Diana in Search of Herself (75 page)

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Authors: Sally Bedell Smith

74
   “as soft, cheerful and bouncy”: B-PJ1, p. 119

75
   “the impression to the Prince’s family”: B-JD, p. 338

76
   “The summer of 1980 was all”: Interview with Robert Spencer

77
   She was disconcerted by his older friends: B-AM1, p. 32

78
   “Lady Diana’s presence struck me”: B-SB, pp. 189–90

79
   “I was terrified—shitting bricks”: B-AM1, p. 32

80
   “all right once I got in”: Ibid., p. 33

81
   “She was a sort of wonderful”: B-JD, p. 339

82
   “always buying him little presents”: B-SB, p. 194

83
   “instinctive understanding”: Ibid., p. 232

84
   “confided to one of his friends”: B-JD, p. 339

85
   “the virgin, the sacrificial”: B-AM1, p. 38

86
   “the sacrificial virgin bride”: ST, 9/23/90

87
   “not a position”:
The Madness of George III
, Alan Bennett (1991)

88
   “a man as good and honest”: TNY, 9/15/97

89
   “He often used to say”: DM, 10/20/98

90
   “resented it terribly”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

91
   “I don’t even dare”: B-MR, p. 40

92
   Just weeks before: DEx, 2/7/80; DM, 4/2/80

93
   “I had so many dreams”: B-AM2, p. 155

94
   she felt secure for the first time: B-PJ1, p. 134

95
   “never dominated”: B-SB, p. 177

96
   “with great cunning”: B-PJ2, p. 58

97
   “oiling up, basically”: B-AM1, p. 40

98
   “When you fall in love”: Interview with Michael Colborne

99
   “[she] realized [she] had taken on”: B-AM1, p. 42

100
   “based on her romantic image”: B-MR, p. 42

101
   “Oh! This is the life”: B-JD, p. 338

CHAPTER 7

1
   “a perfect English rose”: Sun, 9/8/80

2
   “ ‘What a cunning lady’ ”: DS, 6/29/81

3
   “They exaggerated it”: Interview with James Whitaker

4
   “there was certainly no obvious”: B-SB, p. 191

5
   “Because we had a foreign”: Interview with Andrew Neil

6
   The most important beneficiary: S. J. Taylor,
Shock! Horror! The Tabloids in Action
(1992), pp. 217, 343

7
   “Kelvin is a natural”: Interview with Andrew Neil

8
   “Kelvin would adopt at a”: R&R-Doc, Part II, p. 7

9
   “I understand all your problems”: SuMi, 9/21/80

10
   “had a way … of taking scalps”: Taylor, p. 152

11
   “fitted perfectly”: B-JW, p. 150

12
   “James and Harry … were like”: Interview with Andrew Morton

13
   “People talk about me as if”:
You
, 8/22/93

14
   After graduating: Ibid.; Interview with James Whitaker

15
   “master of trivia”: B-DK, p. 88

16
   “absolutely scarlet”: Interview with James Whitaker

17
   “His face was beet-red”: Interview with Peter McKay

18
   “Whitaker both proclaimed”: Ibid.

