Authors: Brothers in arms 9 -Love's Surrender
Never imagined getting any woman with child and being happy
about it.
He turned away from her, trying to appear nonchalant. His
nerves were frayed this morning. Last night with Nick had been
shattering. He’d never felt like that. When Nick had taken him in
his mouth he’d felt complete for the first time in his life. Nick had been with him al night and Oliver had relished it. Nick was his
lover. Not just his best friend, but also the man he loved. A
delicious shiver raced down his spine. It was almost perfect.
Except the whole time both he and Nick had talked about how
much better it would be if Vanessa had been there to see it. And
they’d both meant it. They’d gone so far as to put off fucking
each other until Vanessa could be with them.
Oliver hadn’t expected to feel that way. He’d loved Nick for
years. He’d fantasized about fucking him. He’d always believed
that Nick would be enough when they finaly consummated their
relationship. Oliver shouldn’t want anyone else. But he did.
Whether he deserved them or not.
And there was the rub.
The inquisition by Vanessa’s aunt this morning had brought home
his inadequacies with startlingly clarity. He was a man with
nothing to recommend him except his charm and his prowess in
bed. He doubted that was what either Vanessa or Nick truly
wanted in a mate. Could men even mate with other men? And if
wanted in a mate. Could men even mate with other men? And if
there were three of them, were they mates? Or was there
another word for a union of that nature? Triumvirate? No, the
Latin clearly referred to “three men”, and was far too political.
Tripod? Again no, as one of them was clearly lacking the extra
“foot”. The linguistic semantics of the situation were mind-
boggling.
Oliver took a deep breath. He was babbling in his head, as he
was wont to do when he was nervous. He looked up at Nick…
Nick wasn’t there.
He spun in a circle and didn’t see him. Where was he? Had he
left? Was something wrong? Why couldn’t he see him? This was
a smal room. Perhaps he was in the hal. Yes, he’d go look
there. He began walking toward the door, but there were so
many children. He tried not to step on them or push them aside.
The wals seemed to be closing in on him and he couldn’t catch
his breath.
Stop it, stop it, stop it, he screamed in his head. He knew he
was being irrational. Nick had told him time and again that he’d
never leave him alone again. He promised, damn it. He
promised.
“Oliver.”
He froze, his eyes closed. It was Nick. He turned around,
He froze, his eyes closed. It was Nick. He turned around,
breathing as if he’d run a mile. Nick stood there, his eyes
apologetic. He touched Oliver’s arm lightly and then let his hand
drop. “I was right over there,” he said, pointing to the far wal. “I just bent over to help some children. I’m sorry.”
“Mr. Gabriel, are you al right?” Vanessa was at his side, a
worried frown on her face. She linked arms with him, hugging
him to her side.
He should have been embarrassed. Instead he was vastly
relieved at her physical reassurance. He held her arm tightly so
she wouldn’t slip away, as Nick had had to do. “Yes, yes, I’m
fine,” he lied. “A bit of a headache, but nothing to worry about.”
He rubbed his temple for effect.
“Shal I send for the carriage?” she asked. “I think it should be
arriving soon as it is.”
“Of course not,” Oliver protested, loath to make her leave too
soon. She was clearly enjoying herself. As a matter of fact, he
hadn’t seen her enjoy herself this much before.
She smiled and Oliver relaxed a little more. “Come then. The
children have exhausted me. I simply must sit down.”
Nick immediately cleared a path through the children and led
Oliver and Vanessa to some benches along the wal. Vanessa sat
down with a relieved sigh, puling Oliver down next to her.
down with a relieved sigh, puling Oliver down next to her.
“Shoo,” she said affectionately to some children who tried to
climb into her lap and they ran off laughing as one of the matrons
came and herded them off by waving her big white apron at
them. “I love them, I do,” Vanessa said as she leaned back
against the wal, “but they wear me out rather quickly. One or
two children at a time are preferable, I think.”
“Do you want your own children one day, Nessa?” Nick asked
from where he stood beside them, his arms crossed and his feet
spread wide in a stance that spoke more of guard than patron as
he surveyed the children settling down at the tables for their
chestnut treats.
“Of course I do, though I shal have to find a husband first,” she
said pragmaticaly.
“Of course,” Oliver murmured his agreement, though her
comment, spoken so casualy, indicated that he and Nick were
not being considered for the position. He didn’t care for the
sharp sting of jealousy and resentment that gripped him. Hadn’t
he just been lamenting his unsuitability as a mate? Her agreement
was hardly unexpected.
Nick was frowning now. Apparently he didn’t like the
implications either.
“Nick says he shal find a way for us to be together tonight,”
Vanessa said under her breath, watching the room as she
Vanessa said under her breath, watching the room as she
studiously avoided his gaze. “Do you stil want that?”
“Of course,” Oliver responded, worried he’d frightened her
away from further involvement with them. God knew that was
the last thing he wanted. “More than anything.”
“Together,” Nick said, his voice rough and low. He, too, was
looking out at the room as if commenting on what he saw. “Al
three of us. I have an idea how it can be done.”
“This way,” Nick whispered, puling Vanessa through the door
behind him. She was wearing a voluminous cape that covered
her from head to toe, although there was no one in the vicinity
who might see her. They were sneaking in a back door of
Steven’s Hotel, where Nick and Oliver were staying. Vanessa’s
heartbeat sounded so loud in her own ears it was difficult to hear
Nick.
Steven’s was wel known as the hotel of choice for officers and
former military men. Vanessa hoped and prayed they didn’t see
any. She may not be a notorious beauty, but because of who she
was, she was relatively wel known by a large number of people.
What had she been thinking to agree to something so foolish?
