I really do, but you heard them.”
 

“I know, but I feel fine and I’m starving and…” I lose steam.
 

“They haven’t fed her?” Kyle asks, looking sideways at Talon.
 

Talon laughs. “No, they did, but it was hardly enough.”
 

“And it was awful,” I pout.
 

“Will they let us bring something in?” Kyle asks again looking to Talon.

He shrugs, “Don’t know, but it wouldn’t hurt to ask. What do you want, angel?”
 

“Soup, chicken noodle, crackers, bread.” They both smile at me. “What?”
 

“Nothing, it’s just great to see you hungry again,” Talon says with a half-smile.
 

“Let me go ask the nurses and let’s see what we can do,” Kyle says as he stands.
 

“I’ll go, you stay with her.” Talon stands up, squeezes my hand, then reaches across me to cup Kyle’s cheek. “I’m glad you’re home.”
 

Kyle leans into his touch. “I’m sorry I left.” Kyle kisses his palm and Talon leaves the room. He sits back down on the bed beside me. “Please, no matter what happens between us, eat. Always eat. Dr. Breckenridge told you that, it wasn’t just me.”
 

“I never stopped eating or drinking. I always did it, I just didn’t eat enough. I ate enough to satisfy my grumbling tummy but that was all. I didn’t realize just how much the amount of food I was eating mattered. But I went from eating enough for at least two people to eating barely enough for me.”
 

“I’m so sorry that I put you in that position, to make you so upset you couldn’t function.”
 

I put my hand to his cheek. “I functioned when I needed to, like for the studio, until today, and everything in between is a blur. Talon suffered because of my being upset only to realize how much your being gone was hurting him too. He loves you, Kyle, he loves you as much as he loves me. You need to remember that. We both love you, and neither one of us wants to see you fail. I asked you about being ready, not because you needed to leave, or that you had to be ready right that moment. I asked because I needed to know so that I could figure out how best to help you.” I put my hand down and he scoops it up into his, holding it to his chest. “Despite what you thought at the time, you safe worded on me. You’re more ready than you think. You wouldn’t lie in bed with me for hours when you could be out at the bar. Instead you laid around reading pregnancy books. You wouldn’t feed me as well as you did, and you wouldn’t be there to hold my hair when I threw up in the morning. It’s a lot and more because we’ve only been at this a few weeks.”
 

“A few weeks that have meant more for me than ten years could. Addison, I feel like we’ve been together forever. We have no secrets, we have no lies. Everything between the three of us is real and it’s raw. We’ve done in six weeks what couples strive for over years and we’re three people, which makes it harder. You’re selfless, you fight so hard for Talon and I, you fight so hard for them,” he nods his head toward my belly, “now it’s time to let us take care of you.”
 

“I don’t know how to do that,” I say through a wave of tears and sadness. “I don’t know how to be taken care of.”
 

“I think you do. I think you have. You let us be here for you, you let us feed you, wash you, dress you, pack and take care of everything for you. You just don’t see it because we don’t give you a choice. If we asked if we could dry you off, you wouldn’t let us, but we do it without giving you a choice because we know what you want, you just don’t know how to ask for it. Remember what Dr. B said? Don’t down play anything. If you’re hurting, we need to know. If you don’t feel good, we need to know, and if you just want to be held and cuddled, we need to know. Just like you need to know when something is bothering us.”
 

I nod, wiping tears with my free hand. “I will try harder to let go. It’s not easy.”
 

He leans forward, kissing my forehead. “We never said it would be.” He cups my cheek and wipes the tears. “Now, you’re exhausted. I’ve put you through an emotional ringer. Sleep, my sweet girl. I will be here when you wake up.”
 

I kiss his palm and he pulls back. I lay my head back and for the first time in three days, I fall into a deep sleep.
 

I’m awoken a little while later by the smell of chicken noodle soup and it brings me around. I devour the soup, crackers and two rolls before falling back to sleep.

When I wake up on Thursday, Kyle is in the hospital room with me, “Where’s Talon?” I ask through sleep.
 

Kyle sits up from his chair, and lays his iPad on the bed. “Good morning, sweet girl.” I smile at him. “There was a problem with one of the buses. He had to go take care of it.”
 

“What happened?”
 

“It was the other bus. It was in an accident.”
 

“Oh god, was anyone hurt?”
 

“No, everyone is fine. Though it was t-boned and the undercarriage was pretty tore up. Talon had to go assess the equipment and when I talked to him a little while ago, Dex was on his way to buy a new set of drums.”
 

“Oh crap. Is he going to be able to?”
 

“Most likely. Talon, Mouse and Peacock all bring their guitars with them into the hotels. It’s harder for Dex for obvious reasons, but any little dent in the drum alters the sound. They’re assessing for more damaged equipment, the amps are down there along with microphones and things like that. He hated leaving you, but he said that he knew you’d understand.”

“Oh my god, of course I understand, but shouldn’t you be there too?”
 

“I should, but…”
 

“Then go, Kyle, I’m alright. I promise. You sitting here is doing nothing.”
 

“Baby girl, I don’t want to leave.”

