Read Diana in Search of Herself Online
Authors: Sally Bedell Smith
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“dark ages”: Ibid., p. 61
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“Her shape … was, to put”: Mi, 7/27/82
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“Diana fidgeted [and] whispered”: DEx, 7/27/82
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“a wistfulness about her”: Interview with Felicity Clark
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“excluded totally”: B-AM1, p. 46
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“endearingly human”: Mi, 9/20/82
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“exclusive statement”: SuEx, 8/14/82
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“rash” choice of words …“refused”: Sun, 8/16/82
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“very unkind”: NOTW, 8/15/82
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“cheap publicity”: DM, 8/16/82
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“deeply distressed”: Sun, 8/16/82
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at one point she went for three: B-AM1, p. 56
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“quite amusing”: Ibid., p. 57
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“she kept the bulimia”: Interview with Michael Colborne
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“disconcerting propensity”: B-JD, p. 398
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“continued to grow to the point”: Ibid., p. 399
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“Whatever happens, I will always”: B-AM1, p. 37
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Morton wrote that: Ibid., p. 139
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“had made virtually no contact”: B-JD, p. 480
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“I talked to her once a week”: Interview with Stuart Higgins
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Charles was reported to have: NOTW, 8/3/86
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By Diana’s later description: B-AM1, pp. 55–56, 133; Pano, pp. 7–8
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“We are now installed”: Mi, 1/18/99 (Diana letter 9/21/82 to unnamed recipient)
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“no one’s listening.… wanted to get better”: Pano, pp. 7–8
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“desperate cry for help … in my head”: B-AM1, p. 55
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“didn’t like … with the pressures”: Pano, p. 8
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Diana did later say that she had tried: B-AM1, p. 61
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According to a 1986 survey: A.R. Favazza and K. Conterio, “The Plight of Chronic Self-Mutilators,”
Community Mental Health Journal
(1988),24, pp. 22–30
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more often indicates: B-JK, p. 33
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One 1986 study of self-cutters: Op. Cit., Favazza and Conterio
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When self-injury occurs: B-JK, pp. 32, 34
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Diana enacted some of her: Pano, pp. 7–8
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“indifference pushed her”: B-AM1, p. 133
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“The trouble is one day”: B-JD, p. 401 (PC letter 10/10/82 to unnamed recipient)
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After Charles consulted: Ibid.
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On October 17, a week after: Ibid., p. 400
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“complaining and sulking … on the hop”: Mi, 10/18/82
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“bored to tears”: DS, 10/19/82
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“No one, but no one”: Mi, 11/15/82
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“out of his way whenever”: Ibid.
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later revealed by Whitaker: B-JW, p. 176
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“If … her shoes are cleaned”: Mi, 11/15/82
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“seriously concerned”: Sun, 11/15/82
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“fit and well”: Ti, DT, 11/16/82
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“inevitable stresses”: MOS, 11/21/82
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“sniper … wide”: DS, 12/1/82
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“new lease of enthusiasm”: DEx, 12/9/82
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“fiend.… forced him into this marriage”: DS, Sun, 12/11/82
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“I got it straight”: Interview with Nigel Dempster
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“the greatest howler”: NOTW, 12/12/82
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“near to tears much of the time”: NOTW, 1/23/83
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“nonsense”: DS, 2/3/83
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whose pattern of speaking: B-DK, p. 232
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She was hurt that the press: Interview with Michael Colborne
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“did take criticism hard”: B-AM1, p. 56
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“None of my family knew about”: Ibid., p. 54
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The public squabble between: Sun, 8/16/82
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“I am a firm believer in maternal”: DM, 6/24/82
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Johnnie Spencer told: Interview with Robert Spencer
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“I know the royals can appear”: Ti, 6/14/83
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“a close member of the Princess’s”: Mi, 11/16/82
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“She told me then”: Interview with James Whitaker
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“wonderfully solid”: B-AM1, p. 64
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“a woman to love and be cared for”: Carpenter, p. 223
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“had a lot to learn”: Strong, p. 317
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“Ruth was very distressed”: Carpenter, p. 223
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“The great problem is”: Mi, 1/18/99 (PC letter 4/13/83 to unnamed recipient)
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Charles rarely left: DT, 4/2/83; B-JD, p. 401
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“nobody ever helped”: B-AM1, p. 49
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But in a letter to a friend: B-JD, pp. 402–3 (Diana letter 4/1/83 to unnamed recipient)
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Charles quickly intervened: Ti, 4/12/83
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She moved informally: B-DK, p. 233
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“She has a wonderful way”: Mi, 1/18/99 (PC letter 4/13/83 to unnamed recipient)
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“I’ll bet you have fun”: SuEx, 8/14/83
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“The Princess was plainly”:
The Observer
, 4/17/83
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After applauding his: DT, 4/2/83
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“You can’t tell a woman”: SuPe, 3/27/83
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“preserve my sanity”: B-JD, p. 402 (PC letter 4/4/83 to unnamed recipient)
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Sometimes they frightened: Ibid.
