Read The Darkest Pleasure Online
Authors: Jenika Snow
"I do. You find things to accomplish when you have so much time on your hands."
I didn't know what he meant by that. He couldn't be much older then his mid-thirties, and even though I didn't know much about a doctor's schedule, I assumed they were quite busy. I didn't know where he could have learned so many languages—we really hadn't talked much about our pasts, which I was thankful for because my past was certainly not one I cared to delve into.
He took my hand and led me to a door off the sitting room. I gasped when he brought me into what seemed to be a greenhouse. It wasn't humid, as I expected; it was the most beautiful room I had ever seen. Flowers and trees of all varieties filled the room, making it seem as though we were in the middle of a jungle. There were no walls—not solid, anyway, but glass walls surrounded us, to let the sunlight stream in and nourish the plant life. I walked around and looked at each plant, absently touching and smelling the flowers. Some were in full bloom. Others, tiny buds just starting to swell. “This is so beautiful. Who grew all of these?” I continued to look at all the flowers and enjoy their heavenly aroma.
"Mostly Hunter. As you can see, he has a green thumb. I occasionally enjoy gardening, but with my schedule, I can't venture out here in the daylight."
I nodded as I made my way around the room. “You perform a lot of surgeries during the day or something?"
"Or something."
I turned to him and he smiled. He didn't elaborate on his response, and cryptic as it was, I didn't press him for a deeper explanation. I assumed he didn't like talking about work. Who did? As I walked the circumference of the room, I stopped in front of him. I don't know if it was the smell of the flowers, the champagne, or his scent, but I felt light headed and euphoric. We looked at each other for a second or two before his head dipped and he traced my lips with his tongue. I had hardly cooled down from our earlier explorations; my panties still wet from my arousal. I was so worked up, I moaned into his mouth from his simple touch. He must have taken that as a cue, because he crushed me to him and slanted his mouth over mine. Our tongues met in the middle and tangled for supremacy. Of course, he won, and I was thrilled at his dominant streak. It made me feel entirely feminine.
"Oh, Ashliyn, I've never wanted anything more then I want you right now."
He broke away from my mouth and buried his head at my neck as he whispered the words. I ran my hands up and down his muscled back, loving the way it flexed beneath my fingertips. It wasn't as if I were saving myself for marriage. I just had never found anyone I wanted desperately enough to lose my virginity to. Kerian, however, was the man I wanted to lose it to.
"I want it just as much as you do.” I said the words into his chest and felt him tense all over. I took that as a good thing; maybe I had surprised him with my comment. He pulled back and looked down at me with so much desire, I shivered.
"We shouldn't."
"No, we really should.” I didn't know why I was being so blatantly sexual about this, but since meeting him, it was as if my body were on fire and he was the only one who could put it out. I watched as his eyelids dipped to half-mast at my comment. I could feel his stiff erection pressing against my stomach, and I moved closer. I heard him swallow and close his eyes as the softness of my stomach moved against the steel of his erection.
"You want this?” He pressed into me farther and I moaned. I could hear my breathing now, and it sounded desperate. I nodded as I moved my hand down his stomach. I felt the defined muscles bunch together under my touch. My fingers slid over the top of his belt, the cold metal of the buckle a stark contrast to my overheated skin. My breath came out in a puff as my fingers wandered lower to his penis. I ran my hand the length of it and swallowed at its size. I was a virgin, yes, but I knew when I encountered a monster of an erection. Even through his pants, his shaft was huge. I could feel the outline of the head as it rose towards me, as if seeking me out. He felt thick and long, and I wondered if he would fit inside me. His breaths were coming fast and shallow, just as mine were, and I didn't know if he realised he was gripping my hips so tightly, it felt like pleasurable pain.
"Are you sure about this?"
I was so far gone from my arousal, all I could do was nod and squeeze his erection more forcefully. He took that as my answer, groaned into my hair, and took my hand as he led me through the sitting room and up the carpeted stairs. I could feel the adrenaline pumping through my body, and my sex clenching in anticipation. At the top of the stairs, he led me past several doors, finally stopping at the one at the end of the hall. He opened the door silently and led me into the dark space. He quickly turned on a light, shut the door and pushed me up against it. At last, I was finally going to lose my virginity, and to a man I truly cared for.
