I was frightened by this glimpse of the dreamer in him, he who had always appeared practical to me, able to solve all problems that came his way. I was afraid for him then, hoping that his practical side would always see him through his life and that his dreams would only come in his sleep, when he was safe from harm.
We heard Isabel calling us and we turned to walk back to the village. “I do know what it feels like to be the unwelcome man in love with another man’s daughter,” he said.
* * *
The wedding was conducted in accordance with Chinese custom. Ming was hidden beneath a layer of red veil and dangling tassels and dressed in a gold and maroon robe. She was taken to the bridegroom’s house in a bright red wooden palanquin, where she knelt before the bridegroom’s parents and served them tea and promised to obey them. As she passed me her head turned and, knowing she was watching me from beneath her veil, I moved my lips and wished her well. She gave a slight tilt of her head and moved on.
Isabel smiled at me and I said, “It’ll be fine.” She gave my hand a squeeze.
The wedding luncheon was lavish, as face decreed. We entered the community hall of the village and sat at one of forty tables, wondering what the whole event had cost Uncle Lim. Isabel plucked the menu from the center of the table.
“What does it say?” she asked me.
“Roast suckling pig, sharks’ fin soup, steamed ginger fish, abalone, roasted sesame chicken, mandarin orange duck. Almost everything,” I said, using my knowledge of Japanese to decipher the Chinese writing. I was distracted by the loud music from the Chinese orchestra and the firecrackers. The last two empty places at our table were filled by Towkay Yeap and Kon. I put down the menu, delighted to see my friend. He too was dressed formally but in his favorite color of white.
The curtains of the wooden stage opened and an opera began. The sounds of the erhu and the peipa, accompanied by clashing cymbals and drums, vied with the singers’ high feline voices. My father suppressed a wince as the high notes were clawed for and we all laughed.
“Sorry,” he said to Towkay Yeap, his face going red.
“Can I safely say you do not know this opera at all?” Towkay Yeap said, amused. My father shook his head.
“This happens to be one of our most popular ones. ‘The Butterfly Lovers.’ Very tragic, the story.”
Isabel leaned forward and said, “Please tell us about it.”
“Once, many dynasties ago in China, a girl, Lady Zhu, wanted to study in a school high in the mountains. Of course, being a girl she was not allowed to study at all. She was supposed to stay at home and take care of her family and later the husband whom her parents would choose for her.”
“A tradition worth keeping,” I said, giving Isabel a grin.
“Do
be quiet, Philip,” she said.
“Lady Zhu was a headstrong girl, Isabel. Very much like you, or so I have heard,” Towkay Yeap said, his eyes narrowing with gentle humor.
“Spot-on, old chap,” my father said, crossing his arms at his chest and leaning back into his seat.
Isabel frowned at our father. “Please go on, Towkay Yeap.”
“As I said, Lady Zhu knew what she wanted. And so, deceiving her parents and breaking tradition, she put on male clothing and obtained entry into the school. And there she fell in love with a fellow student, Liang, who had no idea at all of her real identity. At the end of the three years of their studies they parted at the Eighteen Mile Pavilion and there Lady Zhu told Liang that she wished him to marry her younger sister. She told Liang to come to her home in a year’s time to ask for the girl’s hand in marriage. Liang came within the set time and realized there was no such sister, that in fact Lady Zhu had been the one who wanted to marry him. He fell in love with her when she revealed her true self to him. Theirs was a meeting of the souls and Lady Zhu and Liang knew they had each found the one person who would travel with them, even after death, all through their subsequent lives.
“Their parents inevitably discovered Lady Zhu’s subterfuge and her family was shamed. The lovers were separated. Lady Zhu and Liang were locked up in their homes. A marriage was hastily arranged for Lady Zhu with a family who did not mind the scandal. Liang pined for her. He fell ill and passed away.
“On the day of her wedding Lady Zhu heard this sad news and fled to the tomb of Liang, where she cried so hard and so long that even the heavens were moved. The sky churned and grew stormy and dark and the winds began to blow. No one had ever seen such a fierce storm before. Lightning cracked open the tomb of Liang and Lady Zhu threw herself into it, just as her parents and the wedding retinue reached the grave.
“A pair of butterflies fluttered out from the grave. They floated together and rose high into the sky, finally able to be by each other’s side, leaving the sorrows of the world behind.”
“What an awful story to perform at a wedding,” my father said. I caught a glimpse of a crack in his memories, of his abandoned passion for butterflies and what that passion had cost him and my mother and me.
I knew Towkay Yeap had also felt my father’s swiftly suppressed sadness. He said quietly, “Ah, but you miss the point, Noel. It is a beautiful tale. What does it tell us? That love will find a way, no matter the obstacles. It tells us that love can transcend time and live on, long after you and I are gone. That is a message most suitable for a wedding; in fact, a most suitable message for life itself, do you not think so?”
Recalling Endo-san’s words to me, I agreed wholeheartedly with him.
* * *
After the last dish of sweet bean paste in fried dough had been served, Kon and I walked out of the hall. The sun floated above, its rays breaking through gaps in the pinkish cloud bank, like fingers dipping into the sea to feel its waters.
We walked through the dusty streets of the village. There was not a single person outside; everyone was still enjoying the luncheon and the copious amount of alcohol that had to accompany all wedding banquets. The mongrel dogs that had run about us when we arrived, sniffing at our strange smells, were all asleep beneath the porches, their ears twitching at the flies that tried to enter their dreams.
At the water’s edge we stopped and enjoyed the wind. We took off our shoes and the coarse sand was like grains of heated rice husks beneath our bare feet. The hall had been too warm inside and I had drunk too many glasses of brandy.