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“The terrifying part”: Ibid.
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“All you could hear was”: Pano, pp. 3–4
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In a letter to a friend: B-JD, p. 403 (Diana letter 4/1/83 to unnamed recipient)
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“jealous”: Pano, p. 4
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“took it out on [her]”: B-AM1, p. 49
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“I do feel desperate”: B-JD, p. 402 (PC letter 4/4/83 to unnamed recipient)
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Diana’s toughest moments: B-AM1, pp. 29, 143
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In a letter written: B-JD, p. 403 (Diana letter 4/1/83 to unnamed recipient)
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“We were extremely happy there”: Ibid., p. 401 (PC letter 4/26/83 to the van Cutsems)
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“his hand resting on hers”: B-DK, p. 241
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During a tree-planting: DS, 6/30/83
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“Isn’t she absolutely beautiful?”: DEx, 8/14/83
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At the end of the tour: B-DK, p. 241
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“Not a moment to breathe”: Mi, 1/18/99 (Diana letter 6/83 to unnamed recipient)
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“When trying to drag”: Ibid.
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“I haven’t missed William as much”: Ibid.
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“very witty”: Ti, 6/27/83
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“When they write something horrible”: DEx, 6/16/83
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“Prince Charles is largely”: Mi, 4/18/83
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“a big girl now”: DS, 6/30/83
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“different person”: Pano, p. 3
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She had been to at least: B-AM1, pp. 140–41
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She didn’t think her therapists: B-AM1, p. 55
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“her swings of mood continued”: B-JD, p. 406
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“hours comforting and reassuring”: NOTW, 10/23/83
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Diana made her first solo foreign: DEx, 2/2/84; NOTW, 2/12/84
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She became the patron: Ti, 12/28/83
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“my husband decided”: Pano, p. 12
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press reports made clear: DEx, 12/9/82; Mi, 11/7/83
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“The combination of style”: WO, 1/7/84
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“She was terribly keen”: Interview with Felicity Clark
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Early in the marriage: B-JD, pp. 359, 477
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She could sit for as long: B-WB, p. 24
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“queen of fashion”: SuPe, 3/4/84
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“visiting the very young”: Ti, 12/28/83
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“I think I’ve always been”: Pano, p. 13
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lasted less than six: DT, 10/20/98
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“She couldn’t understand”: Interview with Michael Colborne
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“understandable [Diana] would not”: B-SB, p. 235
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quite a few were pushed: B-JW, p. 193; DM, 5/27/83
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“made her feel nervous”: Sun, 3/29/82
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Diana would draw a staff: B-JD, p. 360
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he was disheartened: Ibid., p. 406
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“Certain friends had to go”:
McCall’s
, 10/84
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but Diana was equally adamant: B-JD, p. 406; DT, 10/20/98
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“Pass the port”: VF, 10/85
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or were simply against: B-JD, p. 399
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By one account, she turned: B-PJ2, p. 102
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Because of the awkwardness: B-JD, p. 406
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When Diana was once portrayed: DM, DS, 9/28/85
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“I haven’t felt well”: DEx, 3/24/84; SuTel, 12/30/84
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“It was a good year”: Interview with Michael Colborne
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Even with a nanny:
McCall’s
, 10/84
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“very energetically for about”: Ibid.
