Read Diana in Search of Herself Online
Authors: Sally Bedell Smith
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“She lived in an extreme”: Interview with Cosima Somerset
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“wolf pack”: B-DK, p. 243; Ti, 12/28/83
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“I didn’t like”: Ti, 9/6/97
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“She remained intact”: Tribute by Earl Spencer
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“Whenever things got too”: SuTel, 9/7/97
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“I think essentially that she”: Interview with Dr. Michael Adler
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“As she expressed it to friends”: B-JD, p. 478
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“She scoured the newspapers”: Ibid., pp. 477–78
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“Her whole life”: ITV-Doc
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“The haircut was a way”: Interview with Roberto Devorik
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“From now on, I am going”: B-AM2, p. 155
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“Whatever I do”: DM, 9/1/97
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“when Mummy decided to leg it”: B-AM1, p. 23
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“sat quietly at the bottom”: Ibid., p. 70
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“I will always remember [my mother]”: Sun, 1/12/98
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“cowering behind a curtain”: SuEx, 9/7/97
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“I remember her telling me”: Interview with Cosima Somerset
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“Her mother left at the moment”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
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The Spencers were one: The history of the Spencer family was drawn from various sources, including Ti, 3/30/92; DT, 9/1/97; DM, 4/3/92;SuTel, 9/5/93
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“most serious, exclusive and illustrious”: David Cannadine,
The Decline and Fall of the British Aristocracy
(1992), p. 503
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“Diana was brought up to believe”: Interview with Paul Johnson
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“tended to be populist”: Ibid.
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“Despite their calm”: Cannadine, p. 504
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“It was instinctive”: Interview with Paul Johnson
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“curator earl”: Charles Spencer,
Althorp: The Story of an English House
(1998), p. 3; DT, 3/30/92
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“intolerant of differences”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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“Jolly Jack”: Spencer, p. 109
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“Grandfather found it hard”: Ibid., pp. 6–7
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a formidable memory: DM, 12/27/97
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surprising shrewdness: I-CS
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“I found him to be adorable”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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Perhaps his most memorable: DEx, 4/28/81
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“He was in many ways”: Ti, 4/2/92
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“Frances was dominant”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“rather fast romantic”: I-FSK
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“sweet, amusing”: DM, 6/15/93: Angela Levin, excerpt from
Raine and Johnny
(1993)
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proposed marriage to Frances during: I-FSK
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“It was a real love match”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“for four generations”: I-FSK
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“mongrel”: Frances Shand Kydd interview with Cathy Macdonald,
V.I.P
. (Scottish) ITV, 10/20/95
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“It really upsets me when”: DM, 5/20/97
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The Fermoys came from: Various sources on Roche family, including I-FSK; Fiona Fraser; and B-PJ1, pp. 28–29
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“the most compassionate, sensitive”: DM 5/20/97
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“I don’t think I’ve ever”: I-FSK
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A streak of instability:
Royalty Monthly
, 8/88; NOTW, 6/19/88; DEx,12/6/97
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In 1984, at age forty-five: DM, 8/21/84
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“She has a very quick”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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“good with people”: Ibid.
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“Frances has an inner strength”: Ibid.
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her mother took Johnnie’s: Ibid.
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“mirages of happiness”: I-FSK
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“immensely happy for a long time”: Ibid.
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“honeymoon baby”: Ibid.
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“enormous sadness”: Ibid.
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“She was very attractive”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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Frances’s substantial inheritance: B-PJ1, p. 36
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“I was blissfully happy”: I-FSK
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“I never saw him, never held him”: MOS 3/9/97
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“Thwarted in his wish”: DM, 6/15/93
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“for intimate tests”: B-AM1, p. 71
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“It was a dreadful time”: Ibid.
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“instinctive understanding”: DM, 6/15/93
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“One had to keep a stiff”: MOS, 3/9/97
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“The death of John was a deep”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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“She had been married six years”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“a perfect physical specimen”: B-PJ, p. 37
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“the girl who was supposed”: B-RK, p. 42
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“nuisance to have around … try again”: B-AM1, p. 24
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“Diana was a different soul”: DM, 3/9/97
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“I don’t know what to say”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“was feeling pressure”: Ibid.
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“violent and unhappy”: B-PJ2, p. 59
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“motherless years”: B-JW, p. 241
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“violent scenes which went”: Ibid.
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“a wife beater”: Ibid., p. 240
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“believed to have extended”: DM, 11/27/97
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“Over the last three”: I-FSK
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“We hadn’t fallen apart”: DEx, 11/30/81
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“It was never discussed”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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“showed no evidence”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“She was a wonderful mother”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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she would find that Frances: B-JW, p. 137
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“He was a reasonably intelligent”: DM, 6/15/93
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“There is a thing called”: I-CS
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“I don’t touch [Raine]”: DEx, 11/30/81
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“It wasn’t love at first”: I-FSK
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Shand Kydd’s family: B-PJ1, pp. 44, 48
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“bohemian”: B-PJ, p. 44
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“
bon viveur
”
:
B-AM1, p. 77
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“That’s when we realized”: I-FSK
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“Peter wasn’t responsible”: Ibid.
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“She fell in love with Peter”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“It was a terrible shock”: DEx, 11/30/81
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The day after her departure: DEx, 8/14/82
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“trial separation”: I-FSK
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“It was something I put a lot”: Ibid.
