Family Drama 4 E-Book Bundle (55 page)

As if on cue, two waitresses hurried out of the marquee, each with a tray of glasses, followed by a waiter with a stack of dirty plates.

Mary grabbed a small sausage from the top of the pile of dishes and shoved it into her mouth as she pushed more dirty plates under the soapy water.

‘Ma-ry!' cried Peaches in mock horror.

‘I need to keep my strength up,' said Mary, her cheeks bulging.

‘Dottie, would you come and help Miss Josephine?' Mrs Fitzgerald's sudden appearance made them all jump. Mary choked on the sausage and Peaches put down her tea towel to pat her on the back.

‘Yes, Madam,' said Dottie, doing her best to steer her employer away from her friend before she got into trouble. Mariah Fitzgerald could be very tight-fisted. Dottie could never understand meanness. Why put food in the pig bin rather than allow a hard-working woman like Mary to have a little something extra? But she knew her employer was perfectly capable, at the end of the day, of refusing to pay Mary if she caught her eating.

Thinking about pig bins, she was reminded of the pig in her hen run. How was it getting on? She'd have to ask if she could take some leftovers for him … or was it a her? How do you tell the difference, she wondered.

As she followed Mrs Fitzgerald upstairs, Dottie decided – nothing ventured, nothing gained. ‘Excuse me, Madam. About the leftovers.'

‘Put them in the pantry under a cover,' said Mariah without turning around.

‘And the plate scrapings?'

Mrs Fitzgerald stopped dead and Dottie almost walked into her. ‘The plate scrapings?' She sounded horrified.

‘Only my Reg has a pig,' Dottie ploughed on, ‘and I was wondering if I could take the scrapings home to feed it.'

Mrs Fitzgerald was staring at her.

‘He hopes to fatten it up for Christmas.' Dottie swallowed hard. ‘He says it would make a nice bit of bacon.'

‘What an amazingly resourceful man your Reg is, Dottie,' she said, walking on. ‘Yes, of course you can take the scrapings. And when Christmas comes, don't forget to bring a rasher or two for the doctor, will you?'

They'd reached the bedroom where Josephine was struggling with the buttons on the back of her wedding dress.

‘I've told Dottie to help you, darling,' said Mrs Fitzgerald. ‘I'll have to get back to the guests.'

As they heard her mother run back downstairs, Dottie gave the bride a conspiratorial smile. ‘Are you all right now, Miss?'

‘Oh, Dottie,' Josephine cried happily. ‘It's been a wonderful, wonderful day, and I know, I just know, tonight will be just fine.'

‘I'm sure it will, Miss.'

‘Mrs,' Josephine corrected her dreamily. ‘Mrs Malcolm Deery.' She gathered her skirts and danced around the room, making Dottie laugh.

Between them, they got her out of the wedding dress and into her going-away outfit, an attractive pink suit with a matching jacket. The skirt was tight and the jacket nipped in at the waist. Her pale cream ruche hat with its small veil set it off nicely. She wore peep-toe shoes, pink with white spots and a fairly high heel. She carried a highly fashionable bucket-shaped bag.

Mr Malcolm, who had changed in the spare bedroom, was waiting for her at the top of the stairs. He was dressed in a brown suit and as he waited, he twirled a brand new trilby hat around in his hand. The newlyweds kissed lightly and, holding hands, they began to descend. Halfway downstairs, however, Josephine broke free and ran back.

Dottie was slightly startled as she ran to her, laid both hands on her shoulders and kissed her cheek. ‘Thank you, Dottie darling,' she whispered urgently in her ear, ‘thank you for all you've done.'

‘It was nothing,' protested Dottie mildly.

‘Oh yes it was,' Josephine insisted. ‘And if I'm half as happy as you and your Reg have been, I shall be a lucky woman.' With that she turned on her heel and ran back to her new husband and they both carried on downstairs.

As soon as she'd gone, Dottie went back into the bedroom. As happy as you and your Reg have been? Had they been happy? If they had, it was all a very long time ago. She could hardly remember their courtship, but they had been happy in the beginning … hadn't they?

Even her own wedding day had been rushed. The phoney war was over by then and Reg was nervous, afraid he'd be sent abroad. Under the circumstances, Aunt Bessie had been persuaded to let them marry by special licence on August bank holiday weekend. The gossips had a field day. She knew the rumour was that she was pregnant, but she was a virgin when Reg took her to bed that night.

Remembering all that the boys had gone through at Dunkirk, when Reg wrote to say he was being posted to the Far East, she'd been pleased. ‘At least he'll be out of all this,' she had told Aunt Bessie.

