Read Diana in Search of Herself Online
Authors: Sally Bedell Smith
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“She was not ruled”: Ibid., p. 200
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“her belief [was] at times”: Ibid., p. 237
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“go through a transformation”: Sun, 8/24/92
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“willful and capable of … inner strength”: Rita Rogers,
From One World to Another
(1998), p. 246
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Diana believed she communicated …“nut”: B-AM1, pp. 65–66
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“deep emotional problems”: B-RK, p. 148
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“I think the most important thing”: ITV-Doc
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For four years, energy healer: B-RK, p. 148
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“truckloads of negative”: B-SS, p. 19
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“rarely met anyone”: Ibid., p. 18
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routinely fielded eight-hour phone calls: Ibid., p. 34
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“always seemed completely compos”: Ibid., p. 19
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Diana claimed to experience: B-AM1, p. 66
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“I know this sounds a bit”: Sun, 8/24/92
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she had been a nun: B-AM1, p. 243
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she told Penny Thornton: B-PT, p. 79
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She spoke of voices: B-AM1, pp. 34, 62
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“strange feeling … drop down”: Ibid., p. 29
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“visualize … burning it”: B-AM2, p. 14
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“take all the aggro”: Ibid.
28
“so that they would be in different”: B-SS, p. 132
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“a peculiar mixture”: Interview with Kent Ravenscroft
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“helps me to keep calm”: B-RK, p. 148
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“she had reached a very low point”: SuEx, 7/5/92
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“an eating disorder which in Chinese”: DM, 2/24/98
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research studies have shown: WP, 10/13/98
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“just to tell me what she had”: Rogers, p. 241
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“Most of all … she needed”: Sun, 1/15/98
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“support and love”: Pano, p. 8
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“they weren’t aware”: Ibid.
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“created a new royal role”: DEx, 11/14/89
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“I want to feel I am needed”: SuTel, 9/7/97
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“the toughest battle of”: SuEx, 8/25/91
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“Diana was a good friend”: Interview with William Haseltine
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“She was very, very nervous”: Interview with Michael Adler
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“We hope if people see”: DEx, 1/10/87
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“Princess Diana should shake”: Mi, 1/29/87
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“It was highly programmed”: Interview with Michael Adler
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“I found myself being more”: Pano, p. 4
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“The caring princess has thrown”: To, 5/24/88
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“a cooler and more independent”: ST, 9/25/88
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“fully fledged emergence”: DM, 1/25/89
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“the line between recreational”: DM, 5/19/89
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250 engagements: DM, 6/10/89; Sun, 6/9/89
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“I say, ‘Did you see’ ”: B-AM1, p. 66
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“I would have an ongoing”: Interview with Michael Adler
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“fulfilled her public”: Interview with William Haseltine
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“I used to write her the most”: ITV-Doc
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In 1988, Diana began visiting: To, 11/30/88; DEx, 12/15/88; DM, 4/21/89
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“She was totally involved”: To, 5/24/89
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She even kept a copy: Sun, 4/16/91
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“Some people find it very”: DT, 6/17/89
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“was completely intuitive”: Sutel, 9/7/97
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“She did have a powerful”: Interview with Michael Adler
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“This morning I arrived”:
Requiem: Diana, Princess of Wales, 1961–1997: Memories and Tributes
(1997), edited by Brian MacArthur, p. 107
63
“She often felt powerless”: Sun, 1/15/98
64
“she knew exactly what”: Interview with Cosima Somerset
65
“more open and more vulnerable”: Pano, p. 4
66
“was declared a loser”: B-SF, p. 138
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“opened a vacancy”: Ibid., p. 137
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“appalling … crass, rude”: Ibid., p. 138
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DUCHESS OF PORK!:
Ibid., p. 143
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when her father was caught: To, 5/23/88
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“as cozy and personal”: B-SF, p. 110
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Besides his £35,000 ($55,000) salary: B-SF, pp. 158–59
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Diana and Charles, on the: B-JD, pp. 614–15
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Fergie was amassing: B-SF, p. 159
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“gray men”: Ibid., p. 149
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“hopelessly erratic”: Ibid., p. 154
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In a conversation with her friend: Sun, 8/24/92
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Since they irritated: B-WB, pp. 86, 92–94, 107–9, 120
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“I was very bad about”: I-FSK
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“The media descended”: MOS, 3/9/97
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“You have seduced”: Sun, 11/9/88
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“sexy dance”: DM, 11/11/88
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“We got the balance”:
TV Times
, 11/11/89
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“triumphant tour”: SuPe, 11/13/88
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“disaster … all evening”: SuPe, 3/17/91 (The article’s byline was “Frances Cornwell,” one of James Whitaker’s pseudonyms.)
