Broken (The Onyx Wolves Book 2)
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Authors: Raven K. Asher
Broken
“The Onyx Wolves”
By: Raven K. Asher
“Barely Alive” (The Story of Alexis Rose) Book 1
“Running Scared” (The Story of Alexis Rose) Book 2
“Dead End” (The Story of Alexis Rose) Book 3
”The Complete Story of Alexis Rose” Books 1-3
“Losing Levi”
“When Worlds Collide and Stars Align”
“The Hidden Angel” (The Angels Evermore) Book 1
“Damage Me”
“Colton Clark” (A “Damage Me” Novella)
“Eden One, Season One (Episodes 1-12)”
“Alone” (Among the Dead Trilogy) Book 1
“Bound” (The Onyx Wolves) Book 1
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N
othing seemed real anymore.
Days go by without me even moving from my spot, lying on my bed still in my wolf form.
I had no reason to get up.
My heart was broken, my soul was broken, and I had no want nor will to go on with my life without Gage.
“Parker, Sweetheart, you need to get up and eat something.” London tries to convince me to once again get up and move.
It wasn’t going to work.
It hadn’t worked for the past week that he had been trying.
The only reaction I give him is a low groan.
London sighs roughly as he paces the room and runs his hands over his hair. “You can’t stay in here forever, Parker. Your pack needs you, I need you.”
“And I need Gage.” I whimper as I change into my human form.
It was the first words I had spoken since we had returned to Gage’s father’s home.
He remains quiet for a few moments as he stops pacing and turns to look at me with sadness in his yellow eyes.
“Sweetheart, he isn’t coming back.” He whispers softly. “He wouldn’t want you lying here letting yourself wither away.”
I remain silent as he sighs and then sits down on the edge of my bed.
“Please, don’t give up.” He pleads gently.
“What do you expect me to do, London?” I ask with a hint of anger.
I knew what he wanted me to do but there wasn’t any way I was going to do that, I couldn’t, I wouldn’t.
“You know what you have to do as a female alpha.” London replies.
“And you want me to choose you?” I spit out before continuing on without giving him the chance to answer my question. “You’re the reason I lost Gage in the first place. If you wouldn’t have been so selfish then he would still be alive.”
London bows his head and nods. “I know that and I will carry that guilt for the rest of my life.”
“Good, you should feel it, and you should never forget what you’ve done to me.” I snarl.
“I won’t, all I can do now is try and make it up to you.” London replies sadly.
Suddenly Rowan bursts into the room with a low growl in London’s direction. “Get out, now.”
Without a word London stands to his feet, his head bowed in submission as he then walks out of the room leaving me and Rowan alone.
“What do you want, Rowan?” I sigh roughly as I turn to lie on my back.
“I just…I heard what he was talking to you about.” He replies.
“And you want to put in your two cents.” I ground out as I glance in his direction.
He nods. “You know you have to pick Gage’s second, you have to pick me.”
I laugh abruptly. “I don’t have to do anything, Rowan.”
“Gage wanted me to take care of you, Parker. It was the last promise that I made to him and I intend to keep it whether you agree to it or not.” Rowan growls out in frustration.
Shaking my head I look to him with disbelief. “I really thought that you were different than the rest of the wolves, Rowan. I can’t believe you would actually stoop to London’s level just to get what you want.”
“It’s what’s best for us all. The pack is falling apart without you, they don’t know what to do and they’re falling into their own pits of despair.” Rowan explains.
I had no idea that they had been falling apart like that.
Of course I hadn’t exactly opened myself up to feel anything from them.
“I’m not going to force you but please just eat something, give our pack some hope.” Rowan then adds quietly.
Groaning dramatically I give in. “Fine, I’ll eat but that’s it. I want to be alone.”
Rowan nods and then quickly leaves the room.
A few minutes pass by until someone I never expected to be here walks through the door with a plate piled high with food in each hand.
“Daddy, how did you get here?” I whisper as tears clog my voice.
“London and Titus helped me bring London’s father’s pack down. London helped me regain control of the Onyx pack again.” He replies as he places the plates of food down on the dresser in the room before turning to hold his arms out to me.
I stand quickly and fall into my father’s arms as I begin to sob.
“I want him back.” I cry.
My father’s hands hold me close. “I know, Parker, but he isn’t going to come back. You’re going to have to move on.”
His words were like knives stabbing into my heart.
“I can’t move on, I just can’t.” I whimper.
My father pushes me back slightly so he can look into my eyes. “Sometimes as an alpha we had to do things that are difficult. You need to think of your pack. They are young and so are you. You might end up finding someone else who can fill that void that you’re feeling right now.”
“Who do I choose though? Rowan and London both want to fill that void now but I just can’t be with either of them. I know it goes against pack rules to pass up Gage’s second but it hurts just to be around him.” I reply honestly.
“You follow your heart, Parker. That’s what I should have allowed you to do from the beginning. Follow your heart and let it lead you in the direction that you need to go.” He replies gently.
“But all my heart wants is Gage.” I whimper again.
“I know it does and that feeling will never go away but you need to continue on with your life.” My father sighs.
Nodding my head I sigh softly and then step away from my father.