In his completely white attire, Kon had the appearance of purity, slashed only by his red tie, which reared like an angry serpent as the wind blew. “I’ve been waiting for your reply,” he said, a register of reprimand in his voice. “Have you made up your mind to join Force 136?”
“I’m sorry,” I said. “I can’t go with you. I have to stay. I have to make sure my family will be safe and only my being here can calm my fears. I’d be worried sick about them if I were stuck in the jungle.” I saw the disappointment on his face and felt somehow that I had failed him.
“You went to see Tanaka-san,” Kon said. “He told me about your conversation with him.”
I made a halfhearted attempt at explaining my situation. He stopped me and said softly, “Don’t worry too much about it. I’m sure you’re right. Your family would need you here.”
I nodded at him, grateful that he understood in spite of his disappointment. That was one of the wonderful things about Kon—he understood so many things without being told.
“You realize that when the Japanese enter Penang my father can’t protect Mr. Hutton anymore? That the guards will have to be withdrawn?” Kon said.
“Naturally. They have their own families to protect, after all. That’s why I have to stay. I’m certain Endo-san has no knowledge of the attempt on my father’s life, but Saotome in Kuala Lumpur—he’s been eyeing our company.”
We were silent for a while. I enjoyed his presence, glad to have known him, for he was now closer to me than either of my two brothers.
“Will I see you again before you leave?” I asked. It was so peaceful to sit by the sea and I wanted to prolong our time here in this village that lay so far away from the concerns of the world.
“I do not think so,” Kon said.
“It’ll probably be a breach of your security but will you let me know where you’ll be sent to?” I asked.
“I’ll find a way,” he said and the caveat that I keep his eventual location a secret did not have to be stated out loud. I held out my hand and he took it in his.
“Take care, my brother,” he said.
“I will. You watch out for danger,” I said, my voice strained. “I’ll say some prayers for you at the temple.”
He smiled. “You’d better watch out yourself, you are turning Chinese.”
Thinking of the duality of life, I asked—more to myself than to anyone else: “That’s not such a bad thing, is it?”
* * *
Ming had changed into a bright red
cheongsam,
and she and her husband were moving from table to table, thanking the guests for coming. He was made to drink a toast at every table and by the time they came around to ours he was quite drunk.
“This is Ah Hock,” Ming said, pulling at her husband’s arm, giving a wide smile to Isabel. His name meant “fortunate” and that day, with Ming by his side, I thought he was. He was a squat man with a head of short, uncontrollable spiky hair, his skin dark from his days on the fishing trawler. His long arms were bulbous with muscle and I could picture him on his boat, feet strong on deck, his arms pulling in his catch. He did not look like his father at all.
“Congratulations,” my father said, shaking Ah Hock’s hand.
“Thank you for your kind wishes,” Ming said and then smiled at me. “Everyone here wants to know about you. They ask, ‘Who is that unusual-looking boy?’ “
“You may tell them who I am,” I said. “Only the good things though, mind you.”
“I have,” she said.
“Well, it’s getting late and we have to leave soon,” I said. “May you have lots of children and lots of happiness.” She gave another smile and moved away to the next table. I never expected to see much of her again. She would have her own life now, in the village that had adopted her.
And once again, in the car as we drove out of the village, I wished them all well in a silent prayer that included everyone I knew, even Endo-san. I prayed so strongly, so earnestly, that I thought when I opened my eyes I would see my entreaties in some physical form, standing guard over us like the gigantic shrine rising from the sea off the coast of Japan. I prayed that the gods that protected the island of Penang and watched over its people should always maintain their unflagging vigilance.
BOOK TWO
Chapter One
My father maintained an old Hutton custom of beginning every Monday with a family breakfast when all of us were required to sit down together for the first meal of the week.
When we came downstairs to the dining room on December 8, 1941, we had no inkling of the events that had unfolded while we were asleep. We sat in appalled silence at the breakfast table as my father read us the news, the tremor in his hands rustling the newspaper. At 12:15 that morning troops from the Japanese Eighteenth Division had landed at Kota Bahru, on the northeastern coast of the Malayan Peninsula, from the Gulf of Siam. Pearl Harbor was attacked an hour later. Until that morning I had never heard of the place.
The expected full-scale assault on Singapore had not materialized. Instead the Japanese had chosen to cut through hundreds of miles of thick, “impenetrable” rainforest and scale the mountain ranges that streaked down the spine of Malaya. I knew who had advised on that tactic. It was a classic
aikijutsu
move: not to meet the forces of Singapore directly but to land obliquely on the east coast, where Endo-san had gone after I had returned from visiting my grandfather in Ipoh.
All that morning the servants moved around the house quietly, their usual soft conversation as they went about their work stilled. I wondered if Endo-san had known and what his reaction would be. Isabel’s face told me she was thinking of the same question, and I turned away from her.
I opened the windows in the office and stared at the street below. He had linked me to the war, to Japan’s ambitions, and this realization weighed me down as though I had been burdened with another identity, taken deep down to the floor of the ocean. I structured my breathing into the pattern of
zazen
but it was useless.
Admiral Sir Tom Phillips, commander-in-chief of Britain’s Eastern Fleet in Singapore, sent two of his ships to meet the Japanese navy. The HMS
Repulse
and the HMS
Prince of Wales
were two of the best warships the British navy had. William was on the second ship and we stayed close to the radio as news of the battle came to us in spurts and through almost incomprehensible static. Both ships were sunk by Japanese planes and we were informed of it a day later. Over six hundred lives were lost and we had no way of knowing if William was safe.
* * *