| | March 29: A difficult day despite resolve. Trouble with the kids nowMichael's inertia, passivity, a mirror of Paul's? Anne's social schedule, home so little, attempts to manipulate between Paul and me. Kathryn's requests for stuff, movies, clothes, magazines, books. She asks for things all the time and sometimes forgets that I've already answered, already said "yes" and asks me again. You could say she's not getting what she needs.
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| | August 7: Anne remembered our anniversary yesterday and Kathryn remembered today. Oh, she cried so hard, my poor fragile Kathryn. It's hard for me to understand today why it was necessary to do this. Kathryn tries to hold us all together. She's always asking what we can all do together. She didn't want to go to the movie this afternoon because she would miss Anne's leaving for Gina's cabin. I hope Anne has a wonderful time. It's her only time away this summer. I wish I were away.
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| | September 2: The first day after Paul left. Things are better today. Last night they were so bad for me and the kids. I understand what the books mean by the off-the-wall stage.
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| | September 20: Swing night. A bad night. I'm washing the kids' clothes before they go to Paul's. They're all running behind in their homework and schedules. Me weeping. It is very hard to let them go. I don't want to do it.
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| | November 1: Then I got so angry with Anne.... She took my best sweater and turtleneck over to Paul's. She either hid them in her jacket or stuffed them in her bookbag. I said I needed it. She said,
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