What You Do To Me (Unexpected Love) (43 page)

             
“Something is on your
mind,
honey, so share.” My mom and I
had
never had the relationship where I
told
her my personal issues. It was always a relationship where we never scratched past the surface. That was what Lexi and Derek were for and I didn’t know if I wanted to open up to her about any of this with Alex. “Is it about the pictures? I knew you would be upset, but they aren’t that bad. If anything, it shows how much he cares for you.”

             
I let out a sigh and took a sip of the
lemonade,
trying to figure out what to say in response. “Yes,
they’re
bothering me, but not as much as the pictures of the girls and
the fact that I’ve allowed him
into their
lives
and I have no clue where Alex stands with
his
feelings for me.”

             
“Well, I haven’t met him yet, but I’ve talked to him a few
times
. Yes, more th
a
n
once,
so don’t look at me like that.” I was not just looking at her, but glaring at her. “
He’s
in love with
you.
He
hasn’t said it, but that boy wants to
do
anything and everything to make you happy and he wants a chance to get to know the girls. I know
you’re
scared, but if you push him away because
you’re
scared, you
might be pushing
away the one
you’re
supposed
to be with.”

             
“Let’s say that we are meant to be
together
, how will it work? I can’t
…
I won’t move
my girls.
They
have a sense of security here and after the year
they have gone through
, I can’t
just
pick them up and move them. Even if I did, what would I do? Could you see me as a stay at home mom,
or
a trophy wife who is left home to make everything
perfect,
while he works and brings home the money? It wouldn’t work.”

             
“Have you told him this? Maybe he would want to move here.”

I start
ed
to laugh.
“
Funny, could you see him moving to this town of twenty five hundred people in the winter? Could you see him moving here and being happy?
Smal
l town life is not for him. He’d
be restless and I’d be to blame. I can’t force him into something like I did David,
because
that’s where we fell apart. I forced him into a family he wasn’t ready for or
wanted,
and I won’t do
that
to Alex.”

             
“Baby, maybe this family is what Alex wants. You won’t know until you talk to him. Open up, you have to let him in completely.”

             
“I don’t know if I can,
because
if he rejects me, it will destroy me. It’s better to end it now so there is less damage done.”

             
“Talking to you is like talking to your
father.
You
are both stubborn. I’m not saying anything more on this topic except
that you should
talk to the poor bo
y,
Abrianna, he has a say in this
too
.”

             
I sat on the porch and finished my lemonade.
I listened to my mom’s plans with the girls and she asked if there was anything
special,
they needed for school. She loved clothes shopping, something I did not inherit from her.
When I was
done,
I went
to
the couch
and lay down
with the
girls, watching
some of the movie. I held Jasmine and rubbed Josie’s feet.
Looking at them and their life here, I knew I couldn’t take them away from my parents, Lexi and everything they had become so comfortable with. They needed their
security.
I needed
them
to have the security
and deep
down,
I knew life with Alex wouldn’t allow them to have it.
When it was
bedtime,
I tucked the girls into their beds and kissed them goodnight. Josie pulled me in and told me to
tell
Alex she missed him. I told her I would, but the statement made my heart ache a
bit,
knowing
that
after this
trip,
he probably wouldn’t be in their lives anymore.

             
When I landed in
Portland,
it was in the early evening and after the second flight of four
hours,
I was tired. I was tired from all the conversations I was having in my head between Alex and myself. I was glad I would have a little time getting settled before seeing him. I knew Alex had a sound check and was sending a driver to pick me up. When I
left
the baggage claim
area,
I found the driver holding a sign with my name on it. He grabbed my bag and I followed him to an awaiting town car. When I climbed
in,
Alex was sitting in the backseat.
Immediately,
he scooped me up and placed me on his lap. Our mouths connected quickly and my hands were in his hair. I hadn’t realized how much I missed
and wanted
him until that very minute. It wasn’t until the driver got in that I realized how consumed I became in that moment. I broke from the kiss and slid off his lap. Alex let out a moan and I leaned
in, giving
him another kiss. He picked up my legs, draping them in his lap. Alex lightly ran his hands up and down my
legs,
sending goose bumps and shots of electricity through my body.

             
“I thought you had sound check?”

             
“
I do, but I needed to see you. The driver is dropping me off at the Amphitheater after I get you to the hotel. I’ll be cutting it close, but
you’re
worth it.” Alex winked at me.

