Read This Changes Everything Online
Authors: Naomi Klein
With many of the biggest pools of untapped carbon on lands controlled by some of the poorest people on the planet, and with emissions rising most rapidly in what were, until recently, some of the poorest parts of the world, there is simply no credible way forward that does not involve
redressing the real roots of poverty.
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. Renewables are, in fact, much more reliable than power based on extraction, since those energy models require continuous new inputs to avoid a crash, whereas once the initial investment has been made in renewable energy infrastructure, nature provides the raw materials for free.
“Stop calling me resilient. I’m not resilient. Because every time you say, ‘Oh, they’re resilient,’ you can do something else to me.”
—Tracie Washington, New Orleans–based civil rights attorney, 2010
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“That woman is the first environment is an original instruction. In pregnancy our bodies sustain life. . . . At the breast of women,
the generations are nourished. From the bodies of women flows the relationship of those generations both to society and to the natural world. In this way is the earth our mother, the old people tell us. In this way, we as women are earth.”
—Katsi Cook, Mohawk midwife, 2007
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At the beginning of this book, I wrote about how becoming a mother in an age of extinction brought the climate crisis into
my heart in a new way. I had felt the crisis before, of course, as all of us do on some level. But for the most part, my climate fears expressed themselves as low-level melancholy, punctuated by moments of panic, rather than full-blown grief.
At some point about seven years ago, I realized that I had become so convinced that we were headed toward a grim ecological collapse that I was losing my
capacity to enjoy my time in nature. The more beautiful and striking the experience, the more I found myself grieving its inevitable loss—like someone unable to fall fully in love because she can’t stop imagining the inevitable heartbreak.
Looking out at an ocean bay on British Columbia’s Sunshine Coast,
a place teeming with life, I would suddenly picture it barren—the eagles, herons, seals,
and otters, all gone. It got markedly worse after I covered the BP spill in the Gulf of Mexico: for two years after, I couldn’t look at any body of water without imagining it covered in oil. Sunsets were particularly difficult; the pink glow on the waves looked too much like petroleum sheen. And once, while grilling a beautiful piece of fresh sockeye salmon, I caught myself imagining how, as a wizened
old woman, I would describe this extraordinary fish—its electric color, its jeweled texture—to a child living in a world where these wild creatures had disappeared.
I called my morbid habit “pre-loss,” a variation on the “pre-crimes” committed in the movie
Minority Report.
And I know I’m not the only one afflicted. A few years ago,
The Nation
magazine, where I am a columnist, hosted a one-week
cruise to Alaska. The full-page ad that ran in the magazine carried the tag line: “Come see the glaciers before they melt.” I called my editor in a fury: How could we joke about melting glaciers while promoting a carbon-spewing holiday? Are we saying that global warming is funny? That we have no role to play in trying to stop it? The ad was pulled, but I realized then that, poor taste aside, this
is how a great many of us are consuming wilderness these days—as a kind of nihilistic, final farewell. Gobble it all up before it’s gone.
This ecological despair was a big part of why I resisted having kids until my late thirties. For years I joked about giving birth to a Mad Maxian climate warrior, battling alongside her friends for food and fuel. And I was also fully aware that if we were to
avoid that future, we would all have to cut down on the number of super-consumers we were producing. It was around the time that I began work on this book that my attitude started to shift. Some of it, no doubt, was standard-issue denial (what does one more kid matter . . . ). But part of it was also that immersing myself in the international climate justice movement had helped me imagine various
futures that were decidedly less bleak than the post-apocalyptic cli-fi pastiche that had become my unconscious default. Maybe, just maybe, there was a future where replacing our own presence on earth could once again be part of a cycle of creation, not destruction.
And I was lucky: pregnant the first month we started trying. But then, just as fast, my luck ran out. A miscarriage. An ovarian
tumor. A cancer
scare. Surgery. Month after month of disappointing single pink lines on home pregnancy tests. Another miscarriage.
Then I stepped into the vortex I came to call the fertility factory (“do you have to call it that?” my patient husband pleaded). In its labyrinth of rooms in a downtown office building, drugs, hormones, and day surgeries were dispensed as liberally as toothbrushes
at a dentist’s office. The working assumption was that any woman who steps through the door will do whatever it takes to land a newborn in her arms, even if that means having three (or five) newborns instead of one. And even if that means seriously compromising her own health with risky drugs and poorly regulated medical procedures in the process.
I did try to be a good patient for a while, but
it didn’t work. The last straw was a doctor telling me, after my first (and only) round of in vitro fertilization (IVF) that I probably had “egg quality issues” and I should consider an egg donor. Feeling like a supermarket chicken past its best-before date, and with more than a few questions about how much these doctors were driven by a desire to improve their own “live birth” success rates, I
stopped going. I tossed the pills, safely disposed of the syringes, and moved on.
Informing friends and family that I had given up on a technological fix to my apparent inability to conceive was surprisingly difficult. People often felt the need to tell me stories about friends and acquaintances who had become parents despite incredible odds. Usually these stories involved people who got pregnant
using one of the technologies that I had decided not to try (with the guilt-inducing implication that, by drawing the line where I did, I was clearly not committed enough to procreation). Quite a few were about women who had used every technology available—nine rounds of IVF, egg donors, surrogacy—and then gotten pregnant as soon as they stopped. Common to all these stories was the unquestioned
assumption that the body’s No never really means no, that there is always a workaround. And, moreover, that there is something wrong with choosing not to push up against biological barriers if the technology is available.
