Read Diana in Search of Herself Online
Authors: Sally Bedell Smith
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“trivial, like mosquitoes”: WO, 4/9/88
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“Someone said to me recently”: Sun, 6/9/89
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“ingratitude”: Sun, 9/10/91
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“Diana doesn’t understand”: To, 3/30/92; Sun, 9/10/91
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“I love people for”: DM, 5/20/97
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they might not communicate: DEx, 6/6/88
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“It was not an easy”: Interview with Richard Kay
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“I don’t understand why I have”: SuEx, 10/11/92
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“a close friend … she told friends”: B-AM1, p. 136
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“There were 4,000 of her words”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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“made a number of alterations”: B-AM1, p. 19
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“presumably out of deference”: Ibid.
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“the man she longed to marry”: Ibid., p. 11
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When Angela Serota called: Ibid., p. 174
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“extraordinary … grieving family”: DM, 8/24/91
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“Diana’s tears flowed”: Sun, 8/30/91
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“What do you suppose”:
Independent
, 11/30/91
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“more positive and balanced”: B-AM1, p. 176
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“second honeymoon … lovebirds”: DS, 8/13/91
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“happier and closer”: Sun, 8/13/91
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Meanwhile, the Waleses: B-JD, p. 579
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“Their lives are spent”: B-AM1, p. 182
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“While the caring princess”: DEx, 9/23/91
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“actually very healthy”: B-JD, p. 585
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“the greatest year of her life”:
Good Housekeeping
(British edition),10/91
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“wistful solitude”: DM, 2/12/92
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“poignant reminder of the royal wish”: Mi, 2/12/92
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“The marriage was indeed”: B-JD, p. 592
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Diana was well aware: Ibid., p. 591
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“all eyes will be on them”: ES, 2/12/92
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placing the blame for: Mi, 2/14/92
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“It was she who seemed”: ST, 2/16/92
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“Here she was again”: ST, 5/17/92
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“tabloid mauling”: B-JD, pp. 579–80
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they arrived and departed: B-AM1, pp. 180–81
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“leaving Diana to attend”: DM, 4/2/92
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“I asked, ‘Are you aware’ ”: Interview with Roberto Devorik
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she was visibly shaking: Interview with David Puttnam
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“It was a hard-boiled crowd”: Interview with Andrew Knight
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“suddenly she started”: Interview with David Puttnam
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“I think it would be better off”: Neil, p. 262
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“effectively … too fantastical”: Ibid., p. 261
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“He started going through”: Interview with Andrew Neil
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“gushing prose”: Interview with Sue Douglas
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“We have something serious”: Ibid.
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“I was able to say”: Interview with Andrew Knight
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“I never had any doubt”: Interview with Andrew Neil
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The Sunday Times
upped: Neil, p. 263
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“there were large chunks”: Interview with Sue Douglas
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“Treat that book”: Interview with Stuart Higgins
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“It is believed”: DEx, 5/9/92
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“I still see myself”: ST, 5/17/92
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“The Princess hoped by putting”: Interview with Robert Hardman
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“She thinks he is a bad”: B-AM1, p. 184
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“her own privacy”: DT, 1/13/93
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“There was no commercial”: Interview with Max Hastings
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“coming under strong pressure”: Sun, 6/4/92
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Fealty to his sovereign:
The Spectator
, 1/23/99
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The first
Sunday Times
excerpt: ST, 6/7/92
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“I HAVE NOT COOPERATED”:
Mi, 6/8/92
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“odious exhibition”: B-JD, p. 583
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McGregor checked once more: Gua, 1/12/93 (Lord McGregor letter12/11/92 to Sir David Calcutt)
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Prince Charles first read: B-WB, p. 165
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“Diana and Charles agreed”: B-AM2, p. 29
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“pompous”: Interview with Andrew Knight
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“she was making his life unbearable”: B-AM2, p. 30
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“Are you really telling me”: Interview with Andrew Knight
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“This was Diana’s elaborate way”: Ibid.
