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Authors: Sally Bedell Smith

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32
   and
Tatler
magazine:
Tatler
, 11/93

33
   “dirty tricks”: DM, 3/3/93

34
   “downgrade … marginalize”: DM, 4/8/93

35
   “Palace plots against”: DM, 7/30/93

36
   “I acknowledge that she had to”: Interview with Andrew Morton

37
   “many-headed hydra”: DT, 9/1/97

38
   Kay was thirty-six: Interview with Richard Kay

39
   “our first serious and lengthy”: DM, 9/1/97

40
   “I realized how inadequately”: Interview with Richard Kay

41
   “I saw her at her happiest”: DM, 9/1/97

42
   “I wanted information”: Interview with Richard Kay

43
   “When I was at the
Mail

:
Interview with Richard Addis

44
   “unofficial press officer”: B-AM2, p. 137

45
   “I couldn’t disclose”: Interview with Richard Kay

46
   “I want to get away from it all”: Interview with Mark Lloyd

47
   “It was totally secure”: Ibid.

48
   “Once Diana made up”: Ibid.

49
   “suffering from stress and exhaustion”: SuPe, 7/25/93

50
   “You make my life hell!”: Sun, 8/3/93; DEx, 8/3/93

51
   “looking angry and strained”: Mi, 10/11/93

52
   
PAIN OF A PRINCESS: IS THE STRAIN GETTING TO DI?:
Ibid.

53
   
DI’S AT BREAKING POINT AS CHARLES WINS THE PR WAR:
Sun, 10/12/93

54
   “This is the face of a woman”: Mi, 10/11/93

55
   “increasingly emotional”: Sun, 10/12/93

56
   A meeting on: Ti, 10/31/93; DM, 10/26/93

57
   “Diana told me that Prince Charles”: Interview with Andrew Neil

58
   “The idea I am searching”:
Financial Times
, 11/22/93

59
   “prolonged eating binge”: Sun, 11/4/93

60
   “rare public display”: ES, 11/4/93

61
   “pathetically damaged … broken”: B-SS, p. 27

62
   “shocked … self-mutilation”: Ibid., p. 19

63
   “were counteracting … tension and panic”: Ibid., pp. 27–28

64
   “it proved impossible”: B-JD, p. 653

65
   “real purpose”: Ibid., p. 654

66
   “The pressure was … owed it to the public”: Pano, p. 24

67
   “little light”: Interview with David Puttnam

68
   “I will be reducing.… kindness and support”: To, 12/4/93

69
   “the tears started”: ES, 12/3/93

70
   “campaign to downgrade”: Sun, 12/4/93

71
   she left her 118 charities: ES, 12/3/93

72
   Indeed, Mike Whitlam: To, 12/4/93

73
   “Carping newspaper columnists”: Ibid.

74
   “bored stiff”: Sun, 12/4/93

75
   “does not know what”: Ti, 12/4/93

76
   “We can reveal today”: DM, 12/6/93

77
   “the great and good”: Interview with David Puttnam

78
   “I don’t think she knew her own”: Interview with Michael Adler

CHAPTER 20

1
   “There is one man”: Mi, 12/5/93

2
   Hoare was distantly: ST, 12/18/94

3
   her “protégé … study and excavate”: DM, 9/8/94

4
   he embraced Sufism: NOTW, 2/26/95

5
   eyes of “deep velvet”: DM, 8/22/94

6
   “old-fashioned politesse”: ST, 8/28/94

7
   As a figure in the London: DM, 9/8/94; ST, 12/18/94

8
   “Oliver is half child”: DM, 9/8/94

9
   From 1985 to 1989: NOTW, 8/28/94; ST, 12/18/94

10
   Hoare was also close to: ST, 8/28/94

11
   sharing an interest: DM, 8/22/94

12
   Diana began visiting: To, 3/21/94; 9/24/94

13
   “Sometimes she could phone”: NOTW, 2/19/95

14
   “She wrote the letter”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

15
   “there was great love”: Ibid.

16
   The calls began in September: NOTW, 8/21/94

17
   “Whoever it is just wants”: Ibid.