I take a few moments to compose myself before looking up to him with a small smile. “What did you bring for me to eat?” I ask changing the subject.
He smiles sadly. “I brought dinner for the both of us, I brought your favorite.”
For the first time since Gage’s death I smile genuinely.
My father motions for me to sit down on my bed before he picks up a plate of food and holds it out for me to take.
I take it from him and quickly dig in.
Dad chuckles as he sits down next to me to eat his own plate of food.
Once he finishes his plate he laughs and stands to his feet. “I’ll go get you some more to eat if there’s anything left.”
I nod and hand over my empty plate before he walks out of my room.
I had literally licked the plate clean.
Sighing softly I look down at my hands as the deep sadness that had consumed me returns.
Tears pool in my eyes once again and I whisper the one name that held my heart. “Gage Massey, what have you done to me?”
I could hear him as if he was sitting right next to me. I could imagine him laughing and then whispering something sweet into my ear before kissing me.
My heart ached that he couldn’t be here.
It ached that I wouldn’t be able to kiss him again.
The wolf inside of me begins to whine with the pain. She missed Gage just as much as I did and she longed to be with his wolf again.
Her whine falls from my lips and in an instant London rushes into my room.
“What’s wrong?” He questions quickly as he takes my face into his hands.
“She’s hurting.” I whisper as I look into his eyes.
“I can take away her pain. I can take away your pain too if you’ll let me.” He replies gently. “I won’t do anything else unless you want it, just let me help you.”
As another whimper leaves my lips from my inner wolf I give in.
I couldn’t fight the pain anymore.
I didn’t want to feel it anymore.
“Please, help me.” I plead softly. “Just make the pain go away.”
London nods once as he searches my eyes while his hand slowly moves around to the back of my neck.
“I still love you, Parker. I always will and I will do anything to make you smile.” He whispers right before his claws dig in deep.
A moment later a peaceful bliss engulfs me and I close my eyes.
I fall into London’s arms. “I missed this.” I smile.
“I know you did, Sweetheart.” London replies.
My father and Rowan burst through the door abruptly and skid to a stop as they glance between me and London.
“What did you do?” Rowan clips out in anger.
Smiling happily I move from London’s arms over to Rowan. “He didn’t do anything. We were just talking while I was waiting for my father to return.” I answer for London.
Rowan looks into my eyes for a moment before looking towards London over my shoulder. “What have you done, London?” He growls.
Laughing softly I place my hand against Rowan’s cheek in order to turn his attention back to me. “He didn’t do anything, Rowan. Just leave him alone, for me.”
Rowan’s eyes soften before he nods his head. “Okay, but I want to talk to him for a moment alone.”
I grin and nod before moving over towards my father. “Let’s go see what we can find to eat. I’m still starving.”
He nods absently before leading me out of my room and into the hallway.
As soon as the door shuts Rowan lets out a fierce growl.
I can’t help but pause by the door to hear what they were going to say to each other. I was worried that they were going to fight.
My father raises his brow but I only motion him to go on without me.
He sighs roughly before walking away.
Turning my attention back to London and Rowan in my room I lean my head against the door to listen better.
“What did you do to her, London?” Rowan growls angrily.
“I did what she wanted. I took away her pain.” London replies.
“How do you know that’s what she wanted?” Rowan asks.
“I gave her the choice. She couldn’t take the pain that she was in and the pain that her wolf was in.” London explains. “I love her and it killed me to see her in that much pain so I did the only thing I knew to do to make it better.”
“Damn it, London.” Rowan curses softly. “You didn’t do anything else to her, did you?”
“No, I wouldn’t do that to her again, all I did was take her pain away.” London answers. “She’s free to choose what she wants to do now and she’s free to choose who she wants.”
“How long will it last?” Rowan then questions.
“I don’t know. It may last a day or it might last a week. When she does begin to show signs of her pain then I will take it all away again until one of us can break the bond she had with Gage.” London replies.
Hearing enough I step away from the door and quietly move down the hallway.
Instead of joining my father I walk the opposite way.
I go towards the front door that would take me out of this place.
As soon as I open the door the bright sunlight shines down on me.
Shielding my eyes, I look for a path to escape. I didn’t belong here anymore. I needed to leave this all behind and find a place where I did belong.
Looking back into the house one last time I take a deep breath and let it out before moving forward.
It was now or never.
Luckily I find a motorcycle in the driveway that I could drive away without anyone noticing.
I hop on it and quickly turn the keys that had been left in it.
“Stop, Parker, don’t leave.” London yells suddenly as he rushes out of the house with Rowan hot on his heels.
I couldn’t stop though.
Shaking my head I back the bike out of the driveway and onto the road.
Harley, Damon, and Dillon join London and Rowan at the front door to watch me as I speed away.
Their pain seeps into my mind but I quickly block it out.
I was hurting them but I didn’t know what else to do.
The conversation I had overheard told me that I should have been feeling the same pain as they were, but I didn’t feel anything.
I felt numb.
Right now I was going to take my father’s advice and run with it.
I was going to follow my heart.
“Please, don’t shut me out completely, Parker. If you’re going to run at least keep in touch so I know you’re alright.”
Rowan chimes into my mind.
“I’ll take care of our pack until you return to us.”