His mouth covered mine before I could anticipate what he was doing. His hands framed my face as his mouth took possession of mine. His tongue slid along my lips, wetting them before slipping past and plunging against mine. I moaned into his kiss as I let my hands explore his arms and back. I started to unbutton his shirt, but only got half-way before he broke away from me and ripped it off himself. Buttons flew in every direction and as he looked down at me, he looked like an animal finally set free. I stared at him. I don't think I had ever seen a male chest look as exquisitely delicious as Kerian's. His muscles stood out, the room's lighting casting shadows on every hollow and crevice. His body was big and muscular, the tendons and sinews toned to perfection. I could see the outline of his erection as it pressed against his pants—the room's light seemed to showcase it even more. I licked my lips as I stared at him. He slowly walked closer to me and placed his hands on my shoulders, then ran his fingertips over my revealed skin as he slowly slid my dress off my shoulders. The fabric fell easily off my body, pooling at my feet.
He stood staring at me and I started to feel a little self-conscious. My breasts weren't very big, so the fact that I hadn't worn a bra was starting to make me doubt my decision. I felt nervous as I stood there. No man had ever seen me naked, and I wondered what was running through his mind.
"You are the most beautiful creature I've ever laid eyes on."
My breath hitched in my throat at his softly spoken words. His voice was deep and husky, and his eyes dropped farther down, giving him a sleepy appearance. I cleared my throat, but didn't say anything in response to his comment. I stood absolutely still as he brought his hand to my collarbone and lightly traced it. He placed one hand on the door beside my head, his other teasing my flesh. I felt his hand shaking on my skin and closed my eyes in pleasure as he slowly brought his fingertips down to one of my breasts. He traced the nipple gently, making my nipple pucker and stand erect. I opened my eyes and stared at his dazed and dreamy face. I pressed my hands against the cool wood of the door as I saw his head descend towards my nipple. I braced myself as I felt his warm, wet mouth encase my now-throbbing nipple and felt him suck me. My head tipped back and rested on the door as I moaned at the erotic feel of his mouth sucking and nipping at my flesh. A continuous flow of moisture seeped out of me, and I braced my legs farther apart to relieve the pressure. He stroked my other breast and tweaked the nipple until the blood rushed to that spot and it stood hard. His mouth rotated between my breasts as his hands worked their way over my hips and to the top of my panties. He slid his fingers under the waistband, until that too was pooled at my ankles. He helped me step out of them, all the while never breaking contact with my nipples. He kissed his way down my ribs and over my stomach, nipping and licking into the crescent of my belly button. I reached for him, spreading my hands in his hair.
I watched as he made his way over my hips, lifting my leg to drape over his shoulder. I knew what he was about to do, and I was a little apprehensive about having him so close to something so private. His mouth traced where my leg met my mound, his wet tongue skating over my flesh and causing goose bumps. He ran his hands over the tops of my thighs and moved his fingers over my now-saturated pussy lips. I felt him slide his fingers over them before gently pulling them apart. I felt very exposed, but what he was doing to me was making me so aroused, I would have let him do anything. I felt my clit give a mighty throb as his fingers ran up and down the inside of my lips. I was soaking wet, and his fingers slid easily over my flesh.
"You're so wet for me."
He growled the words so close to my vagina, I thought I'd have an orgasm then and there. My voice broke on a moan as I felt his mouth encase my clit and give it several sucks while his finger delved into my opening. My clit throbbed in his mouth, and I could feel myself clench around his thrusting finger. His free hand gripped my ass from between my legs before running back to my vagina and spreading me wide. I felt his tongue flatten and drag up from my opening all the way to my clit before sucking my clit back into the hot cavern of his mouth. I was so close to orgasm, I could feel myself pulling his hair. I let go in fear I might be hurting him.
"No, pull it. It will make it that much better."