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“She was under huge pressure”: Interview with Andrew Neil
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Fellowes knew at once: B-JD, p. 584
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“embarrassed the commission”: McGregor letter, 12/11/92
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“the thought that the Princess”: B-JD, p. 587
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He changed his mind: Ibid., p. 586
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When Charles learned: Ibid., p. 588
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“if she tried to manipulate”: B-AM2, p. 31
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That afternoon, Diana burst: Sun, 6/12/92
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“rallied to the Prince”: B-JD, p. 588
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“shocked and horrified”: Pano, p. 18
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Two days earlier: B-JD, p. 588; ST, 6/28/92
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“was led to believe”: ST, 6/28/92
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“Left her shaken rigid”: B-AM2, p. 34
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“Diana said, ‘When I came’ ”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
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by writing Diana a series: ST, 12/13/92
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Diana reacted defensively: B-AM2, p. 35
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“stinging … irate”: B-AM1, p. 217
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“caring and compassionate”: Sun, 6/8/92
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“was very upset”: Interview with Andrew Knight
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Although their views informed: Interviews with Sue Douglas, Andrew Neil
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“dignified silence”: ST, 6/28/92
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“campaign of derision”: B-AM2, p. 40
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when transcripts of the Squidgy: MOS, 1/18/93
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“was done to harm me”: Pano, p. 22
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“had enjoyed a ‘physical’ ”: Sun, 9/1/92
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while he never took: ES, 9/3/92, 12/3/93
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“destroyed”: B-AM1, p. 221
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“flowering of [her] true”: Ibid., p. 21
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“growing sense of self-belief”: Ibid., p. 27
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“emotional roller coaster”: Ibid.
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“She dropped most”: Interview with Richard Kay
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“incensed … at what she perceived”: DM, 5/6/93
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“unpaid adviser”: DT, 10/7/97
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“James Colthurst was still my”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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“What had been hidden”: Pano, p. 18
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each consulting lawyers: B-AM2, p. 48; B-WB, p. 166
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“openly talking about”: B-JD, p. 589
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“Mrs. Walsh”: DM, 12/10/92
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being “exiled”: B-AM1, p. 222
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during the Balmoral holiday: B-JD, p. 592
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WHY CHARLES AND DIANA ARE BACK TOGETHER:
B-JW, p. 129
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“often distraught”: B-JD, p. 593
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“The Glums”: B-JW, p. 130
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“The strain is immense”: Ibid., pp. 593–94 (PC letter 11/8/92 to unnamed recipient)
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Diana had been on the phone: Ibid., p. 593
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“recent wave of misleading”: Ibid., pp. 139–40
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Within days, the tabloids: Mi, 1/17/93; Sun, 1/17/93
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the tape of this conversation: DS, 11/14/92; MOS, 1/17/93
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“I’ll just live inside”: Mi, 1/17/93
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prompted questions: DM, 11/14/92
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“snapped”: B-JD, p. 595; B-WB, pp. 169–70
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“Unable to see any future”: B-JD, p. 595
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“not at all”: Pano, p. 19
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to tell them the news: Ibid., p. 20
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“heard it on the radio”: Ibid., p. 19
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“carefree, glossy”: DM, 12/11/92
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“Diana sounded flat”: B-AP, p. 297
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“The media did not mismatch”: DM, 12/10/92
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“report the truth”: ES, 12/10/92
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“royal magic … on his judgment”: DM, 12/10/92
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“She lived her life in so many”: VF, 10/97
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“to discuss the things”: Interview with Roberto Devorick
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“She liked to be the one”: Interview with Marguerite Littman
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“She needed to be liked”: Interview with Mark Lloyd
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“It was totally one-to-one”: Interview with Cosima Somerset
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She retreated: B-RK, p. 108
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“I said, ‘When you do’ ”: Interview with David Puttnam
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“They are perfect”: Interview with Nicholas Haslam
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“Why are you sending”: Ibid.
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“She was very clever to give”: Ibid.
