Hammer (19 page)

I thrust my tongue in his mouth and revel in his taste. We are breathing each other’s air, pressed so tightly together we are molding into one being, and God do I want to fall into this man and not come out.

His hands slide down to my hips, pulling me with him as he takes slow, careful steps back into the living room. Before I know it, he stops, and I pull my lips from his to take a much-needed breathe and see where he has led us.

To the couch.

The backs of his knees are touching the leather, but he doesn’t move to sit down. Not yet, at least. He reaches up under the hem of my T-shirt and grabs the material, slowly pulling it up and off. Then he drops it on the floor and moves his gaze back down to stare at what he has bared.

My breathing is a bit frenzied, pushing my breasts against the cups of my black silk demi bra, my nipples almost popping out altogether. Ethan raises one of his fists and gently runs his knuckles over the swell, leaving goose bumps in his wake. Then both hands glide across my ribs just underneath my breasts, and he trails his fingers down my abdomen to the button of my jeans.

Suddenly, he jerks his head up, and his eyes clash with my own. There is a question in them:
do I stop?

Hell no, I don’t want him to stop.

My teeth nibble my bottom lip as I take one of my hands and undo the button of my jeans for him, giving him my unspoken answer that I’m ready for what it is he wants to give me.

God, I am so fucking ready.

The side of his lips tilt up as he unzips my jeans before sliding his hands down into them and down my hips, dragging the rough denim material until I can feel his fingers gliding down my legs.

He tickles the backs of my knees, and I can’t help giggling. His half-grin spreads into a full smile, and the sight warms something a whole lot higher in my chest that I probably shouldn’t allow to get involved in this.

Oh, well.

Ethan slides the jeans off my legs, lifting one foot at a time until I’m standing in nothing except the black thong that matches my bra. Still crouched in front of me, he isn’t looking at my panties, but at my face. There is something there I can’t read, or maybe I just don’t want to acknowledge it. It’s more than a desire. Possession?

It’s not safe for any man to want me.

My doubts creep back in.

When I try to take a step back, his hands stop me by grabbing the backs of my knees.

“Maybe we shouldn’t do this, Ethan. I’m not exactly little, and I don’t wanna hurt you.” Even to my own ears, I can hear the words as a feeble excuse to get away.

“Babe, there’s not enough of you to hurt me. But so you’ll feel better, I’ll make a deal. I’ll let you ride me a little while so I don’t overdo it, but then I’m gonna flip you over and ride you.”

Good gravy. I’m pretty sure, after that statement, he will be able to see the wet spot on my panties. As badly as I want him, though, I still have to make sure he wants this as much as I do.

“You know this will complicate things between us, right?”

He smooths his hands up the backs of my legs until he is gripping my ass. Leaning forward, he kisses the spot above my belly button before resting his chin on my tummy, looking up at me through the valley of my breasts.

“Life is complicated, sugar. It’s supposed to be. If it were easy, then the good moments—like this one between us—wouldn’t taste so damn sweet. So stop worrying about what is or isn’t gonna happen and let me make you feel good. You need it as much as I want it. I won’t lie, though; I’m hoping you want it as much as you need it.”

Hell yeah, I do
.

When a huge smile spreads across his face, I realize I said those words out loud. I blush, but he ignores my embarrassment and takes the statement as his green light to pull my panties down my legs. After he pulls them off, he runs his hands back up my body until he is holding my bare hips. Then he relaxes back on the couch, spreading his legs apart and pulling me between them.

Ethan then slowly leans forward and skims his lips from one hip bone to the other, placing little kisses along the way, stopping only to lick around my belly button. Then he turns his head slightly to the side and starts nibbling on my flesh as he works his way down to the crease of the top of my thigh, moving closer and closer to the bare flesh of my center.

I’m not sure how much longer I can take this exquisite torture before I push him back and take what I want. It’s like he knows he has me on a desperate edge, because he stops just short of touching my oversensitive flesh and blows a puff of air on my clit, making me moan, needy for more.

