When I walk into the lounge I wanted to rip my own eyes out. I can’t take in what is happening in front of me, another man’s filthy rotten lips are attached to Peppa’s. A rage I haven’t felt for years starts to take control of my body. My face is contorted in fury from the heat that's spread across it. I know it had turned purple as I'm growing more enraged.
My fangs drop and my thoughts turn to ripping out his throat. I want to taste his blood and drink him dry as I hear his heart slow down and stare into his eyes as they dull over when his life is taken from him. I have to clench my fists together to stop myself from storming over there and taking a life. It’s been a long time since I have done that.
Through gritted teeth I let the bastard know he better get off Peppa or die. Peppa pushes him away and I see she knows she has made a mistake as she is horrified at her actions. Detective Payne gives me some shit about it being his fault but he is soon on his merry way. Peppa clearly thought I was going to hurt him and I wanted too. I really fucking wanted too, but I tell him to never darken this doorway again. Then it is just me and her. I look her over for any sign of arousal and there is none, not for the Detective anyway. She looks beautiful all in black, her tits just poke out over the top, and my dick hardens at the sight standing in front of me. Anger hits me again when I realize she has let another man see her dressed like this and I storm over to her angry as hell, never taking my eyes away from hers.
I'm not the only one who is angry. Peppa stands her ground and makes me realize a couple of facts. I have neglected her sexual needs because of my own selfishness, my own deep-seated guilt stopped me from showing this woman that I desired her. And another man nearly takes my place.
With anger still pulsating through every fiber in my body, I scooped the woman I love more than anything over my shoulder and asked her the question. I receive the answer we both want and I'm going to fucking show her exactly who her heart belongs to. I still let the anger take control of my emotions. I stand there trying to calm down but all I see is another man touching what’s mine. So I take her, I rip the clothes from her body and I make it about me. Yes, I'm being selfish, but I have to claim her again, make the stench of the Detective disappear for good, to make her mine again. A part of me understands I can hurt her, but I didn’t stop, I pounded into her hard and fast. She moans underneath me, taking all the pain and frustration I feel with each thrust. Emotions take over us both as we declare our love and I showed her more than I should have.
I lose control then, my whole being needing to make us complete and I let my vampire side out, as the guilt, anger, pain all rolled into one and there is no stopping me from what I did next. I bite her and drink from her. Her blood slides down my throat with ease and I'm in ecstasy, she is my drug and now our union is complete. Her orgasm rides her hard and she explodes around me. I thrust into her harder and find my own release.
I think Peppa had passed out so I leave her for a bit, but she has the biggest grin on her face. Then I panic, I don’t know why I thought I had hurt her and guilt at my actions yet again makes its presence. I shake her and ask her, but she seems overwhelmed with joy at having the best orgasm ever. I bit her for fuck sake. I let her know that and tried to apologize. I end up explaining that we are now fully Entwined and everything that involved.
It is then that I think there is no point in waiting for her to see Noah again. If tonight is all I have, then I can live with that, I have her soul and there is no point in torturing all of us anymore. I want her heart too and that’s what scares me the most, because I didn’t think I deserved it.
I tell her to get dressed that I want her to meet someone. I have to leave the room as her worst thoughts float to me. I make it clear there is no one else, but she still thinks it. She also thinks I’m walking away, well that depends on how she reacts when she sees Noah, but I can’t tell her that. Both of us suffer in that moment as torment stabs at us both, our own insecurities flood our very souls. I can feel how scared she is as I end up helping her dress. Tears spill from my eyes as I don’t hold back showing her how much this is affecting me, this is the moment of truth and I can’t hang around any longer. I hold Peppa close to me, feeling her heart beat and I know in a matter of minutes it’s going to be ripped out.
I use my vampire speed to get us to Jade’s and standing in front of Jade’s front door Peppa says the words that pierce my very soul. I let her know that’s up to her and I ask for her forgiveness. My brother being who he is asks if I’m doing the right thing, he can see the sadness radiating off me. He didn’t want me to suffer but it’s too late for that.
