myself to the handsome woman sitting in a rocker on
the front porch.
She was dressed in white today instead of black, a
short tennis dress, with a racket and ball bag set beside
her chair. Beads of sweat sparkled across her forehead
and up into the hairline of her tied-back copper hair.
The years hadn't hurt her at all. If anything, she was
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even more lovely now, her complexion smooth and
tanned, her flesh firm and elastic.
"I'm Catherine Trahearne," she said unnecessarily as
she stood up. "I've been playing tennis in town, and I
haven't had a chance to clean up, so you will have to
excuse me."
"That's okay," I said. "I've been fishing."
"Any luck?" she asked.
"Enough for our dinner," the old woman said, "but
just barely." It sounded like both a rebuke and a
command, but for what and to do what escaped me.
"Every one I catch is luck," I said.
"You found Trahearne," Ca:therine said, "so I
choose to believe that you fish with skill rather than
luck."
"Ha," the old woman snorted. "A complete waste."
I didn't know if she meant my fishing or my hunting.
"Whatever, thanks for bringing him home in one
piece," Catherine said. "I'm certain that it was no easy
task. "
" It wasn't all that hard," I said.
"Ha," the old lady added.
"Mother Trahearne, may I get your glass of wine?"
Catherine asked.
"I think I'll wait until I go to bed," the old woman
said "Maybe I'll sleep tonight if I wait."
"Of course," Catherine said, then to me she added,
"I would ask you to stay for dinner but I'm sure that
you have other plans. You must excuse me now,
though. I must shower before dinner." I had the uneasy
impression that she had told me she was going to
shower not out of politeness but rather so I would think
of her tanned and naked body standing under the rush
of hot sudsy water. "If you will send my your bill, Mr.
Sughrue , I'll see that it is taken care of immediately.
And let me thank you once again. It has been a
pleasure meeting you." She shook my hand and went
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inside the house, the fiat, smooth muscles of her thighs
rippling in the afternoon sunlight.
"How my son could give up a woman like that, I'll
never understand," Edna Trahearne said.
"I wouldn't know about that," I mumbled.
"Don't be such a twit," the old woman chided me. "I
appreciate the trout, son, but not enough to allow you
to be a twit on my front porch."
"I'm sorry," I said.
"Don't appologize, either," she said.
I picked up my rod and said goodbye. As I walked
back to Traheame's house, I was convinced that I had
been manipulated in ways I didn't even begin to
understand, for reasons way beyond me. Maybe I was
just a convenient target. Or maybe I had wandered into
a loony bin. They all had to be slightly crazy to live so
close to one another, but I didn't know what was going
on. My job was over anyway. All I had to know was
that Melinda had promised steaks for dinner. I wanted
red meat, two drinks of good whiskey, a sober night's
sleep, and then I wanted to get the hell away from all of
them.
Dinner was ready when I got back to the house, but
Trahearne was too hammered to eat. He sat in his
sutdy, looking at his desk, which was covered with
scraps of yellow paper off a legal pad, idly twirling an
old .45 service automatic while Melinda tried to hold
the steaks at medium rare.
"Now you know," he mumbled as I stepped into the
study with a drink for the two of us.
"I know dinner's ready," I said.
"You've met the crone and the dragon lady and seen
the hall of lost dreams," he said, "so what else is there
to know?"
"Let's eat," I suggested.
"Eat, eat," he said, then broke into his poetic
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brogue. "Matched with an aged wife, I mete and dole
unequal laws unto a savage race who eat and sleep and
breed and know not me--"
"It little profits that an idle king," I added, moving
back a line, "fucks up the dinner. "
"How the hell do you know that line?" he asked,
drunken puzzlement twisting his face.
"When I was a domestic spy at the University of
Colorado for the United States Army," I said, "I took
an M.A. in English Literature. "
"You're shittin' me," he said, rearing back in his
chair.
"Not at all."
"By god, boy, let's have a drink," he said, "an' you
can tell all 'bout your life as a spy."
"Over dinner," I suggested.
