Captured Miracle (18 page)

“I know, love.” He smiled and I saw malice. It frightened me and I squirmed. “I just thought you needed a reminder that you’re mine. Whatever I want to do to you, you are helpless to fight. Do you understand?”

I nodded. Tears were flowing freely now. I was so terribly confused by this situation and my body’s reaction to it. For the first time, I was happy we were in the shower because I was so wet between my legs I could practically feel it running down my thighs.

He pinched harder and a new burst of liquid warmed me. What the hell was going on? This hurt. I shouldn’t be aroused - but I was. Oh, I was so aroused I ached.

“Tell me you understand, Nova.”

“I understand.”

“Tell me you’re mine.”

Slamming my eyes closed, I shook my head. “Please,” I didn’t know why I bothered pleading with him. But I didn’t want to admit such a thing aloud to him. I didn’t want to say those words.

“Nova,” slowly, his fingers tightened. “Do you like this pain?”

“No.” I moaned, squirming. I tightened my thighs before I even knew what I was doing. Subconsciously, I was trying to alleviate some of the building pressure within me. And Calix seemed to know exactly what I was doing, because he released my nipples and rubbed small circles around the swollen flesh.

“You do like this.” He stated.

“I don’t.” I protested, opening my eyes to find that his were intense. In their depths, I saw a hint of surprise.

“Don’t lie to me, Nova.” He moved his hands over my stomach - getting lower. “I know you like it. I can see your struggle, and you don’t want to like it, but you do. I bet if I touched you now, I would find you sopping wet. I bet I could make you come with just the touch of my finger on your swollen clit.” I shivered at his words, my body aching for him to do just what he spoke. “Do you want it, Nova? Do you want me to touch you?”

The bastard! He took and took and took - but this he wanted permission for. The one thing my body ached for so desperately, but my pride refused to beg for and the man was asking permission.

Stonily, I replied. “No. I don’t want you to touch me.”

“Again, you lie.” He tisked. And then I felt his large hands move lower - to that place between my legs - and I knew he was going to touch me. I
hoped
he was going to touch me.

Calix ran his soapy hand over my lips and I struggled to keep my hips from bucking into his touch. He never parted my lips, just washed over them.

His eyes gleamed. “You are wet. Even with your lips closed, I can feel the juice of your pussy.” He breathed. “So slippery and soft. I want to fuck you.” He growled the last words in the back of his throat. “Look at me, Nova. Look at my cock.” I did. It was standing so erect - even bigger than before. The veins protruded from the stiff flesh, making him look large and menacing. I shivered. “I want to be inside you. I want to push my cock deep into your pussy and I want to feel your body stretch around me. I want to hear your soft cries as I impale myself inside you. I want to feel your nails on my back and scalp,” he broke off. “Tell me you want it.”

God.
I wanted it.

But I couldn’t have it. I wasn’t ready for that. I didn’t know if I would ever be ready for this with Calix. “I can’t.” I shook my head on a strangled breath. “I don’t want you.”

He closed his eyes slowly, his hand still running over me. Teasing me. Somehow, despite the pain of my desire, I held my hips still.

I watched as Calix opened his eyes. In their depths was a determination that nearly frightened the life right out of me. I didn’t know what he was going to do, but I did know that my moment of choice had been ripped away.

“Turn into the water.” He guided me into the stream of warmth and the suds over my body started to rinse away. His hands moved over my body, ensuring that every inch of my skin had been cleaned.

When he was satisfied, he spoke. “Lean against the wall.” He pointed to the wall I’d been leaning against before. Slowly, I moved, pressing my back against the tile. My heart was beating hard and fast in my chest as I watched him cage me in. “Spread your legs.”

“Why?” I breathed. “What are you going to do?”

“I’m going to make you come.” He announced. “Over and over again. Until you realize that you do, in fact, want me.”

Seriously? He was trying to prove me wrong?

I shook my head. “I don’t want you, Calix.”

“You don’t want to want me.” His blue eyes bored into mine. “Open your legs.”

“No.” I said resolutely.

Calix narrowed his eyes. And then I felt his hand press between my thighs. I kept them clamped tightly shut and he grinned at my fight. Leaning down, he nipped my bottom lip. “You want me to force you, Nova?”