She had gone mad, obviously. What if Aunt Grace came looking
for her in the middle of the night? True, she did not make a habit
of checking on Vanessa in the wee hours, but there was always a
first time, wasn’t there? Vanessa had pleaded exhaustion after
they returned from the Tarrants’ dinner party, however, so that
they returned from the Tarrants’ dinner party, however, so that
should keep her away.
Getting out of the townhouse had been torture. Never before
had Vanessa realized how many floorboards creaked and doors
squeaked. She’d planned to try to sneak out the kitchen door
into the yard, but Nick said it would actualy be easier to leave
by the French doors in her father’s study. He and Oliver waited
in the garden for her and then spirited her out the gate to a
waiting hackney.
The whole thing was ludicrous. So many things could go wrong.
And al for the thril of a forbidden carnal experience? Now that
she was living the scenario, Vanessa better understood the tales
about ladies and gentlemen who had falen from grace out of an
il-conceived lust. She sympathized. Because the truth was she
wouldn’t miss this opportunity for the world. The chance for
someone like her—someone forced by station to lead an
exemplary if extraordinarily dul life, no beauty or wit or vivacity
to recommend them—to be with two such handsome, sought-
after gentlemen? Vanessa was no lackwit. She knew this was her
one and only chance to experience this kind of passion.
“Why is there no one here?” she whispered, the deserted
halways rather ominous.
“It’s early yet,” Oliver said from beside her. “Everyone is stil
out, and the hotel is half-empty as it is.”
“And when I leave?” Vanessa asked as she and Oliver waited in
the shadows at the end of the corridor while Nick unlocked the
door to his room.
“We’l be careful, Vanessa,” he promised as he kissed her
gloved hand. “We wouldn’t have you hurt in any way.”
She believed him. She trusted them both more than she could
remember trusting anyone, except perhaps Aunt Grace. “Al
right,” she said, not realy sure what her response meant, just
knowing she wasn’t going to worry about it. She’d let them take
care of it al.
Nick beckoned them from the doorway and they hurried
forward. She rushed into the room and spun around as Nick
closed the door behind Oliver.
“I can’t believe we made it,” she said breathlessly, throwing
back the hood on her cape.
“Believe it,” Nick said with seductive grin. “Now the real
excitement starts.”
Oliver laughed. “First, let me take the cape. You are completely
lost in there.”
Vanessa laughed with him as she looked down at the cape
pooled on the floor. “Yes, I am. Whose is it?”
pooled on the floor. “Yes, I am. Whose is it?”
“Mine,” Nick answered. “A gift from my mother. I’m not exactly
sure what she was thinking when she bought it. I have never
worn a cape in my life.”
Vanessa admired his broad shoulders in his greatcoat. “No, I
think I prefer you in a coat. It shows off your shoulders quite
wel.”
“Like my shoulders, do you?” he said with a waggle to his
eyebrows as he shrugged his coat off that made her laugh again.
“His are indeed broad. But he is a lumbering beast on the dance
floor,” Oliver commented. “Unlike my svelte and graceful self.”
“Nonsense,” Vanessa scoffed. “Your shoulders are just as broad
as his, and he is just as graceful.”
Oliver cupped her jaw and angled her head up as Nick puled
the cape from her shoulders. “My dear,” Oliver said sweetly,
“you look through eyes blinded by lust.”
He kissed her then. Vanessa had been breathless with wanting,
and she was ever so grateful he’d seen that. She slid her arms
around his shoulders, stil covered in the thick wool of his
greatcoat. It was slightly damp, but the smel and feel of it only
added to the atmosphere of intrigue and excitement.
The kiss turned passionate as Oliver stroked his tongue into her
mouth and she buried her hands in the hair on his nape. She rose
on tiptoe and fit her body to his and his hands slid from her
upper back to her bottom, squeezing. No man had ever handled
her like that until Nick and Oliver. She liked it, liked being the
object of their desire.
Nick came up beside them and puled one of Vanessa’s arms
down. She was startled and began to pul away from Oliver, but
Nick murmured, “No,” and with a gentle hand on the back of
her head pushed her toward Oliver again. So she kissed Oliver,
not caring that Nick was right there, that she could feel his breath on her cheek as she kissed another man. It was al so exciting
and forbidden. She knew it was, even more so than her being
here at al. And then Nick leaned in and licked at the corner of
her mouth as it was pressed to Oliver’s.
Oliver moaned and his lips moved to the side of Vanessa’s
mouth with a little nip on her lower lip. And then Nick was
kissing her too. Both of them licking and sucking her lips, dipping
their tongues into her mouth as she licked back. She wasn’t sure
whose tongue and lips she was kissing at any given moment, just
that it was Nick and Oliver. It was wildly arousing. She had to
break away to catch her breath, only to forget to breathe as she
watched Nick and Oliver kiss each other. As they’d been kissing
her. Open mouths slid across each other and she saw their
tongues tangle. Oliver puled her closer to him, settling her
between his legs, and Nick’s hand rubbed her back and then slid
between his legs, and Nick’s hand rubbed her back and then slid
down to cover Oliver’s on her bottom. Nick bit Oliver’s lip as
he had Vanessa’s and then he turned to her with a smile. He
leaned over and kissed her again, and she let him. She wanted to
taste Oliver on him. Oliver let her go and stepped away and she
moaned in distress against Nick’s mouth.
“I’ve got to get this damn coat off,” Oliver said.
Nick stepped in to take his place and he roughly puled her close
so they were touching from chest to groin. He rubbed his
erection against her stomach and she gasped into his mouth. He
had one hand on her bottom and maneuvered her so that she
straddled his leg, and now that hard, hot part of him was on her
hip, thrusting and rubbing lightly. He puled her in with his hand
stil on her bottom and her sex rubbed on his muscular thigh.
“Oh,” she said softly, the tingle from that contact making the hair
on her nape rise. She rubbed against him again.