But after he'd gone, she'd felt bad about saying that. She had little idea what happened out there, but if the newsreels were to be believed it looked far worse than what happened in Germany. He didn't want to talk about it when he came back, at the end of '48, and he had been a changed man. His chest was bad and he needed nursing. Reg didn't seem to want her for ages but when he recovered and tried to make love to her, he was so rough she hated it. It was hard not to cry out with Aunt Bessie next door. And that was another thing. He and her aunt didn't see eye
to eye but funnily enough, when she died, Reg had been deeply affected. The shock of it left him with another problem: he couldn't do it. She wished she had someone to talk to, but it wasn't the done thing, was it? A married woman shouldn't talk about what went on behind the bedroom door.

Dottie sighed. She was still only twenty-seven and if things went on the way they were, she was destined to be barren. There would never be any babies.

She put Josephine's wedding dress on a hanger and, hanging it on the front of the wardrobe door, she spent a little time smoothing out the creases, until the overwhelming need for tears had passed.

It was cool in the shed. Reg pulled the orange box from under the small rickety table behind the door and sat down. He kicked the door closed and the soft velvety grey light enveloped him. This was his haven from the world and, apart from the occasional passing chicken that might have crept in to lay her egg under the bench, he knew the moment he shut the door he would be left alone. Dot would never come in here uninvited. This was the place where he kept his pictures. She didn't know about them of course, but when the mood came over him and she wasn't there, he'd come out here and have a decko. They were getting dog-eared and yellow with age but he wouldn't part with them for the world. Although he still burned for the love of his life, he might have forgotten what she looked like if he didn't have the pictures.

They weren't the only pictures he had. He'd still got the ones he'd bought off some bloke at the races. Now they really got him going. Those tarts would pose any way the punters wanted them. They got him all excited and when Dot was around, doing her washing or something, he'd watch her through the knothole on the shed wall and have a good J. Arthur Rank. It wasn't as exciting as the real thing, but he liked it when there was an element of danger. And with the way things were at the moment, he wasn't getting much of that either.

But looking at his pictures wasn't the reason why he'd come
out into the shed today. He positioned the box near the small window and next to the place where the pinpricks of sunlight streaming through the wood knots in the boards would give him plenty of light to read the letter. Dot had propped it on the table but he hadn't opened it. He'd shoved it straight into his pocket while he ate his dinner. He wanted to be alone when he read it, somewhere he knew he wouldn't be disturbed.

First he took out his tobacco tin and his Rizla paper and box. As he lifted the lid, he took a deep breath. The sweet smell of Players Gold Cut filled the musty air. Putting a cigarette paper in the roll, he shredded a few strands of tobacco along its length. Then he snapped the lid shut and a thin cigarette lay on top of the box. Reg licked the edge of the paper and rolled the cigarette against the tin. He pinched out the few loose strands of tobacco from the end and slipped them back inside for another time. The years spent ‘abroad' had made more than one mark on his character. Reg was a careful person. He hated waste and he always knew exactly how much of anything he'd got. That's how he knew Dot had been eating his Glacier Mints. There had been twenty-four in there when she gave him the new bag. Now there were only twenty-three.

Putting the thin cigarette to his lips, he lit up and the loose strands at the end flared as he took his first drag. He laid his lighter and the Rizla box onto the bench and reached into his back pocket for the letter.

The envelope was flimsy. Airmail paper. The stamp was Australian. He stared at the handwriting and a wave of disappointment surged through his veins. It wasn't what he thought it was. Now that he looked carefully, the sloping hand was unfamiliar. He turned the envelope over for the first time and stared at the name on the back.

Brenda Nichols – who the devil was she? He ran his finger over the writing and sucked on his cigarette. A wisp of smoke stung his eye and he closed it. The address on the front said ‘The
Black Swan, Lewisham'. He dug around in the recesses of his mind but he couldn't place it.

Reaching over to the jam jar on the shelf under the tiny window, he took out his penknife. The smoke from his cigarette drifted towards his eye again and he leaned his head at an awkward angle and closed it as he slid the knife along the edge of the envelope and tore it open. There were two sheets of paper inside the wafer-thin, transparent blue airmail envelope. The larger was white. A letter.

Reg's hand trembled as he read slowly and carefully.

There was a codicil at the bottom of the page, written in the same hand.

This letter was dictated by Elizabeth Johns to Brenda Nichols, who nursed her until she passed away peacefully in her sleep on July 15th 1951. Signed Sister Brenda Nichols.

His first reaction was panic. A kid? He didn't want kids. That was what put him off Dot – her incessant bleating on about kids. How long he held the letter he had no idea. It was only when he realised that his cigarette was far too close to his lip that Reg stirred. He took it out, threw the dog end to the floor and ground it into the earth.

He threw the letter contemptuously onto the workbench and reached for the tobacco tin again. There was no way he was going to take in some bloody Australian bastard. He rolled another fag and stuck it between his lips while he fumbled in his pocket for the lighter. Taking a deep drag, he picked up the letter and read it with fresh eyes.

