Finding Divine (6 page)

CHAPTER SIX

Simon stared at Jessica, not sure if he’d heard her correctly. Had she really just invited him to do everything he’d fantasized about since the moment he’d laid eyes on her? Though he’d thought of nothing else since she’d accepted his invitation to join him at the beach house, he couldn’t help but think things had gotten a little out of hand. He didn’t want her to say he’d taken advantage of her when they were finished.

“Jessica, you have no idea how much I want you right now. You really turn me on, lady.  God, I can’t stop looking at you.” He caressed the side of her face with the back of his hand.

Skittish laugher tore from her lips. “Is that a good or bad thing?”

“Definitely a good thing. You’re gorgeous.”

“And so are you. Please kiss me,” she whispered, pulling his body against her. Simon wished he had the willpower to resist but when she turned those bedroom eyes on him, he was her willing slave. His cock was harder than he could ever remember it being and he wanted her badly. Slowly, he touched her lips with his, taking his time to revel in the taste of her and giving her the opportunity to pull back.

She was delicious, sweet, and tangy. When her tongue peeked out to meet his in a shy, tentative move, he believed he’d erupt. The feel of her nails sliding up and down his back stung just enough to make it a pleasurable sensation. He rubbed his erection against the junction of her thighs, the friction doing heady things to his nervous system.

Jessica moved her hand between their bodies to undo his pants, their lips never separating. Simon lifted his lower body just enough for her to slide his jeans down his hips. His cock ached so good, and the only thing that would give him relief was her pussy. He could tell she was ready for him. He could smell it. And his mouth watered in anticipation of tasting her dewy core.

“Are you on the pill?’” he muttered against full lips.

She stiffened, turning her head away. “I…uh…no.”

“I have condoms, wait right here.”

She nodded as he rolled off the bed. Simon couldn’t get to his bathroom quick enough to retrieve his prophylactics. He didn’t time himself but it didn’t take him more than a minute to get back to Jessica.

When Simon stepped into the room, he halted. Her panties were now off, legs slightly parted with one bent, and nipples extended to the ceiling. He’d never seen such a glorious sight as Jessica laying there, so gorgeously nude and ready for him. She looked like a goddess lying in wait for her lover. He had to have her or go insane.

              Clumsily, he fumbled with the condom, sliding it on his hard length, his gaze never leaving her body.  Her eyes widened as she looked at him, a pert pink tongue snaking out to lick her lips. Without conceit, he knew that she was fascinated by what she saw and it turned him on to have her watch him like this. “Do you like looking at me, Jessica? Do you like seeing what you do to me? How hard you make my cock?”

His forwardness seemed to embarrass her, and she lowered her lashes. Simon walked to the bed and sat beside Jessica. He took her hand and placed it against his latex-sheathed dick. “Don’t be ashamed of enjoying what you see, because I very much like looking at you, too.”

She captured her bottom lip between her teeth, a movement that temporarily distracted him.  He groaned when shy fingers encircled his erection. “It’s so big, Simon. The one time...” her voice trailed off.

He lifted a brow in confusion. Was she trying to tell him that this was only the second time she’d had sex? She couldn’t be serious, not that he wasn’t pleased. The idea of her with other men wasn’t something he particularly wanted to think about, but surely she had more experience at twenty-nine years old. “Will I only be your second lover?”

              She tightened her fingers ever so slightly around his cock before relaxing them. The brief motion made him moan at the exquisiteness of it. “Technically.”

             
“What do you mean by technically?”

“Well, technically, you’ll be the first.”

This knocked him for a loop. He’d never taken anyone’s virginity before, it never being something he wanted to be burdened with, but Jessica was different. The attraction they shared was too incendiary to ignore. “How did you reach this age without having sex?”

             
She released her grip on his shaft with a sigh. “I’m not a virgin in the regular sense. That would mean I had no sexual contact or penetration, right?”

He nodded his head.

“Well, there was penetration.”

“I guess I’m not really following you.”

“It’s kind of embarrassing actually. I was seeing this guy off and on for a few months but, I don’t know, the spark just wasn’t there. It made me question whether something was wrong with me. In high school, there were plenty of guys I was attracted to, but I was always too shy to approach them, but after my brother…”

“You don’t have to explain yourself to me.”

“I think I do. You see, after losing my brother, I didn’t really have much interest in anything and that included men. When this guy took interest in me, I decided to give him a shot. I couldn’t bring myself to be enthusiastic about the relationship.”

“So why did you have sex with him?”

She shrugged. “I don’t know. I guess I wanted to prove to myself that I had normal urges and desires like any other woman.”

“He didn’t do it for you?” Even though the conversation was veering down an unexpected path, Simon was still rock hard and found it more difficult to concentrate with her body so delectably nude.

She paused before answering to apparently gather her thoughts. “I guess he didn’t. He didn’t pressure me or anything like that, but when he asked, I believed it to be the natural progression of our relationship.”

Simon had to push away the jealousy that suddenly reared its head. He didn’t want her to feel she couldn’t share her life with him, so he forced himself to ask, “What happened?”

“We went out on a date, and then we went to his place for a couple of drinks. One thing led to another and the next thing I know, I’m in his bed. I’m not really sure what was going through my mind that night except wanting to know what the big deal about sex was. There’s really not a lot to say about the experience. He basically told me all the things he planned on doing to me and bragged about his prowess. I was nervous and unsure of myself. I thought I should be honest with him and tell him of my inexperience. He seemed very understanding and said he’d make the first time memorable for me.”