19
   “I know binoculars are”: Interview with James Whitaker

20
   “several intimate chats”: B-JW, pp. 155, 160

21
   “resemblance to a London”: B-DK, p. 61

22
   Andrew Morton grew up: Interview with Andrew Morton

23
   “Her blue eyes gaze straight”: DS, 6/30/83

24
   “to think they were friends”: ES, 10/9/93

25
   “If they do a feature”:
Independent on Sunday
, 9/17/95

26
   “the Pompadoured Poltroon.… The Tonsured Traducer”: ES, 12/3/91

27
   “old established”:
The Independent
, 3/2/96

28
   “[They] knew no one”: Interview with Nigel Dempster

29
   “new choice of girlfriend”: DM, 9/18/80

30
   “back in each other’s”: DS, 11/5/80

31
   “romantic underwear expert”: Mi, 1/19/81

32
   “If I go to a restaurant”: DM, 11/24/80

33
   “very depressed”: B-SB, p. 197

34
   “safe house”: Ibid., p. 178

35
   “encouraged the romance”: Ibid., p. 185

36
   “It’s almost as if the Parker Bowleses”: DS, 11/12/80

37
   “from the moment of [Charles’s] engagement”: B-JD, pp. 346–47

38
   had stopped when Charles started: B-PJ2, p. 71

39
   “The pressures on the prince”: B-JD, p. 339

40
   “She was most certainly in love”: B-SB, p. 197

41
   Barry sensed her disappointment: Ibid., p. 192

42
   Somewhat primly, she was: B-AM1, p. 39

43
   “quietly captivating”: Mi, 11/19/80

44
   “rely on instinct”: DS, 11/13/80

45
   “reputation as a demon driver”: DS, 11/11/80

46
   “an 80-mph car caper”:
Time
, 2/28/83

47
   “erratic driving record”: DS, 11/13/80

48
   “the friendship which Charles and Diana”: Sun, 11/10/80

49
   “has been groomed”: Ibid.

50
   “choice of bride”: ST, 9/23/90

51
   the two women chipped: B-JD, p. 340

52
   “Both grandmothers know”: ES, 11/13/80

53
   “If I’d said to [Charles]”: B-JD, p. 340

54
   “sense of humor” and “lifestyle” were “different”: B-AM1, p. 36

55
   “never sent flowers”: B-JW, p. 153

56
   the delivery of two dozen: DM, 11/24/80

57
   “I often felt sorry for her”: DS, 6/30/81

58
   Yet Charles’s valet: B-SB, p. 192

59
   “dawn dash”: Ibid., p. 199

60
   “a bit of a nuisance”: DS, 11/12/80

61
   Judy Wade of
The Sun:
Sun, 1/5/81

62
   “or the whole country would”: Interview with James Whitaker

63
   “The time has come when Prince Charles”: DS, 10/10/80

64
   “remarkably cool and mature”: Mi, 11/19/80

65
   “put on the most”: B-AM1, p. 61

66
   “unbearable … I cried like a baby”: B-AM1, p. 35

67
   “I’m not so much bored”: DM, 11/24/80

68
   “everything she [could] lay her hands”: B-SB, p. 110

69
   “It seems that … Lady Diana”: Mi, 1/19/81

70
   In December 1980: DM, 12/3/80

71
   She remembered that he seemed only: B-AM1, p. 35

72
   “more concerned”: B-SB, p. 191

73
   “sensationalism”: B-DK, p. 50

74
   “I should like to take this”: B-PJ1, p. 131

75
   Diana claimed that she considered: B-AM1, p. 35

76
   “had suggested … that she seek”: B-MR, pp. 40–41

77
   “She would automatically sort of”:
Fox Files
interview with Charles Spencer, 7/16/98

78
   “really pretty”: Interview with Felicity Clark

79
   “strung up in general”: Ibid.

80
   “100-mile dash”: SuMi, 11/16/80

81
   she emphatically insisted: B-PJ1, p. 126

82
   “I was feeling frail and hungover”: B-JW, p. 28

83
   “had some supper”: ES, 11/28/80

84
   “The trouble is, people do believe”: DM, 11/24/80

85
   “With the exception of the”: SuMi, 11/23/80

86
   “a blond woman was hurried”: B-JW, p. 32

87
   “that a call had been made”: Ibid.

88
   “rang me from the train”: DEx, 7/26/91

89
   “There was no foundation”: Interview with Michael Colborne

90
   “I myself was on the train”: B-SB, p. 194

91
   “there was somebody else around”: B-AM1, p. 33

92
   “inexcusable” lies: B-PJ1, p. 130

93
   “Things have been getting very”: DS, 1/12/81

94
   “I’d like to marry soon”: ES, 11/28/80

95
   “Lady Diana Spencer last night asked”: DEx, 11/29/80

96
   After checking Tavener’s: B-DK, p. 83

97
   “never lied to me”: B-JW, p. 158

98
   “The whole thing was”: Interview with James Whitaker

99
   even offering advice:
Time
, 2/28/83

100
   “Diana was very aware that”: Interview with James Whitaker

101
   “I can assure you”: DS, 11/10/80

102
   “horrified”: B-JW, p. 154

103
   “a background of leaping in”: DM, 11/24/80

104
   “I will simply die”: B-MR, p. 47

105
   “If I were to ask”: B-PJ1, p. 133

106
   “I rang up and spoke”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

107
   “He’d been saying for some time”: B-SB, p. 197

108
   “He counseled his son”: B-JD, p. 341

109
   “sensed the absence of intensity”: Ibid.