If he refused to take the kid, someone might go digging around in his past. Elizabeth Johns was dead. She'd left everything to him. That was a bit of luck. He'd need extra money if he was going to bring up a kid. Nobody would bat an eyelid if he took it. Running his hand through his own thinning hair he grinned to himself and squeezed his crotch. Yeah, he was still safe. As far as everyone knew, he was the kid's only living relative and she was eight. She wouldn't have a clue. What harm would it do?

Pity it all went belly up back then. He didn't like to think about what happened when he'd got caught, and when he'd got out he was scarcely more than skin and bone. He could hardly remember those first few days of freedom. He'd been a dumb thing, beaten, exhausted, bewildered … It had been a close call, but it was worth the risk. Thank God for bloody Burma. Before the regiment was sent there, he'd never even heard of the place.

He'd written a letter to Dot telling her he was on a secret mission and given it to Oggie Wilson. Oggie owed him a favour. He'd heard after the war that Oggie had ended up on that bloody railway. When he got out, Reg tried to trace him but he couldn't. Then someone said that they'd been forced to leave men by the roadside because the guards refused to allow them to bury the dead.
He reckoned that's what happened to Oggie Wilson. A bit of luck as far as Reg was concerned. No one left to blab. He sighed. All the same, it didn't seem right leaving a man like Oggie out there in the open. He should have been buried, decent like. The thought of it made him shudder. If he hadn't been caught, maybe he'd have been sent out to that bloody jungle himself, and if he had, he'd be lying beside poor old Oggie Wilson.

Putting Elizabeth John's letter in his lap, Reg unfolded the yellow sheet of paper. It was another letter, written with a child's hand, complete with a couple of ink stains on the page.

Patricia … Reg leaned back on the orange box and closed his eyes. A letter from Patsy. He liked Patsy better. His stomach was churning, the way it always churned when he was nervous. An old ITMA joke slipped between the sheets of his memories. ‘Doctor, Doctor, it really hurts when I press here.' ‘Then don't press it.' He'd have to stop thinking about the past. It only made him angry. Put it out of your mind and get on with it. That's what the screw had told them. He'd bloody tried but he couldn't. It was the guilt mainly. He never told anyone, but sometimes he did feel bad about what happened. He felt a draught in the back of his neck and turned his head sharply, afraid that someone was standing behind him, but he was quite alone. He re-lit his cigarette and forced himself to relax.

Lifting the envelope, he put the letter back inside. Something weighted the corner. He tipped it upside down and a small photograph fell onto the workbench. Just one look at that mop
of blonde hair and it was obvious why she was called Sandy. She was standing outside a bungalow. It was a sunny day and there were some funny-looking flowers growing beside the door. She was wearing a nurse's uniform. Her hair was loose and cut short. He couldn't make out the detail of her face – the camera was too far away – but she was holding a bundle in her arms. Bloody hell. This must be Patsy.

He was aware of his heart thudding in his chest. His mouth had gone dry. How long he stared at the small photograph he never knew. What did the kid look like now? He squinted at the bundle. Tom Prior, weedy as he was, was the father of twins and stepfather to the three others from Mary's first husband. He always made jokes about Reg and the lead in his pencil. If everyone thought this was his kid, he'd have no trouble from now on.

In the beginning, he'd been quite pleased to get Dot. She wasn't a bit like the sort of woman he was used to but she was all right. He'd never gone in for all that soppy stuff, but until he'd met Dot, he'd never had a virgin either. It wasn't all it was cracked up to be. He'd tried to get her to do what he wanted, but she wasn't having any of it. Yet she was desperate for a kid, even wept about it sometimes. She was careful not to do it in front of him but he'd heard her in the scullery. He didn't even want her now. Since the old aunt died, she bored him.

The more he thought about being a father the more he liked it. The word sounded good. He was somebody's dad. He had a daughter. Patricia. A nice name, Patricia, but he still preferred Patsy.

I have left everything to you …
With a bit of luck Elizabeth Johns was well off when she died. For all her wealth, bloody Aunt Bessie hadn't left him a bean. Well, this could be the big one. The only problem was Dot. She might not take too kindly to having his kid around. He didn't want her to rock the boat so he'd have to play this one carefully. Plan it all out. And when
he'd won her round, he'd have a nice little nest egg. After that, the future would sort itself out.

He opened the drawer again and took out his favourite photograph. The woman smiled up at him, her back arched and tits thrust out. She was better than Diana bloody Dors any day. He squeezed his crotch again. Right now he needed someone like her. Just the thought of her made his pulse race. She'd give him what he wanted … and more … He ran his tongue along her naked body and then shoved the photograph back in the drawer.

Taking another drag on his cigarette, Reg pulled out a writing pad and cleared a space on the worktop. For once he didn't have to word his letter carefully in case other people read it first. All the same, he didn't want anyone to start asking awkward questions. Licking the end of the pencil, Reg began to write.