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“valiant front”: B-AP, p. 195
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“were sticking together”: TNY, 9/15/97
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“painful emotions and thoughts”: SuEx, 7/5/92
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“presence of Camilla”: Sun, 1/12/98
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“a voice inside me said”: B-AM1, p. 62
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“the most famous welfare”: Ti, 2/3/89
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DI-VINE:
Gua, 2/13/89
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“hold her head high … having done her bit”: B-AP, p. 206
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“needled me the whole”: B-AM1, p. 62
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“as if we were all best”: Ibid., p. 63
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Diana said she realized she was “in the way”: Ibid.
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“It was … seven years’ pent-up … “I just said”: Ibid.
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“For a few weeks she would”: B-AP, p. 144
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She took Hewitt: Ibid., pp. 197–203
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Diana viewed it as abandonment: Ibid., p. 220
24
“She loved with an everlasting”: Interview with Paul Johnson;
Memoirs of Cardinal de Retz
, Vol. 1, pp. 150–51
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“their respective love lives”: B-AM1, p. 188
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“secret late date”: SuPe, 10/29/89
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“It’s very hard”: To, 10/31/89
28
“darling”: Descriptions of the Gilbey conversation are drawn from the transcript published on 8/24/92 in
The Sun
. The reference to “playing with yourself” was not included in the
Sun
transcription but appeared in B-JW, p. 89.
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“adulterous relationship”: Pano, p. 22
30
It had none of Diana’s: Descriptions of the Camilla conversation are drawn from the transcript published on 1/17/93 in the
Sunday Mirror
.
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“Saint Diana”: DEx, 11/14/89
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“Faced with the horror”: SuMi, 11/5/89
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“turns a blind eye to”: DEx, 7/11/90
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“heat-wave hairstyle”: DS, 7/25/90
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Andrew Morton’s report: ST, 6/17/90
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“ill-informed”: ES, 6/26/90
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Diana sat by his bedside: DM, 6/30/90, 9/5/90
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“brushed aside”: B-PT, p. 76
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Camilla was a frequent: B-WB, pp. 125–26
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“snap out of the gloom”: To, 10/22/90
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“an affectionate accommodation”: ST, 9/23/90
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“blackmail-style notes”: NOTW, 8/30/92
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“I knew about Charles”: Interview with Max Hastings
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Over the Christmas holidays: B-WB, pp. 134–35
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“We went through the various”: Interview with Stuart Higgins
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“Patsy Chapman, the editor”: Interview with Andrew Knight
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“Diana certainly knew”: Interview with Stuart Higgins
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“someone very close”: Interview with Richard Kay
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Since Iraq’s invasion: B-WB, pp. 130, 136
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Throughout the autumn: B-AP, pp. 224, 253
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Diana began writing: Ibid., p. 235; DM, 4/2/98
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“long, flowing letters”: B-AP, pp. 235–36
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“finally trying to understand”: Ibid., p. 239
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“the truth about Charles and Camilla”: Ibid., p. 251
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Diana constantly vacillated: Ibid., p. 263
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“Something had to be done”: Ibid., p. 252
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“we first put the words”: B-SF, p. 187
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“cause for concern”: DM, 2/17/91, 2/25/91
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when he reached Diana: B-AP, p. 262
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his estranged girlfriend: SuMi, 3/17/91; ES, 7/2/91
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“Diana cannot afford”: Mi, 3/18/91
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When Hewitt returned: B-AP, pp. 270–71
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“rejected … used”: Ibid., p. 274
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“She simply stopped”: DEx, 9/3/98
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“glimpse of the old magic”: SuEx, 7/14/91
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“a united front”: SuMi, 4/28/91
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“I walked in”: Interview with William Reilly
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“very tense. The marriage was”: DM, 1/15/98
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“If Charles was off to see”: Interview with Andrew Neil
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“often has to act as”: DM, 4/4/91