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“The Queen could not be”: Sun, 4/12/84
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Charles had his own busy: B-JD, pp. 407–13
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“within the shell of a normal”: Ibid., pp. 405–6
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Charles was known for: DT, 11/6/98
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“a lot of tiara functions”: Mi, 1/18/99 (Diana letter 6/83 to unnamed recipient)
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“occasional spelling”: B-MR, p. 89
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“What happened after”: B-SB, p. 146
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“amazing team”: interview with David Puttnam
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“They had strengths”: Ibid.
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“lingering look and quick kiss”: DEx, 7/30/84
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“leads conversations”: Sun, 4/12/84
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“It was clear the royal couple”: Andrew Neil,
Full Disclosure
(1997), p. 256
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“Then she got animated”: Interview with Andrew Neil
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She was jolted: DM, 8/21/84; DEx, 8/23/84
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“Can’t stand being away”: Mi, 1/18/99 (Diana letter 8/24/84 to unnamed recipient)
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Diana later said she and Charles: B-AM1, p. 51
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but she kept the sex of their child: Ibid.
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“hoping” for one: DEx, 3/24/84
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“would be nice”: Ti, 3/28/84
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never stopped seeing: B-JD, p. 399
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she actually agreed: Pano, p. 14
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“By then I knew he had gone”: B-AM1, p. 51
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“Oh God, it’s a boy”: Ibid.
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“interludes of happiness”: B-JD, p. 406
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“Professional Diana-watchers”: SuTel, 12/30/84
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“in such good form”: SuMi, 2/3/85
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with Harry she continued: B-AM1, p. 53
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She rose early, took a daily swim: Ibid., p. 57
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“she sought to possess him”: B-JD, p. 367
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during the previous year’s: DS, 3/21/84
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rough and boring: Sun, 8/13/86
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antipathy that deepened: Sun, 7/17/84
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“very important to my physical”:
Polo
magazine, Jan/Feb 1998, p. 52
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After Harry’s birth, Diana asked: B-JD, pp. 434, 477
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Diana later said that Charles: B-AM1, p. 53
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When Charles came up: B-PJ2, p. 119
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“peak of royal productivity”: DEx, 1/23/85
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“are in no doubt that it is”: DEx, 1/10/85
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“so wet you could shoot”: DS, 1/10/85
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the resignation was: NYT
Magazine
, 2/21/88; B-JD, p. 434
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“I’ll get it in the neck”: DS, 1/25/85
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“dithering wimp”: DS, 2/24/85
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“the real ruler”: NOTW, 2/3/85
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“a thoroughly henpecked”: Sun, 2/4/85
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“prima donna”: Ibid.
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“great flights of human spirit”: DM, 4/27/85
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“more of a companion”: Ibid.
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Diana, however, was less than enthralled: B-JD, p. 431
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“Mind your head”: DM, 4/27/85
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he buried his insecurity: B-JD, p. 431
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“secondhand Rosa”: Jayne Fincher,
Diana: Portrait of a Princess
(1998), p. 84
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“unsophisticated”: DS, 4/23/85
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“heinous hats”: VF, 10/85
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indulged in ever-more daring: DS, 3/21/85; Sun, 3/27/85
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“the wrong way round”: Sun, 12/4/85
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“Being a princess, even if”: Ti, 4/23/85
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“She said, ‘Why don’t”: Interview with Roberto Devorik
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Colborne had been a solid support: B-JD, pp. 296, 435
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One day, when Charles: Interview with Michael Colborne
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“stress and disruption”: B-JD, pp. 434–35
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“To both of them, my”: Interview with Michael Colborne
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“catastrophe”: Strong, pp. 361–62
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“iron mouse”: VF, 10/85
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“nonsense”: Sun, 9/28/85
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“snobby
Vanity Fair
”
:
DS, 9/28/95
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“astonishing”: DM, 9/27/85
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“amazing”: Sun, 9/28/85
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“horrid”: DM, 9/28/85
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“ratbag of gossip”: Mi, 10/2/85
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“royal wimp”: NOTW, 9/29/85
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“ ‘The Mouse That Roared’ had”: Interview with Deidre Fernand
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“Oh, gosh … well … er”:
Newsweek
, 10/26/85