18
   “It was like a war zone”: NOTW, 2/19/95

19
   “Oliver told Diana he had”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

20
   “had been made essentially”: B-SS, p. 98

21
   “asking for trouble”: Ibid., p. 100

22
   The anonymous phone calls ceased: NOTW, 2/19/95

23
   Over the next six days: NOTW, 8/21/94

24
   “rented by the Office … calling her first name”: Mi, 4/30/98

25
   “Yes, I’m so sorry”: NOTW, 8/21/94

26
   This time they were traced: Ibid.

27
   “her head rested trustingly”: To, 9/24/94

28
   “enough to start speculation:
Telegraph
magazine, 10/29/94

29
   “The Princess has been a regular”: To, 3/21/94

30
   Five months later: NOTW, 8/21/94

31
   Both Hoare and Diana had learned: DM, 8/22/94; 8/23/94

32
   Kay spoke to Clive Goodman: Interview with Richard Kay

33
   “some very loyal, and perhaps misguided”: NOTW, 8/21/94

34
   On Saturday afternoon: Interview with Richard Kay

35
   “poured out her anger”: DM, 8/22/94

36
   “Do you know you’re being”: Mark Saunders and Glenn Harvey,
Dicing with Di: The Amazing Adventures of Britain’s Royal Chasers
(1996), pp. 114–15

37
   “unprecedented interview”: DM, 8/22/94

38
   “neurotic nonsense”:
The Observer
, 8/28/94

39
   “thoroughly modern princess”: Ti, 8/23/94

40
   “hunting for change”:
Telegraph
magazine, 10/29/94

41
   “with a picture of your mother-in-law”:
The Observer
, 8/28/94

42
   “I feel I am being destroyed”: DM, 8/22/94

43
   These claims later proved: DM, 8/23/94; B-PT, p. 204

44
   “in the habit of ringing”: DM, 8/22/94

45
   “bizarre”: ST, 8/28/94

46
   “I reckon she has”: Ibid.

47
   “300 silent nuisance calls”: Sun, 9/8/94

48
   “whiff of conspiracy”: DM, 10/24/94

49
   “I was reputed to have made”: Pano, pp. 22–23

50
   the “young boy”:
Sunday Independent
, 11/26/95

51
   “made a lot of calls”: DEx, 11/27/95

52
   During late January: Ibid.

53
   “she rang him seventy times”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

54
   “She said he was a weak”: Ibid.

55
   “as late as 1995”: B-SS, p. 91

56
   In February: NOTW, 2/19/95

57
   “The truth is, she views”: DM, 2/20/95

58
   “He put them in a brown”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

59
   Diana was growing increasingly: B-RK, p. 134

60
   The primary focus: DT, 11/6/98

61
   The capstone of the film: ST, 7/3/94

62
   Dimbleby’s filmed conversation: JD-Doc

63
   “the clear context was”: Sun, 7/2/94; SuTel, 7/3/94

64
   two days earlier: DM, 6/28/94

65
   By then, Charles had briefed: DT, 11/15/95

66
   “to kill off the speculation”: SuTel, 7/3/94

67
   audience of 13.4 million: Gua, 11/21/95

68
   “She bounded out”: ITV-Doc

69
   “I didn’t exactly feel like”: Interview with Graydon Carter

70
   “You have to help us out”: Interview with Christopher Hitchens

71
   
THE THRILLA HE LEFT TO WOO CAMILLA:
Sun, 6/30/94

72
   “Here was a woman at ease”: DM, 6/30/94

73
   “She could have watched”: DT, 6/30/94

74
   One poll showed: ST, 7/3/94

75
   
CHARLES RULES OK:
Ibid.

76
   “It is something that I think”: JD-Doc

77
   “very fair-minded”: Sun, 7/1/94

78
   “crowing”: MOS, 7/3/94

79
   “I haven’t seen the program”: DEx, 7/4/94

80
   “pretty devastated”: Pano, p. 25

81
   “I don’t regard myself”: NOTW, 10/2/94

82
   “dumped him”: Ibid.

83
   “It was a preemptive strike”: MOS, 10/2/94

84
   “Diana was happy for it”: NOTW, 10/2/94

85
   “anodyne”: DM, 10/3/94

86
   “too beautiful”: ES, 10/3/94;
Independent
, 10/4/94

87
   By late July: ST, 10/9/94; Mi, 10/3/94

88
   
The Mirror
later published: SuTel, 4/25/99

89
   At the time of publication: Gua, 10/5/94

90
   “proof”: ES, 10/3/94

91
   “affirming the truth”: Gua, 10/6/94

92
   “set the record straight”:
Independent
, 10/4/94

93
   “clogging, nauseating”: Ibid.