110
   “such a terrible mismatch”: B-JD, p. 342

111
   “confused and anxious state”: Ibid. (PC letter 1/28/81 to unnamed recipient)

112
   “support helped to steel”: Ibid.

113
   “There was never anything tactile”: B-AM1, pp. 33–34

114
   “a voice said to me inside”: Ibid., p. 34

115
   “From day one, I always knew”: Ibid., p. 62

116
   “As for becoming Queen”: Pano, p. 2

117
   “After everything I’ve been through”: Sun, 5/21/91

118
   “whatever love means”: B-AM1, p. 34

119
   “complete disaster”: Ibid.

120
   “spoke constantly but guardedly”: B-SB, p. 199

121
   “We’re not taking any”: B-PJ1, p. 136

122
   “Can you find the”: ITV-Doc

123
   “shocked.… She told me it”: Sun, 1/11/98

124
   “He was very good at hiding”: B-SB, p. 174

125
   “Wherever he went”: Interview with Anthony Holden

126
   “I am very lucky that someone”: B-JD, p. 343 (PC letter 3/5/81 to unnamed recipient)

127
   “unrequited love”: B-PT, pp. 54–55

128
   “What really hurt”: Sun, 1/12/98

129
   “nobody with insincere motives”: B-AM1, p. 117

130
   “I couldn’t handle [them]”: B-AM1, p. 34

CHAPTER 8

1
   “It’s a relief”: DM, 2/25/81

2
   That night Diana dined: B-PJ2, p. 67

3
   “nobody … there to welcome”: B-AM1, p. 35

4
   Diana had a suite: B-SB, p. 205

5
   “What shall I do? Lady Diana never”: Ibid., p. 206

6
   she bristled when: B-DK, p. 225

7
   “quite ruined the music room”: B-SB, p. 206

8
   “The Prince of Wales has made”: DEx, 7/27/81

9
   She said they treated her coldly, and she complained: B-AM1, p. 37

10
   In her first official appearance: Ibid.

11
   “Diana told me … she’d received”: B-MR, p. 141

12
   “Few people voice criticism”: B-SB, p. 116

13
   “less training in her new job”: B-AM1, p. 120

14
   “to instruct her in the ways”: B-JD, p. 357

15
   “I don’t think any of them”: Interview with Michael Colborne

16
   “two hundred percent behind”: Ibid.

17
   Although Diana later said she admired: B-AM1, p. 47

18
   They instructed Diana on: Interview with Michael Colborne

19
   “I was not the usual type”: Ibid.

20
   “I was Uncle Michael”: Ibid.

21
   “Diana was terrified”: Humphrey Carpenter,
Robert Runcie: The Reluctant Archbishop
(1996), p. 225

22
   “I hope to see her every”: Mi, 1/20/99 (letter from the Queen 3/5/81 to unnamed recipient)

23
   “like screwing a lightbulb”: B-SF, p. 83

24
   The Queen Mother offered: DS, 1/27/82; Mi, 7/22/84; B-DK, p. 226

25
   The Queen and Prince: B-DK, p. 181;
Harper’s & Queen
, 4/90

26
   “You don’t get training”:
McCall’s
, 10/84

27
   “I was terrified, really”: B-AM1, p. 37

28
   “For Diana, royal life”: Interview with Roberto Devorik

29
   “It was as though”: SuPe, 6/30/91

30
   “I missed my girls”: B-AM1, p. 37

31
   He taught her to: DS, 1/27/82; B-DK, p. 227

32
   “the care with which he nurtured”: B-JD, p. 493

33
   “The Prince of Wales was”: Interview with Michael Colborne

34
   he grew impatient with those: B-SB, p. 105

35
   “I always feel that unless”: B-JD, p. 492 (PC letter 3/31/87 to unnamed recipient)

36
   he could be short-tempered: Ibid., p. 493

37
   “When you don’t read”: Interview with Michael Colborne

38
   Years later she told: Interview with Roberto Devorik

39
   She sometimes threw temper: B-JD, pp. 343, 345

40
   “She went to live at Buckingham”: B-AM1, p. 119

41
   “I didn’t know about jealousy”: Ibid., p. 38

42
   When he had to leave: Interview with Michael Colborne

43
   “much regretted”: B-JD, p. 343 (PC letter 3/29/81 to unnamed recipient)

44
   Charles tried to reassure: B-PJ1, p. 149

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