That was all it took, his erotic words, to send me over the edge and into a pleasure-filled haze I had never before experienced. I gripped fistfuls of his hair as he continued to suck at my clit and plunge into my pussy. I thrusted down on his finger and moaned loudly. My body slowly came down from its shivering high, but I still felt little tremors coursing through me as he scooped me up and walked me over to the bed. I felt drugged and light-headed, and his every move made my clit pulse with aftershocks. I moaned and stretched as I felt cool silken sheets meet my back. I opened my eyes. He removed my shoes before unbuckling his pants, and stepping out of them and his underwear. He stood naked and glorious. My gaze travelled down his rippling abdomen to the dark thatch of hair at the base of his penis. My eyes widened at the size of him. His shaft was hard, and I could see moisture leaking from the slit. He was huge, much bigger than I thought a man could be. I doubted whether he would fit inside me. As if reading my mind, he swallowed and moved over me on the bed.
"Don't worry, it'll fit. I'm going to make you feel so good."
Maybe he had seen the worry in my face, or maybe he had always gotten that reaction when a woman saw his...monster. I debated again whether I should tell him I'd never slept with a man before, but decided against it. He'd find out soon enough. He kissed me slowly as he nudged my legs wider with his hips and settled in between them. Since I was so wet, his penis slid against the flesh of my vagina on its own, rocking back and forth along my passage and making me shiver. Even though I'd just had an explosive orgasm, my body lit up like it had never been pleasured before. He grabbed my breast, pinching the nipple and then smoothing his palm over the tip.
"Are you ready? I want you to be ready before I claim you."
I had no idea what he was talking about when he said he would claim me, but I couldn't deny how those words made my heart pick up speed and my body let out more lubrication, as if saying, Yes, Kerian, claim me now! I pressed my breasts up against his chest and broke our kiss to look into his eyes. The green of his irises always startled me, the colour so bright and vibrant, it made me lose my breath.
"I've never been more ready for anything then I am right now.” He stared at me for a moment, and I worried if I'd said something wrong.
"Oh fuck, baby, I want to be inside of you so bad."
I had never heard a man use such explicit language before, and it turned me on. He put his hands between our bodies, and took hold of himself as he placed the head of his penis to the entrance of my body. My mouth dropped open as I felt him gently press inside me. The head felt so big and hot, I braced my legs wider apart to make sure he had enough room. He slowly pressed in and dropped his face to the hollow of my neck. I felt so stretched with every inch he pushed into me. I had a firm grip on his biceps as he slowly continued to press inside me. My inner muscles clenched around him, and he groaned against my skin. He filled me so completely that I felt claimed, just like he said he was going to do.
"Are you okay?"
His voice sounded strangled and hoarse. I nodded and felt him slowly continue to press into me. I was breaking a sweat at the pleasure-pain he was causing. He was so thick and long, he had a hard time getting fully inside me, even with all my natural lubrication.
"Almost there. Just a little bit more, baby."
He whispered the words against my heated flesh, and I dug my fingers into his skin in response. He suddenly stopped, his body tensing all over as he raised his face to look at me, his eyebrows knitted and a look of confusion on his face. I knew he had finally realised I was a virgin.
"You're untouched?"
I stared at him, feeling my own eyebrows draw together at his choice of words. They sounded so old-world, not something a modern man would say. I nodded, but didn't say anything. We looked at each other as my body clenched and unclenched around his shaft. We both moaned each time, but he didn't move either to pull out or go farther inside.
"Are you sure about this, Ashliyn?"
Was I sure? I know it wasn't the best time to think about it, but I didn't need to. “Kerian...” I stopped after I said his name and thought about how I would word it. “I...I've never found someone whom I wanted to share this part of myself with.” I looked into his eyes as I continued, “You make me feel something I've never felt before, and I want to be as close with you as possible. I want to give you something no one else will ever have.” I didn't know if I had overdone it and scared him off. As he continued to brace himself over me in silence, I worried I had done just that. Just as I was starting to sweat at the uncomfortable silence, he dipped his head down and kissed me softly on the lips.