             
“You didn’t have to
do that.
I could have managed, but I’m glad I get to see you for a few minutes. What time should I be at the show?”

             
“Not till later if you want, we picked up a local band here, so we have two opening bands tonight, but if you come
sooner,
I can spend a little more time with you before I go on. Sam will be hanging with you tonight, well, until I’m done anyway.” He brought his hands up behind my butt and pulled me up onto
his lap again. His mouth devoured
mine and I let out a moan. “You have no idea how much I’ve missed you.”
God,
I missed him too, but I couldn’t say it, I couldn’t open up.

             
We stopped in front of the hotel and I let out a moan. I didn’t want this to end. I didn’t want to leave him. “What time do you have to be there again?” I wanted
him;
I needed him, even though I knew it would make it harder in the end to say
good-bye
.

             
“Thirty minutes and it’s a twenty minute drive out of the city.”

             
I moaned into his mouth, “That leaves you
ten.
What
are you going to do with that much time?”

             
Alex let out a sound that sounded almost like a growl. He opened the door and threw me over his shoulder. “Make sure that the bags are not brought in until
after
I
leave,
”
he
said
talking to the driver. “I’ll be back down in a few
minutes.
I need to get her settled.” At
that,
he smacked my butt and carried me into the lobby.

             
“
Al
e
x,
I can
walk.
People
are
staring
at us,
so
put me down.”
Reluctantly,
he put me down and at the moment I looked in his eyes, I saw the desire there and
it was
building more intense. When we got on the
elevator,
he crushed me into a corner and kissed me hard and passionately. I had to grab him to hold my balance.
When we reached our
floor,
Alex scooped me up and I wrapped my legs around him. He
carried me
down the hall to our hotel room door. The security guard
at the door
on
our
floor used his key card to let us in. I normally would
have felt
embarrassed, but at the
time,
I was grateful that we didn’t need to break our embrace. Alex
took
me to the bedroom and set me down
on the side of
the bed.

             
“
Okay
music
man,
we don’t have much tim
e, so take me hard and take me
now,
” I
said
,
as I was stripping off my tank top and kicking off my sandals.

             
“You are so fucking hot right now
and when we have time to talk I want to know about that tattoo
.” He reached
over, unbuttoned my shorts,
and slid
them
and
my
panties down to my ankles. I reached for his shirt, but before I could pull it off, Alex was on his knees and my leg was over his shoulder. He was licking and stroking me with his tongue. I was utterly consumed by him. “I almost forgot how good you
taste.
”
At
those
words,
I was sent into a
tailspin.
I had my hands clamped
in
Alex’s silky black hair and I could feel my orgasm ready to
explode
. All it took was Alex’s hard suck to send me over the edge. I was so consumed by the orgasm
that
I didn’t even feel Alex
laid
me
back
on the bed. He stood over
me,
pulling his shirt and jeans off. I wanted him inside
me, so
I reached out and grabbed at him to pull him inside. “Baby, this is going to be hard and fast, but tonight I am going to go
slow,
and
I will
love you like I need to.”

             
I was still so consumed by my first
orgasm,
I couldn’t say anything, but as soon as he entered
me,
I let out a moan, a moan of pure desire. Alex
wrapped my legs high around his waist and pushed in hard as he kissed and bit at my neck. I
didn’t
realized words were coming out of my mouth, but I was begging Alex to take me harder. I could feel myself on the brink again.

             
“Open your eyes and look at me.” I heard Alex’s voice over my moans of desire. I opened my eyes and looked right into his. “C
um
with me,
I
need this with you.” At those
words,
I came undone. Alex made a few more hard thrusts and
then
he stilled. He had a thin layer of sweat on him and a few beads of sweat on his neck by his
hairline
. I reached up and licked them off. Alex immediately crushed my mouth with his. I wrapped my arms around his neck and told him in my head that I loved him; I just couldn’t say the words aloud. I rolled Alex off me and
I
laid my head on his chest. “You better
go.
I’ll hurry up and get ready
to
meet you there.”

“I think I’ll skip the
show.
I’m staying right here.”

I picked my head up and kissed him on the nose.

“
Well,
you’ll be here alone,
because
I’m heading to a concert and I’m hoping to
make it with the lead singer of the headlining band tonight.”