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“Charles insists that his”: Mi, 4/13/91
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“depressed fracture”: Mi, 6/4/91
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At that point, Charles decided: B-JD, p. 576
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“bedside vigil”: Mi, 6/4/91
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“a fractured skull is not”: Sun, 6/5/91
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PHANTOM FATHER:
DEx, 6/5/91
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THE EXHAUSTED FACE OF A LOVING MOTHER:
To, 6/5/91
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Diana later told Morton: B-AM1, p. 179
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“horror and disbelief”: Ibid., p. 176
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shifting back and forth: These reports included DEx, 2/8/91, 2/9/91; DM, 3/12/91; Sun, 4/16/91; DM 4/17/91; Mi, 5/6/91
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“Since the Prince broke”: Sun, 5/20/91
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“He ignores me everywhere”: B-AM1, p. 57
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“It was an open secret”: Interview with Peter McKay
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“came back very excited”: Interview with Sue Douglas
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“Princess Diana is to spend”: DM, 6/28/91
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“That was straight PR”: Interview with Nigel Dempster
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“It was a well-bred lady’s”: Ibid.
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“growing coolness”: DM, 7/2/91
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“The sad truth”: Sun, 7/3/91
90
“friendship with Hewitt”: ES, 7/2/91
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“finds Mrs. Parker Bowles”: DM, 7/18/91
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“supper for two”: Sun, 7/9/91
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“Charles and Diana’s summer”: ST, 7/7/91
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“I was told that both”: DT, 1/13/93
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“cozy supper”: DEx, 7/25/91
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“She thought she was a wise soul”: ITV-Doc
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“a huge amount of hostility”: ITV-Doc
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“everything was in her”: Interview with Roberto Devorik
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Diana told friends that she believed: DM, 1/15/98
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“the lid was being”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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“at the end of my tether”: Pano, p. 17
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“horrible sadness … the very worst time”:
Hello!
, 11/22/97
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“She was on the verge”: ST, 11/1/98
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“She was a woman scorned”: Interview with Andrew Roberts
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“Most people who knew her”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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she and Diana formed: Interview with Andrew Knight
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“Angela was very important”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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“conduit”: B-AM1, p. 14
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“nibbling around”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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“royal sniper”: DS, 12/1/82
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“It is just another indication”: NOTW, 5/4/86
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“I didn’t know about the bulimia”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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who was also a friend of Morton’s: B-PT, pp. 120–21
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By one account, Diana: B-RK, p. 146
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“She didn’t see him until late”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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“James was always with her”: Ibid.
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“confusion … that line”: Ibid.
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“The classic was the suicides”: Ibid.
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“breathless haste”: B-AM1, p. 17
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“hope for the best”: Ibid., p. 16
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“had doubts about her veracity”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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“secret friendship”: Ibid.
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“much to Diana’s annoyance”: Ibid.
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“She procured them because”: Ibid.
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Like Diana, Knight had been: Interview with Andrew Knight
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“Angela rang me”: Ibid.
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“Angela is a very private”: Interview with Andrew Morton
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“Yes, if [Diana] says”: Interview with Andrew Knight
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“She wants it in
The Sunday Times
”
:
Ibid.
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As the project advanced: Interview with Andrew Morton
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“Just remember we always”: B-AM1, p. 64