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“playing quietly on the floor”: B-AM1, p. 78
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“Of course there were tears”: I-FSK
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“He refused to let”: MOS, 3/9/97
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“I was devastated”: I-FSK
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“always felt especially bleak”: B-SS, p. 52
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“only through lawyers”: I-FSK
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just two newspapers: Ti, 4/11/68; DT, 4/11/68
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“adultery by Mr. Peter Shand Kydd”: DT, 4/11/68
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The following June: DEx, 8/14/82
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That December, Frances filed: Ti, 12/13/68
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“fearful the details”: B-JW, pp. 240–41
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“In those days, [an accusation of] mental cruelty”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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He summoned a string: DM, 6/15/93; B-PJ1, p. 46
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It was not until 1982: DM, 8/16/82
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“Only now is the full story”: Ibid.
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“My grandmother tried to lacerate”: B-AM2, p. 65
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According to the
Evening Standard:
ES, 4/15/69
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“Adultery was alleged”: Ibid.
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“was granted custody”: DT, 4/16/69
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“The fact that the father was”: DEx, 8/14/82
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Two years later, in July 1971:
Majesty
, 4/95
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which “unbalanced” Frances: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“He was really miserable”: B-AM1, p. 81
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“body language was appalling”: DM, 6/15/93
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Diana recalled that not only: B-AM1, p. 24
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“asking where [my mother] was”: I-CS
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“The emotional drama”: Luise Eichenbaum and Susie Orbach,
What Do
Women Want?
(1984), p. 38
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“It is hard to imagine”: DS, 7/1/81
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“never been able to become”:
The Borderline Child: Approaches to Etiology, Diagnosis, and Treatment
(1983), edited by Kenneth S. Robson,M.D., p. 5
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According to psychiatrist E. James Anthony: Ibid.
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“I always felt”: B-AM1, p. 24
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“I always had this thing”: Ibid., p. 25
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“I felt I was in the wrong shell”: Ibid., p. 68
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“Between their divorce”: I-CS
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“It was a very unhappy”: B-AM1, p. 24
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Diana recalled that she: Ibid., p. 23
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“Diana and I had a nanny”: I-CS
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“like a little bee”:
Fox Files
, Catherine Crier interview with Charles Spencer, 7/16/98
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“I’ve got what my mother’s got”: B-AM1, p. 61
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“Diana could not be called”: B-JW, p. 137
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“She was very modest”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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“on the go all day long”: B-PJ1, p. 50
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“long list of questions”: Ibid., p. 7
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“became introverted”: DM, 9/30/93
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“In school I was taught to”: DM, 5/20/97
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“ever so talkative”: MOS, 5/25/86: Mary Clarke, excerpt from
Little Girl Lost: The Troubled Childhood of Princess Diana by the Woman Who Raised Her
(1986)
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“whether a psychologist would say”: B-AM1, p. 82
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She was so afraid of the dark: B-AM1, p. 24
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“wasn’t particularly happy”: I-CS
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“her early life had indeed been”: B-PT, p. 23
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“trailing after her father”:
Birmingham Evening News
, 9/1/97
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She kept twenty stuffed animals: B-AM1, p. 24
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a “green hippo”: Ibid., p. 25
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“lay in a line”: B-AP, p. 93
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“a self-contained unit”: I-CS
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an affinity for nicknames: B-AM1, p. 83; Sun, 7/1/98: “Duch” stood for Duchess, which, according to Charles Spencer, came from the Walt Disney film
The Aristocats;
“The Admiral” referred to the admiral’s hat Charles wore as a child; and “Ginge” was for Sarah’s red hair.
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“an introspective and shy”: Ti, 6/20/98
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While Diana claimed not to be jealous: B-AM1, p. 30
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Diana’s relationship with her sisters: Ibid., pp. 23, 30
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“Like me, he will always”: Ibid., p. 30
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Many of their friends thought: I-FSK
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“I didn’t like being a girl with”: DM, 2/18/78
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Diana prided herself on: B-AM1, p. 23
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“Jane and Diana had this thing”: Interview with Felicity Clark
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“confident about her gracefulness”:
Fox Files
interview with Charles Spencer, 7/16/98
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“She loved to show off”: ITV-Doc
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it has often been said: B-PJ1, p. 104; B-AM1, p. 79
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“Cheer up and grin and bear”:
Birmingham Evening News
, 9/1/97
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“was a wonderful father”: ITV-Doc
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go into a “panic”: B-AM1, p. 26
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“every step she took”: DEx, 4/28/81
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“My father always said”: B-AM1, p. 25
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“one of [Johnnie’s] greatest achievements”: I-CS
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“He was of a generation”: ITV-Doc
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a “very kind, understanding man”: MOS, 5/25/86
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“There were long periods”: B-PJ1, p. 60
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“She did fret about Johnnie”: Ibid., p. 56
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“particularly fond of her father”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“to be left in the custody”: B-JW, p. 241
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“distant and remote”: B-PT, p. 23
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“Poor Daddy, I feel so sad”: MOS, 6/1/86
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“there were no tears”: B-PJ1, p. 56
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“I can remember Mummy”…“devastating”: B-AM1, p. 25
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“make unfavorable remarks”: MOS, 6/1/86
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“After he made them welcome”: SuEx, 11/10/96
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“It was agonizing”: Interview with Fiona Fraser
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“Peter and I had no wish”: I-FSK
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“She never felt good enough”: Sun, 1/12/98
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“Diana said her mother”: Interview with Roberto Devorik
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“totally traumatized”: B-AM1, p. 25
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her “father’s favorite”: Ibid., p. 30
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“The problem was”: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“beginning to gain confidence”: DT, 8/29/98
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“bright and chatty”: B-PJ1, p. 58
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“quiet and shy”: B-AM1, p. 81
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“horribly different”: Ibid., p. 25
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The school staff waited: B-PJ1, p. 54
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“a stable family atmosphere”: Ibid., p. 60
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“I used to make threats”: B-AM1, p. 26
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“those downcast eyes”: MOS, 5/25/86