Peppa walks into the house. I spot Noah straight away. He stands in disbelief his mouth gaping open, his eyes widening at the sight of her. I feel his emotions of confusion at seeing her again and then the love he feels spills out of his very being. He says her name and she turns in his direction. I’m hit with every emotion you can think of as they both take each other in. An ache so deep starts to build inside of me, making its way through my body and as the words “You lied to me,” leave Peppa’s lips, agony and pain claw away at me and it feels like I’m being ripped in two. As I watch Noah take her into his arm as she collapses, I do the same, my body hits the floor and I pound my clenched fists against my head and I scream out my sorrow.
Chapter 14 (NOAH)
To my darling Peppa,
I find solace in writing to you, pouring my every thought and feeling down onto this piece of paper. I want to say it all to your beautiful face, to hold you in my arms and show you how much I love you. Until that day comes, I will carry on doing it the old fashioned way. Let me start with something that I hope will make you laugh before I turn all serious on you. I told you about Dolly and the fun Juan and I had when he tried to get me to feed from her, not one of my best moments. And be warned, he loves that pig. He’s overly affectionate with her, I wouldn’t be surprised if he wanted to bring her home. Anyway, who am I to stand between a man and a pig when I now have my own feeding source? Yes, Juan allowed me out again, but ended up taking me to the country side away from people and prying eyes and introduced me to a cow. If he can name his pet Dolly, then it is only fair I choose a name for mine. Now, I know what you are thinking, it would be so easy to call her Daisy, but I wanted something different and one day soon I will take you to meet Flora.
Cows are a little harder to feed from. They are frisky bloody buggers, and won’t stand still for long if they are scared. But if you want fresh milk it tastes different from the live source you get in the supermarkets. Juan talked soothingly to Flora while I sunk my teeth into her carotid artery. Let’s just say it ended up like a scene from a Carry On film. I once again gagged on the animal blood, spat it out into Juan’s face. He tried to wipe it out of his eyes and stumbled forward and slid in a cow pat. He reached out to grab a hold of me and pulled me down with him and I landed head first into lovely warm cow shit. I even had a taste of that too. We both burst out laughing after getting over the initial shock, but Juan made me try again and I kept the blood down that time.
So, I’m afraid my love, you are going to have to put up with two other women being in our lives, but you will always come first and besides I really need you, as I don’t fancy having sex with a cow. I’m sorry to do this, but I’m going to have a little heart to heart with you now. HA! Mine doesn’t work, but you know what I mean.
The urge to fight the blood lust grows stronger each day. It helps knowing that I get to see you at the end of all this. Yes, the hunger pains are the worst, but they are nothing compared to what I feel everyday I’m away from you. You give me reason to fight Peppa, you and Juan both. I often play over in my head the night we were all together. The way you felt under my touch, the way you tasted on my lips. I want that again, I want to be with you so badly it hurts sometimes.
I know I have said the same thing over and over again in the letters I have written, but I need you to know you’re the reason I chose not to die that day. Love is something that has never come easy to me, as you know I would shag any woman that showed an interest. Then that Friday night changed everything, well Juan did really with being a vampire and the whole Entwined business. What I’m trying to say is, that you showed me how to love, you both have. I never thought I could love one woman, but to love two people at once, one even being a man, is unbelievable but it feels right. We just work as a threesome.
Fuck, I miss you. Sometimes my dreams are so vivid, I can smell your essence, I can feel your delectable body squirm underneath me when I make you cum time and time again. I hear you whisper my name when you start to fade when I begin to awake from my slumber. And the funny thing is, my hand always goes to my heart as it aches for you even though it no longer beats. As I still feel yours beating through our connection.
Juan can’t hide anything from me anymore, as being fully Entwined means I feel everything he does. And with that I will tell you this, that man is so petrified of losing you. His pain is so unbearable at times that when he leaves me, I break down and cry. I also fear that you won’t accept me anymore as I have changed. We are all going through this suffering of loss, sorrow and guilt and I’m being honest here Peppa, I don’t think Juan can take much more. You have to believe me when I say he did this to protect you and me.