94
   
TRAITOR:
DEx, 10/4/94

95
   
LOVE RAT
and
CAD:
Sun, 10/4/94

96
   
BRITAIN’S BIGGEST BOUNDER:
DM, 10/2/94

97
   “He is a revolting”: Mi, 10/3/94

98
   “Eight-Page Special”: Sun, 10/4/94

99
   “grubby and worthless”: Gua, 10/6/94

100
   “wretched”: DEx, 10/4/94

101
   “bitterly hurt”: DM, 10/24/94

102
   “fevered imagination”: DEx, 10/4/94

103
   “there was nothing”: Pano, p. 27

104
   
CHARLES: I’VE NEVER LOVED DIANA:
ST, 11/13/94

105
   “lovable … in love with her”: B-JD, p. 339

106
   Dimbleby also acknowledged: Ibid., pp. 341–42, 345

107
   “insist he was to blame”: Ibid., p. 367

108
   Diana went to see William: ST, 11/13/94

109
   “Well, there were three”: Pano, p. 26

110
   “picture portrayed … revenge attack”: B-RK, p. 134

111
   “She feels the furor”: Sun, 10/18/94

112
   “had not had any contact”: DEx, 8/20/94

113
   “mishmash of tedious”:
The Observer
, 10/5/97

114
   “bitter, jealous, and lonely”: Ti, 11/7/94

115
   another self-mutilation … her use of Prozac: MOS, 11/6/94

116
   “Jekyll and Hyde”: Sun, 3/4/94

117
   “dead common”:
Tatler
, 4/94

118
   “She has been given”:
The Observer
, 8/28/94

119
   “She was schizophrenic”: Interview with Robert Hardman

120
   “I got a call from”: Interview with Anthony Holden

121
   “She wanted me to touch base”: Interview with Andrew Neil

122
   “She wanted to win them”: Interview with Richard Kay

123
   “I’ve been walking on air”: ES, 4/13/95

124
   “notorious illiterate”: DM, 9/28/95

125
   “took Diana’s side”: Interview with Richard Ingrams

126
   “Come to dinner Friday night”: Interview with Max Hastings

127
   the letter she wrote to Richard Kay’s mother: DM, 9/1/97

128
   “The Prince felt too”: Interview with Max Hastings

129
   “She was the kind of person”: Interview with Paul Johnson

130
   “tacit bargain”: TNY, 9/15/97

131
   “native cunning”: Interview with Andrew Roberts

132
   In May 1994: DM, 5/18/94

133
   “My husband said it”:
Requiem
, p. 115

134
   “To my horror”: Ibid., p. 117

135
   Later that afternoon: Interview with Richard Kay

136
   The next day’s
Daily Mail:
DM, 5/19/94

137
   “played a role”: Interview with Richard Kay

138
   “like a rape”: DM, 5/4/91

139
   “two faces … live like a typist”: Sun, 5/5/94

140
   “She didn’t understand”: Interview with Peter McKay

141
   Diana “hated” being described: DM, 9/1/97

142
   “It was manipulation”: TNY, 9/15/97

CHAPTER 21

1
   “It was always push”: Interview with Jane Atkinson

2
   turning up at only ten royal: To, 12/3/94

3
   But in 1995, she appeared: DT, 7/17/96

4
   “something positive”: SuPe, 3/20/94

5
   “a lot of work … underground”: Pano, p. 24

6
   a “hush-hush” visit: MOS, 4/24/94

7
   “There were phone calls”: Interview with Richard Addis

8
   “she has been attending”: DM, 4/15/94

9
   “hidden life”: DM, 10/24/94

10
   “without the trumpet blowing”: To, 8/20/94

11
   “Super Di”: To, 5/20/94

12
   “A normal day”: Pano, p. 28

13
   “wobblies”: Harvey and Saunders, p. 11

14
   “Sometimes a Loon attack”: Ibid., p. 6

15
   a “relaunch”: Mi, 9/23/94

16
   “I said, ‘I know you’ ”: Interview with Michael Adler

17
   “new role as a behind … solo visit”: Mi, 11/2/94

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