“No.”

“Then do as I say.”

And I did. As soon as I was open to him, his hand moved between my legs. My belly was coiled so tight, it hurt. My desire for him was so strong I could practically taste it. And I knew that if I could, he could too.

Pulling back, Calix watched my face as he parted my lips, slipping his finger over my folds. I gasped, inching up the wall until I was standing on my tip-toes. I was trying to get away from him - from the torturous pleasure of his touch. But Calix was having none of it. He stroked me slowly, building the already intense pressure. And then I felt his finger press against my clit. Sensation flooded through my body and stars glittered behind my lids as I slammed my eyes shut. He rolled his fingers around the bundle of nerves and the pressure that he’d so intently built came crashing down, shaking my entire body in stubborn release.

And I realized, to my horror, that I had just had my first orgasm. At the hands of my captor.

Chapter 16

“Open your eyes.” Calix demanded roughly, but his hand was still gently against me as he stroked, milking me of my pleasure.

Slowly, I opened my eyes. I wanted to cry, but I didn’t. I wanted to scream, but I couldn’t. Gazing down at me, Calix looked satisfied with himself. And I wanted to hurt him.

“Are you finished?” I asked haughtily.

“Not even close.” He grinned. “I can do this all night.”

All night?
I couldn’t handle this all night. One was enough. I already hated myself for coming at his touch. What more did he want from me?

I pressed my hands against his chest, pushing. “Get away from me.”

“Oh no, love,” he shook his head. “I don’t think so.”

“I don’t want you!” I raised my voice, instantly fearing repercussion.

“You do.” He repeated. “Tell me you want me and we’ll be done for the night.”

I glared at him through angry eyes. “Never.”

He grinned, “Then we’re not done.”

Defeated, I slumped down the wall, trying to get away from him. My move was so abrupt Calix didn’t catch me. Sitting on the floor, I pulled my knees into my chest before placing my forehead against my kneecaps. In a ball like this, I felt safe from him. From the unwelcome desires of my body.

“Nova,” he thundered. “Stand up.”

I ignored him. In this moment, I hated him more than ever before. He’d made me betray my body and that was unforgiveable. He wanted to do it again and again, but I couldn’t let him.

“Alright,” he sighed. “If this is how you want it,”

I heard him crouch down low beside me and my heart raged. I felt his hand on my ankle and then I was being pulled away from the wall. Lifting my head, I asked frantically, “What are you doing?”

I gripped behind me for something, anything, but found nothing. Calix had dragged me into the center of the large shower and I suddenly regretted my refusal to stand. In my attempt to save myself, I only made myself more vulnerable.

I gasped a sob, “I’ll stand.”

“Too late,” he crouched over me, his massive form daunting in the dim light. “Lie back.”

“No.” I shook my head, suddenly hating that there was so much space in this shower. “Please don’t do this.”

His eyes flared and I knew I was in trouble. “I will ask you one more time, Nova. And then I will make you. I promise you won’t like it if I make you.”

I was sobbing now. My entire body was trembling in fear and anger and hatred of Calix. But I did lie back. Pressing my back flat against the shower, Calix climbed over me. I was so uncomfortable, so afraid, I couldn’t help the sharp intakes of breath.

“Calm down, Nova.” Calix hovered over me. Not one part of him was touching me, but I knew he would. Is this how he was going to do it - take my virginity? Was he seriously going to do this on the floor of the shower. “I want you to relax, love.”

“I,” I stuttered. “C-can’t.”

“You can.” He lowered himself, pressing his lips to my forehead. He littered kisses all over my face. The tip of my nose, my temple, my closed eyes, chin and my lips. I knew if I raised my knee, I could severely hurt him. But I knew that such an action would have devastating consequences. And there were just some things I wasn’t willing to risk.

He spoke again. This time, his command was soft. “Open your eyes, love.”

I did, ignoring the light spray of water that came over him. Hovering over me, he was just as handsome as always. His angular face was tilted just so, and his eyes were intense. The muscles in his shoulders and arms were strained as he held his weight positioned over me. I could feel the weight of his cock pressing against my lower belly and I couldn’t help but notice how warm it was. Almost fevered.

Pressing my lips together, I tried to force my sob into the back of my throat. If only I could swallow the damn thing.