On some level this faith is perfectly understandable. The female reproductive system is amazingly resilient—two ovaries and fallopian tubes when one would do; hundreds of thousands
of eggs when all that is really needed are a few dozen good ones; and a generous window of opportunity to con
ceive spanning ages twelve to fifty (more or less). Yet what I felt my body telling me was that, even with all this ingenious built-in resilience, there is still a wall that can be hit, a place beyond which we cannot push. I felt that wall as a real structure inside my body and slamming
against it had left me bruised. I didn’t want to keep bashing away.
My resistance to further intervention did not come from some fixed idea about how babies should be conceived “naturally” or not at all. I know that for men and women with clear infertility diagnoses, these technologies are a joyous miracle, and that for gay, lesbian, and trans couples, some form of assisted reproduction is the
only route to biological parenthood. And I believe that everyone who wants to become a parent should have the option, regardless of their marital status, sexual orientation, or income (in my view, these procedures should be covered by public health insurance, rather than restricted to those who can afford the astronomical fees).
What made me uneasy at the clinic were, oddly, many of the same
things that made me wary of the geoengineers: a failure to address fundamental questions about underlying causes, as well as the fact that we seem to be turning to high-risk technologies not just when no other options are available, but at the first sign of trouble—even as a convenient shortcut (“tick tock,” women of a certain age are told). Where I live, for instance, the system makes it significantly
less complex to find an egg donor or a surrogate than to adopt a baby.
And then there is the matter of unacknowledged risks. Despite the casual attitude of many practitioners in this more than $10 billion global industry, the risks are real. A Dutch study, for instance, showed that women who had undergone in vitro fertilization were twice as likely to develop “ovarian malignancies”; an Israeli
one found that women who had taken the widely prescribed fertility drug clomiphene citrate (which I was on) were at “significantly higher” risk for breast cancer; and Swedish researchers showed that IVF patients in the early stages of pregnancy were seven times more likely to develop a life-threatening blood clot in the lung. Other studies showed various kinds of risks to the children born of these
methods.
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I did not know about this research when I was going to the clinic; my concerns stemmed from a generalized fear that by taking drugs that dramatically increased the number of eggs available for fertilization each month, I
was overriding one of my body’s safety mechanisms, forcing something that was better not forced. But there was little space for expressing these doubts at the clinic:
conversations with the doctors were as brief as speed dates and questions seemed to be regarded as signs of weakness. Just look at all those joyous birth announcements from grateful couples papering every available surface in the examination rooms and hallways—what could be more important than that?
So why share these experiences and observations in a book about climate change? Partly in the
spirit of transparency. The five years it took to research and write this book were the same years that my personal life was occupied with failed pharmaceutical and technological interventions, and ultimately, pregnancy and new motherhood. I tried, at first, to keep these parallel journeys segregated, but it didn’t always work. Inevitably, one would escape its respective box to interrupt the other.
What I was learning about the ecological crisis informed the responses to my own fertility crisis; and what I learned about fertility began to leave its mark on how I saw the ecological crisis.
Some of the ways in which these two streams in my life intersected were simply painful. For instance, if I was going through a particularly difficult infertility episode, just showing up to a gathering
of environmentalists could be an emotional minefield. The worst part were the ceaseless invocations of our responsibilities to “our children” and “our grandchildren.” I knew these expressions of intergenerational duty were heartfelt and in no way meant to be exclusionary—and yet I couldn’t help feeling shut out. If caring about the future was primarily a function of love for one’s descendants, where
did that leave those of us who did not, or could not, have children? Was it even possible to be a real environmentalist if you didn’t have kids?
And then there was the whole Earth Mother/Mother Earth thing: the idea that women, by right of our biological ability to carry children, enjoy a special connection to that fertile and bountiful matriarch that is the earth herself. I have no doubt that
some women experience that bond with nature as a powerful creative force. But it’s equally true that some of the most wildly creative and nurturing women (and men) that I know are childless by choice. And where did the equation of motherhood with the earth leave
women like me, who wanted to conceive but were not able to? Were we exiles from nature? In my bleaker moments, I battled the conviction
that the connection between my body and the cycle of creation had been unnaturally severed, like a dead telephone line.
But along the way, that feeling changed. It’s not that I got in touch with my inner Earth Mother; it’s that I started to notice that if the earth is indeed our mother, then far from the bountiful goddess of mythology, she is a mother facing a great many fertility challenges
of her own. Indeed one of the most distressing impacts of the way in which our industrial activities affect the natural world is that they are interfering with systems at the heart of the earth’s fertility cycles, from soil to precipitation. I also began to notice that a great many species besides ours are bashing up against their own infertility walls, finding it harder and harder to successfully
reproduce and harder still to protect their young from the harsh new stresses of a changing climate.
On a much more optimistic note, I started to learn that protecting and valuing the earth’s ingenious systems of reproducing life and the fertility of all of its inhabitants, may lie at the center of the shift in worldview that must take place if we are to move beyond extractivism. A worldview
based on regeneration and renewal rather than domination and depletion.
Since I had already quit the clinic, I had no idea that I was pregnant when I went to Louisiana to cover the BP spill. A few days after I got home, though, I could tell something was off and did a home pregnancy test. Two lines this time, but the second one was strangely faint. “You can’t be just a
little bit pregnant,” the saying goes. And yet that is what I seemed to be. After going in for more tests, my family doctor called to tell me (in the hope-dampening tone with which I had become familiar) that while I was pregnant my hormone levels were much too low and I would likely miscarry, for the third time.
Instantly my mind raced back to the Gulf. While covering the spill, I had breathed
in toxic fumes for days and, at one point, waded up to my waist
in contaminated water to get to a secluded beach covered in oil. I searched on the chemicals BP was using in huge quantities, and found reams of online chatter linking them to miscarriages. Whatever was happening, I had no doubt that it was my doing.