Simon frowned.  “Judging from your tone it wasn’t the right kind of memorable.”

Her shoulder shook with a shiver.

“Are you cold?”

She offered a shy smile. “A little.”

Simon gathered her in his arms and rubbed her back. “Better?”

“Yes, thank you.”

Jessica fit into his arm perfectly, like she belonged there. He could get used to this. Unable to help himself he dropped a kiss on the top of her head. She snuggled closer to him and his cock throbbed. He steered them back to the conversation before he threw her on the bed and fucked her senseless. “So why was your first time so horrible?”

“I wouldn’t use the word horrible. It just didn’t live up to the hype of what everyone raves about. I suppose I’m partially responsible for the night going south.”

“How so?”

“When we were both undressed there wasn’t much foreplay beyond a few kisses, and then when he entered me, I barely felt it. I can be socially awkward and sometimes I blurt out the wrong things. He was a nice guy and I probably hurt his pride by asking him that question. After saying that it seemed like he lost interest. I felt bad. Things weren’t the same after that night. He stopped calling, and I was secretly relieved.”

Most women would have found humor in the situation, pointing out the man’s shortcomings, but Jessica relayed the story with a rare compassion that touched his heart. More than anything he wanted to make their coming together as special for her as he knew it would be for him.

Taking her trembling hand in his, he brought it to his lips. “Jessica, you’re practically a virgin.”

“I guess so. Does it matter?”

He planted kisses along her fingers and palm. “Yes, I think it does. Your first time should be special, with a nice fire burning, candlelight and mood music. It shouldn’t be some ‘wham, bam, thank you, ma’am’ session. I lost control and things shouldn’t have gotten this far. I made a promise to you and for that, I’m sorry.”

“You don’t want this?” She bit down on her bottom lip as uncertainty entered her soulful eyes.

He tightened his hold on her to reassure her. “More than you know. But I want your next foray into sex to be the good kind of memorable.”

“But I don’t want all the trappings, I just want you.”

“You’re not thinking clearly, Jessica. Give it some time before you make such a big decision.”

“Simon, I know exactly what I want. I think for the
first time in a long while, I’m thinking clearly. I want this very much. I didn’t know what would happen when I initially came here and certainly didn’t expect to get naked with you so quickly. But now that we’ve kissed—touched, I can’t think of anything I’d rather do more. Please make love to me, Simon.”

When put like that, how could he resist her; however, he had to be sure she knew exactly what they were about to do. “Are you sure this is what you want? Because once I start touching this sexy body again, I’m not going to stop, so tell me now.”

She moved her hand between their bodies to gently grasp his cock, her gaze locked with his. “I want this, Simon.”

He couldn’t think of a single reason why they shouldn’t do this to save his life. With a groan, he pressed her down onto the mattress, his mouth crushing hers. Simon had to remind himself to go slow while he initiated her in the art of lovemaking. Jessica’s tight nipples pressed against his chest, rubbing against his skin. The heady sensation drove him wild.

She squeezed his cock lightly. If she continued to touch him like that he’d lose the little bit of control he held on to. Simon clutched her hands in his and placed them to her side. “No, don’t do that.”

She licked her lips hesitantly. “Why? I like touching it.”

“Because if you keep on doing that, we’re going to be finished before it even gets started,” he whispered before pressing a kiss at the pulse of her neck. He placed his lips along her jaw line, throat, chest, the valley between her breasts and finally her stomach. Simon moved down her body, pushing her legs apart until he was eye level with her pussy. The aroma was intoxicating.

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Has anyone ever kissed you here?” he asked placing a gentle kiss against the tight curls nestled lovingly between her silky thighs. Simon already knew the answer, but his ego drove him to ask the question anyway.

Jessica shivered and shook her head. “N-no.”

“Good. You won’t be able to say that after today. Open your legs a little wider for me, baby.”

“Oh, Simon, you don’t have to--”

“There’s nothing I want more than tasting this sweet pussy.” Simon rubbed his finger against the nubbin peeking from her nether lips. She released a throaty moan. Her chest heaved and she seemed to have trouble catching her breath.

Inhaling her unique scent, he pressed his nose against her damp slit, nuzzling her. “Goddamn, you smell good. I bet you’ll taste even better.” Parting her labia, Simon latched onto her swollen clit, sucking the hot little button into his mouth.

“Oh, Simon,” Jessica, sighed, squirming beneath the ministrations of his mouth. Jessica clamped her legs around his ears, and long slender fingers dug into his hair. Jessica’s eager response fueled the flames of his desire. It filled him with masculine pride to know she enjoyed his touch so much. It made him want to work harder to please her—to make this occasion unforgettable.

He eased his middle finger inside her moist channel. She was so fucking tight; he couldn’t wait to be inside her. But he reminded himself to go slow. Simon’s temperature rose as he thought about how snug she’d feel around his cock, practically sucking him in.

“Simon, I don’t think I can take this,” she groaned even though her thighs still tightly gripped him.

Releasing her clit, he chuckled, sliding another finger in her damp heat.  “Just take it easy, baby, and I’ll take care of you.” Simon licked and laved her cunt, leaving no part unexplored as he fucked her with his finger with slow gentle strokes. Finally, he raised his head to assess her reaction. She looked so beautiful, her eyes wide with wonder and delight and lust.

“How do you like this, Jessica?”

“A lot.” She raised her hips, sending his questing finger deeper into her pussy. “I didn’t know…” She let out another moan as her voice trailed off.

“That it could be like this?”

She nodded. “Yes. I always thought something was wrong with me because I’ve never responded to anyone like this before.”