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“I was not on the same social”: B-SS, p. 18
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giving Diana “prophecies”: B-AM1, pp. 130, 163
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“the mother I would have liked”: DM, 1/14/98
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“the essential ingredient of our relationship”: DM, 9/4/97
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The family was also decidedly: VF, 5/97
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“At lunch at Annabel’s”: Interview with Cosima Somerset
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“She liked my way of living”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
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“To be her friend was difficult”: Ibid.
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Like Elsa, Hayat was: ES, 6/2/95; DM, 5/9/98
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“glass stump”: B-JD, p. 546
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“Peter took the approach”: Interview with Nigel Dempster
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PALACE DENIES SPIRITUAL CRISIS:
Ti, 4/28/93
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“her sulky public behavior”: SuTel, 9/7/97
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“simply cry [until she was] totally drained”: Ibid.
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“compassionate and practical”: Ibid.
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The Louisiana-born: NYT, 4/4/99
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“I would have loved to”: Interview with Marguerite Littman
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“I deliberately didn’t get”: Ibid.
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since she had trained as: DM, 5/6/93
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“like a brother to her”: Interview with Roberto Devorik
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“By 1989, [Andrew and I] were sharing”: B-SF, p. 163
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The first was Steve Wyatt: Ibid., pp. 191–92, 198–200
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“financial adviser”:
Esquire
, 6/95
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While hiding in some nearby: Ibid.; B-SF, pp. 6–10; B-JW, pp. 112–13
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“potent confederacy”: B-SF, p. 187
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“its level best to isolate”: Ibid., p. 224
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“She’s the only person I know”: B-RK, p. 157
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“Palladian jewel”: Spencer, p. 55
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after the royal security: DEx, 5/18/93
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“brief but bitter silence”: Spencer, p. 55
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“I hate you so much”: B-AM1, p. 29
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Diana and Raine had met: DM, 5/12/93
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As word of their friendship: Mi, 7/13/98
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“she felt remorse”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
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“I never found her strong”: DM, 9/1/97
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“I was a problem.… busy stopping me”: Pano, pp. 20–21
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“Parents sometimes desert”: Ti, 9/12/91
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As expected, the press saw: DT, 12/4/93
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THE REAL PAIN OF A BROKEN MARRIAGE:
To, 11/18/92
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DIANA: THE PAIN OF BEING UNLOVED:
DM, 11/18/92
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“children are not … every household”: Ibid.
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“lecture on good parenting”: Ibid.
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“astonishing”: To, 11/18/92
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“extraordinary”: DM, 11/18/92
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She had sixty sessions: DM, 5/26/93
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“that didn’t actually say”: ITV-Doc
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“I have it on very good”: DM, 4/28/93
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“the ‘authority’ was herself”: Ibid.
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“astonishing”: DM, 5/26/93
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“showed she had beaten”: To, 4/28/93
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“dieting, bingeing, and self-hatred”: Susie Orbach,
Fat Is a Feminist Issue
(1988), p. 13
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“the body as the personification.… wrested away from her”: Susie Orbach speech “Protest and Defiance: Surrender and Complicity: Eating Problems in the 90’s” (1993)
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“someone who had learned”: DEx, 4/28/93
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“
not
about lack of self-control”: Orbach,
Fat Is a Feminist Issue
, p. 28
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By 1993, she had been taking: B-SS, p. 93; DM, 2/24/98; B-AM2, p. 108
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“haze of loneliness”: DM, 6/2/93
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a poll in
Today:
Gua, 12/23/93
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“Bad Witch … Good Witch”: B-SF, pp. 187, 196
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Foreign Secretary Douglas Hurd: B-JD, p. 653
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Diana’s celebrity even eclipsed: Ti, 12/5/96
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THE TRIUMPH OF DIANA:
Ibid.
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“Nepal,” he was told: DT, 3/23/93
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“addicted to the limelight”: B-AM2, p. 80
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“relentless”: DM, 7/13/93
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a
Mirror
poll: Gua, 12/23/93