Can you imagine if you knew this secret? Could you really keep it to yourself? Please think about that, because that’s what it comes down to. Could you be around Lara and not want to tell her I’m alive? Could you sit there and lie to the police that you had no idea where I was? NO Peppa, you couldn’t, because that’s not who you are. Juan hates himself for lying to you, he loathes that you have suffered for all these weeks not knowing if I’m alive or dead. And at times I wish I had died in the accident, because then this wouldn’t be happening, you would have mourned me and moved on with your lives.
Please, don’t take it out on Juan. He’s close to breaking. What he’s done has all been for us, so we can remain together just the three of us. So we can have the happy ending we deserve. Right now I’m frantic to hold on to what we have, because we can have it again. I just hope you can forgive us both for the lies. I will write more tomorrow. Goodnight, sweetheart.
Sorry my love, I had to stop writing last night as my soul was hurting for us all. I literally cried myself to sleep because I couldn’t hold you and take the discomfort away for you.
Juan has just left and all I feel is wrath, but please don’t worry about Hans, he is a nice guy, well wolf. I didn’t see that one coming. Juan has also promised me he has put him in his place and he also has no concern about Hans. My wrath is aimed at Jacob and my father.
The thought of Jacob anywhere near you is enough for me to want to kill him, but I also want my revenge for what he did to me. I’m sitting here shaking, forcing myself to stay in this spot. I want to leave this room and house so I can rip the bastard apart. It does make me feel better to know Juan asked Hans to watch him around you. Let God be my witness, if he lays one hand on you, I will tear it off and shove it up his ass. I will lavish on his blood and enjoy watching his life drain away. Sorry, I really shouldn’t tell you that, but Jacob made his choices, he infected us both with his evilness. I hate him; he better stay out of my way if he wants to carry on breathing.
When I think about my father I’m conflicted: I have told you in the last letter that I don’t understand why he is doing this to you. It wounds me to think he is treating you this way and yes, I feel resentment towards him, but I promise you I will make it better. He will not get away with this no matter how much I love my father, he will be told he’s in the wrong. I'm going to say goodnight sweetheart and will pick this up tomorrow and finish it.
If you could see my smile right now, I know this letter hasn’t been the best, but Peppa, oh my gorgeous beautiful Peppa, Juan told me tonight I will be seeing you tomorrow. I’m so fucking chuffed right now, Juan left a while ago and the smile I have hasn’t left my face. I’m going to be able to hold you again, to kiss your lips, to whisper sweet nothings into your ear. Oh, to touch you, to taste you and yes, oh fuck yes, to feel your pussy around my dick. Peppa I can’t wait, bloody hell woman, I have missed you. I’m never letting you out of my sight again. This is it, our happiness is within reach. I can feel it, damn, I can taste it. I love you sweetheart, I always will. See you soon, all my love, my soul, my very being, it’s all yours.
Noah xxx
My smile widens when I place the letter I have just written with the others. I hope one day Peppa will get to read them. I really think they will help her understand everything. I start to make my way to the bathroom, when out of nowhere the connection flares up and the hairs on my body stand up. Heat racks my body, but it feels different, this is more than just Juan. My body turns to the door, I’m being pulled in that direction by a magnetic force so strong that it can only mean one thing. I open the door and there stands the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. I quickly make eye contact with Juan, but he can’t look at me. I start to feel his pain and anguish. He’s scared, I’m bloody scared, but that didn’t stop me from saying her name. She looks at me as if I’m not real, I watch her face contort with confusion and then the hurt as she struggles to hold onto her sanity when she realizes the lies that have been told. Her words burn Juan as I watch him fall to his knees. I rush to Peppa when she crumbles and bring her into my arms and hold on tight. The torture of the last few weeks that we have all suffered flows through us all. The intense misery and feeling of remorse, the fear of rejection, is screamed out into the air by Juan. Peppa and I feel it all too, and we both join him in shouting out our own agony.