"All right, godd�mmit," he grunted as he heaved his
hulk out of the chair. "All right, you bastards and your
goddamned dinner," he complained, but he followed
me to the table.
If I had known how he was going to act, I would have
left him in his study quoting bad Tennyson. His steak
was overdone, his baked potato cold, his salad too
vinegary-or so he claimed in a loud, drunken voice.
He ate a few bites, moved his food about his plate as if
he were playing some sort of victual chess, then he
slumped in his captain's chair at the head of the table,
sleeping, thankfully, with only a few light snores.
Melinda smiled at me and shook her head. But not in
reproach.
"Poor dear," she whispered. "His work never goes
well when he first gets home. If you don't mind, we'll
just let him sleep there while we eat."
"I don't mind," I said. "I'm so hungry I could even
eat with him awake. "
"Don't be mean," she said lightly, then smiled again
and brushed her hand through her short hair, the clay
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dust in it fluffing out in a soft cloud. She went back to
her steak, eating like a farm hand at the end of the
harvest season. When she finished it, she sliced off a
portion of Trahearne's, then ate that too with equal
relish. When she finished that, she suggested coffee on
the deck, and we left the big man sleeping in his chair.
It was past eight o'clock but the northern sun still
settled slowly toward the low mountains in the west.
The grass of the pasture grew darkly lush in the limpid
air, and the forested hills shifted from green to a
darkness as black as dead coals. Over the flats,
nighthawks flitted with throbbing cries through the
willows, and small trout leapt into the floating haze
above the creek. In the near . distance, the lights of
Cauldron Springs flickered like signal fires.
"It's a shame," Melinda said softly, "that he can't
write . . . about this place. My work has never gone
better, his never worse, and yet he says it isn't my fault.
Sometimes I wonder, though . . . " She paused to sip
her coffee and stare at me over the cup.
I had had all the confidences I could stand for one
day, so I turned to idle conversation.
"Were you raised around here?''
"What?" she said. The fading light was kind to her
features, and I thought that if she worked at it-maybe
fixed her face and let her hair grow and wore something
besides baggy clothes-she might be an attractive
woman. As I studied her, she blushed, and I wondered
what she felt when she saw the polished beauty of
Catherine, wondered what her fingers felt as she
molded the lovely profiles on her clay.
"Were you raised in Montana?" I asked.
"Oh no," she answered quickly, almost as if she felt
guilty because she hadn't been. "Marin County," she
said, "across the Bay from San Francisco, and Sun
Valley, and the south of France." It sounded like a line
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she had said so many times it had begun to bore her.
She noticed it too. "I'm sorry," she added, "I love this
part of the country, and I'm afraid that I sounded a bit
supercilious. Poor little rich girl, you know, and all
that. I wish I had been raised on a little ranch just like
this, but my parents were both well-off-not wealthy,
mind you, but well-off-incomes from estates and
trusts-and they dabbled at things, you see, the cello
and violin, abstract painting, scuba diving, and skiing.
The worst sort of dilettantes, I'm afraid," she said with
a gentle laugh, "but very good and kind people. "
"Are they still traveling about?" I said, still making
conversation with the poor little well-off girl to whom
Traheame, for all his faults, must have seemed as real
and exciting as a storm in the North Atlantic.
"My parents?"
"Yes."
"No, I'm afraid they're dead."
"I'm sorry," I said.
"My mother died in a skiing accident in the Alps,"
she said, "and my father died of grief. Or so I told
myself. He ran his Alfa off a curve on the Costa
Brava."
"I'm sorry," I repeated.
"Thank you, but there's no need," she said. "It
seems so long ago now, so far away." Then she sat up
and brightened. "I'm certainly glad that you two
weren't hurt in the accident."
"Just a fender bender," I said, wondering what
Traheame had told her.
"Oh, it must have been more than that," she said,
"for Trahearne to be in the hospital for three days."
"Observation," I said, glad that I had my wits about
me. If Trahearne didn't want his young wife to know
that he had been shot, then I certainly wasn't going to
tell her.
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"He must have taken quite a spill when he was