“Listen, cowboy, and listen good. Until this tour is over, your priority is 69 Bottles and your job. My job is to grow babies and sit on a computer keeping the band’s reputation in line and get on stage and sing once in a while. I think one of the things that has caused some of this angst and what happened, is because you and Talon have devoted so much time and energy to me. When things go wrong you have no outlets. When things like this happen with the bus, there is panic and chaos because you’re both so unsure of yourselves. So today, I am going to sit here, grow some babies, do some work and then get discharged, hopefully, and go back to the hotel. I have Tori and Rusty and I am sure that Raine is around here somewhere. They will take care of me. You go take care of our boy and the band.”
 

“I don’t know what to say…”
 

“That’s easy, tell me you love me, give me a kiss and then go.” I give him a big genuine smile. “Okay, you can go after I pee.” He laughs and I slide my legs out from under the covers and without saying a word he is dutifully there to help me down. With IV pole in tow, I go to the bathroom.

“Addie?”
 

“Hmm?”
 

“It’s morning, how are you…?”
 

“Not puking?” I say with a smile. “Anti-nausea meds. Give it time. I’ll be back to morning vomiting in no time.” I wink at him and he smiles. “I can still feel it. But the meds are working.”

“Good,” he says as he helps me to sit down.
 

“What were you reading anyway?” He blushes. “That bad?”
 

“No,” he shakes his head then leaves the bathroom.
 

I take care of business and when I go to stand back up, he’s there helping me with his iPad in one hand. “Show me,” I say and he opens up his iPad. The cover is a men’s shirt with a kid’s toy keys and the title reads, ‘The Expectant Father’. I look at him.
 

“I thought maybe it would help me to read about dads, versus just reading about you. I ordered two paperback copies that should be delivered to the hotel in a day or two. But I couldn’t wait, so I started reading it while you slept.”
 

“And?”
 

He smiles. “It’s helping me feel more comfortable. I guess knowing that I’m not the only one in the world who has gone through this makes it a little easier.”
 

I reach up on my toes and kiss his cheek. “Good, I’m glad.”
 

“Talon had one of the guys bring you your messenger bag, a change of clothes and some breakfast.” He helps me back into bed. “I’ll get you set up with food and your stuff, then I’ll go help Talon.”
 

“Good.” I smile as he brings the bed table over, putting my food on top. He opens it up to reveal eggs, sausage, no bacon, some mini pancakes, toast and a bag with syrup, salt, ketchup etcetera inside. I notice that there is like a double serving of eggs and sausage. I smile at my food.

“Eat, sweet girl. Eat so you can come home to us.”
 

He gets out my laptop, plugs it in for me and sets it next to my food on the table. He puts the messenger bag between my legs so that I can access my other stuff as needed. “I need my purse too.” He cocks his head at me. “I have some journaling to do,” I say with a wink.
 

He smiles wide. “We have a picture to take too.”
 

My smile back is equally as wide as his. “But not in a hospital gown, we’ll do it when I get home.”
 

He kisses my forehead. “I can’t wait.” He pulls back. “You good?”
 

“I’m good, make sure I have my phone, and go. I will call when I know something.”
 

“Alright, sweet girl. I’ll see you later.” He leans down and kisses me softly on the lips. “I love you,” he breathes and I smile against his lips.
 

“I love you too.” I kiss him again, and again then finally I pull back. “Now go, I want to eat.”
 

He laughs as he leaves my hospital room.
 

Shortly after I finish eating there is a knock at the door. “Come in.”
 

“Hey girl,” Raine says.
 

“How’d I know you were roaming around the hospital?”
 

“Oh you know, it’s kinda my job, as your assistant and all.”
 

I snort, “Well, you’re pretty damn good.”
 

“Someone is here to see you.”
 

I raise an eyebrow at her just as the door opens and Cami comes strolling in. All high heels, pencil shirt, sleeveless top and jacket slung over her purse. “Hey Addie,” Cami says and I think I blush, or panic, not sure which.

“Hi Cami, what are you doing here?”
 

“Oh I got a call from a little birdie yesterday telling me what happened, about three minutes before I got the call from the studio that you’d collapsed.”
 

“So you hopped on a plane and came to New York?”
 

She smiles wide. “I did. So should I be saying congratulations?”
 

“Oh Cami, I’m so sorry…”
 

“Why are you sorry?”
 

“You sent me on that bus to do a job and I end up sleeping with…”
 

“Oh lord, do not apologize for that. Dear god, I am the last person to judge you, I’m married to a client.”
 

“I know, but this is so not like me…”
 

She laughs, “Listen, I know you’ve had a rough few days and believe me, I can completely understand.” She sits down on the bed. “Let me tell you a story that no one really knows. When I found out I was pregnant with Jaden, I ran away and hid, literally, I disappeared for a long time because I was so afraid of what Tristan was going to think. It was the stupidest mistake I’ve ever made. You didn’t run, you didn’t do anything wrong, you haven’t done anything wrong, and you’re still doing your job. What we do isn’t that demanding when we’re limited to one client.” She tilts her head down. “I know, I’ve been there.”
 

“I haven’t been doing a very good job.”
 

“Nonsense. You’ve done amazing, especially considering that you’ve become your own PR Rep with your own celebrity, that’s not easy to handle. It’s overwhelming at times, but you’re doing great. But, given the circumstances, I think you need some help. Raine has agreed to join the tour, assisting you with the band and handling you’re own brand building. She’s amazing at what she does and she knows what she’s doing.” I look at Raine who is smiling from ear to ear and I smile too. “She’s a decoration around my office because I don’t use her like I should and Trinity’s assistant can handle me too. You just need to take care of that baby.”