“Tell me what you’re thinking, Nova.” He cocked his head.

“Honestly?” I questioned.

He nodded. “Yes, I want you to be honest.”

“Will you punish me - if you don’t like what you hear?”

He frowned, but shook his head. “No.”

“I’m afraid of you.” I croaked. “I don’t want to feel you inside me. I’m not ready for this and even if I was I wouldn’t,” I paused, unable to continue.

He lowered his head a fraction. “Even if you were ready, you wouldn’t what?” His eyes pierced mine. “You wouldn’t want it to be me?”

“That’s not it.” I answered honestly. I knew there was no one else in the world I would want this way. As wrong as it was for me to ache for Calix, I did. It was that simple.

He hissed in a breath. “Then what is it?”

I closed my eyes. I couldn’t answer this question and look at him. I just wasn’t brave enough. “I wouldn’t want it to be in here - like this.”

He gasped a sharp intake of breath. “How would you want it?”

Even though I wasn’t looking at him, I could feel his eyes taking me in. My cheeks stained red and I knew he could see the blush. “I don’t know. Just not like this.”

“Tell me how you imagined it.” He whispered against the hollow of my throat before pressing his lips to my skin. I shivered beneath him.

“In a bed, I suppose.” My skin was so warm. “I guess I thought there’d be romance. Candles and wine, maybe? I just never saw it like this.”

I felt his tongue against my skin. He was licking me. And God, it felt so good. So hot and wet and soft. “Tell me, Nova, does it feel good when I kiss you?”

Since I was being so honest...

“Yes,”

He lifted himself away from me and I knew I’d surprised him with my answer. He knew I liked it - my body didn’t lie - but he had expected denial. “I want you to look at me, Nova.”

Letting my eyes flutter open, I gazed up at him. His eyes were like liquid fire as they burned into mine.

His voice was gravelly when he spoke. “Tell me you like the way my lips feel on your skin. Tell me you want me to kiss you.”

“Calix,” I protested.

“Love,” he whispered an agonized sound. “I know you like it. I just want to hear you say it.”

“What about what I want?”

“I’m a selfish man with you, Nova. I’m afraid I always will be, but I’ll try in no way to change that fact. I want every part of you and I’ll give you everything you need, so long as your desires don’t impede my own need to have you entirely for myself.”

At his words, my heart fluttered and crushed at the same time. How such a sensation was possible, I will never know. “I can’t give you want you want.”

“Not right now,” he sounded slightly hurt and I wanted to remedy that. “But one day you will.”

I shouldn’t care about his feelings, but I did. The man was a lovely monster, but he had also found a way inside my heart. And I’d always been a sensitive soul.

“I want to kiss you, Nova.” He breathed with emotion. “At least tell me I can.”

My stomach clenched. Then I whispered words I would never understand. I had no idea what made me say them, but I wasn’t in my right frame of mind. “You can.”

Calix breathed a breath of release as he dropped his mouth to mine. Feeling the warmth of his lips against my own made the rest of my body ache for his touch. I wished he would drop himself down over me - I wanted to feel the length of him pressed against my body, but I couldn’t ask. I couldn’t bring myself to stoop so low as to beg my captor for the weight of his body over mine. For now, his taking what he wanted would have to be enough.

Calix pressed his tongue between my lips, kissing me fervently. Breathy sounds consumed the silence as his hand roamed over my body while the other remained positioned firmly at the side of my head. He kissed me, fucking my mouth with his tongue until my mind fogged and my inhibitions hazed. When he pulled his mouth from mine I felt drugged. My eyes fluttered closed as he moved down my body, his mouth trailing hot, slow kissed over my throat, my chest, to my breast.

I gasped as he pulled my left breast into his mouth. Swirling his tongue around my beaded nipple, I moaned. His mouth was so hot against my flesh, I felt as though he were heating me from the outside in. I was boiling with need, swelling with desire. As though trying to be fair, Calix released my breast before moving to the other, lavishing it with just as much attention. My breasts were tingling in an odd sensation of pleasure and pain by the time I felt his mouth release me. At his absence, I arched my back. The action hadn’t been conscious, but instinctive.

Calix groaned at the sight of me wanting him so brazenly. “You’re fucking beautiful.”