Glancing up, he orders in a husky voice, “Take off your bra and play with those pretty nipples. I wanna watch my woman give me a show while I lick her pussy.”

I’m not as confident in the bedroom as I am in my professional life. Still, I do what he tells me to, albeit shyly. Maybe hearing him call me his woman is what gives me the courage to play with myself while he watches. Running my fingers over my tightly beaded points, I watch as he leans forward, never taking his eyes from mine as he licks me. I can’t help the moan that escapes me as I throw my head back. The sensation of his tongue moving over my tender flesh feels so good.

“Look back down here. I wanna see your eyes while I eat you.”

I follow his directive, tipping my chin back down to face him, and he goes back to licking me. It takes everything in me not to close my eyes and just enjoy his tongue. I quickly realize it’s hotter to watch him taste me, his tongue pushing between my lips while I pinch my own nipples. Then he moves his tongue in a wicked dance over my clit while sliding one and then two fingers inside of me. It doesn’t take long for the rising tsunami of release to crash over me, submerging me in so much sensation I feel like every nerve in my body has come alive.

After giving me one last lick, Ethan leans back, pulls his wallet from his jeans, and sets it down on the couch next to him. Then he spreads his legs again, just a little wider, and tells me to kneel between them. Something inside me clicks, and I realize, even though I give the orders while I’m working, I like that he is giving the orders right now. He knows exactly what he wants, and he is not afraid to tell me to do it.

Kneeling between his legs, I smooth my hands over the denim on his thighs until I reach the button of his jeans.

He tangles both of his hands in my hair and pulls me forward until our lips are brushing then murmurs, “I want you to taste yourself on my lips. Then you’re gonna taste me, sugar. Get me nice and hard so you can climb on my lap and ride me like you’re gonna die if you don’t. When I’m ready, I’ll roll you over and show you how I need your pussy as much as I need my next breath. Got it?”

I can’t speak, so I nod, instead.

“Good,” he answers gruffly. “Get to it, sugar.”

That’s exactly what I do. I carefully pull the zipper over his bulging erection, rip his pants open, and then use both my hands to grab the waistband of both his jeans and his boxers and pull them down until they are stuck on his boots. I don’t mean to, but the sight makes me laugh.

“You shouldn’t laugh at a man when he’s showing you his dick.”

Looking back up, my laughter stops as soon as I see said dick. That baby is no laughing matter. It is big, throbbing, and beautiful, something I have never thought about a man’s penis before. His is thick, long, and going to stretch me in the most wonderful of ways.

I would rip his boots and pants off, but I don’t want to accidentally hurt him by doing so. Quickly but gingerly, I slips off his boots and the rest of his clothes until he is naked from the waist down.

Leaning down, I kiss up the inside of his thigh until I’m right next to what I want most. Then I skip over it, torturing both of us. I want to make this moment last as long as I can.

I kiss back down the inside of his other thigh before giving him a playful bite on his knee.

“Watch it, woman. You bite me, and I’ll bite you back.”

I smile at the warning as I slowly peel his cut off then tear his shirt over his head. He laughs at my enthusiasm, but he quiets back down when I slide my lips over the head of his cock and all the way down to the base. Then he groans.

He fills my mouth until my lips sting at the corners from being stretched so wide. I let my tongue dance over his skin, tasting him, licking him up and down, moving my mouth over him in tandem with my hand. I do exactly what he told me to. I’m making sure he is ready for me to ride him. I need to feel him moving inside of me, filling up my empty places.

His hand tangles in my hair, stopping me from taking him back down to his root again, and pulls me off.

“I don’t want this to be over before it’s really gotten started, sugar.” He pulls a condom out of his wallet, tears the package open, and rolls the latex down his cock. Then beckons me to climb on top of him with a wiggle of his finger.

Holding his cock steady, I straddle his hips and rub myself against the head, a little tease for us both. Ethan gives me a sharp slap on the ass, and I know he wants me to stop playing around.

Sliding myself down his length, I’m filled to completion. So full. So right. Better than I have ever felt in my entire life. It’s a thought I don’t want to analyze, so I give in to the need to just feel and keep moving. Up, down, up, and down again, I ride him, impaling myself on his flesh and unknowingly letting him into far more than my body.

He doesn’t take his eyes off mine. His face is intent, as if there is nothing else in the world except the two of us.

A man shouldn’t be beautiful, but to me, he is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen—hungry like a predator, his hands holding on to me as if he never wants to let me go. Part of me doesn’t want him to. Part of me wants to stay in this moment, filled to overflowing with him without the threat of emptiness ever again.

As a second orgasm starts to build up—something that has never happened for me before—my movements become jerky and uncoordinated. Ethan doesn’t let that last long.

Pushing me onto my back, he rolls on top of me, reentering me with a heavy thrust and a punishing rhythm I’m going to feel for days, which is probably exactly what he wants. I sure as hell am not going to complain.

He surrounds me. All I see is Ethan. All I can smell is his natural scent of musk, man, and our combined lust. His groans become a primal music to my ears, and all I want to do is hear more.

As he leads me into my second climax, I explode in a release so strong there isn’t a doubt in my mind that I have never felt more alive. I can’t imagine anyone else making me feel this much.

His thrusts quicken, and I find myself arching up to press my hips into his, trying to give him all of me. He grabs my left hand and laces our fingers together, pinning it to the armrest above my head, squeezing my fingers every bit as much as my thighs are squeezing his waist. My brown eyes lock on his blue, losing myself in those depths as he loses himself inside me.

He slams into me several more times before he gives a long moan, his cock jerking inside of me as he comes then semi-collapses on top of me. He’s not smothering me, but he is caging me in, his forehead resting on mine as our frantic breaths mingle.

I should feel trapped from being pinned like this, yet I don’t. I feel safe, wanted, perhaps even some other complicated emotion I have never felt with a man before. Cherished?

“I’ve gotta say, our kind of complicated feels good as hell.”

I won’t admit it, but I agree. It feels better than anything else I have ever felt before.

Eventually, Ethan gets up to throw away the condom, ordering me not to move from the couch. Not bothering to get dressed, he comes back, rolls me to my side and slides behind. One of his arms pillows my head, and his other is slung over my waist as he slowly caresses my tummy. He slings his top leg over mine, pinning me from head to toe, then orders me to “Go to sleep”.

Little does he know, he really didn’t need to give that order. I’m already halfway there. I’m so sated by our lovemaking I don’t want to move a muscle.

Just as I’m about to slip into the comforting darkness of sleep, I hear him mutter the strangest thing.

“At least I’m not jealous of my fuckin’ couch anymore.”

Chapter

15

~Hammer~

Desirae is in the kitchen, making breakfast. Now that we have crossed into new territory, I can appreciate her ass walking around my home in those short-ass shorts.

Needing to be apprised of any new leads on her situation, I make the call to Screech who is at the Regulators’ office inside of Alibi.

“Anything new?” I question as soon as he answers.

Screech replies, “Ricca has gone ghost.”

“Up the ladder?” I ask, knowing he understands what I’m asking.

“Ricca was small time. We still can’t figure out which goons handled the hit for him on Suzie. Wellington is the top rung, but there are steps between the two. Hellions don’t have the reach, so they are relying on us but are willing to front manpower to secure our package.”

My stomach churns from the knowledge that the package he is referring to is the woman who warms my bed and soothes my soul.

Desirae comes over with a plate of food for me and smiles as she sits down to eat.

“Any broken windows?” I ask, trying to find a way into the Chicago organization. “Leaks?”

Screech comes back with the one reply I didn’t see coming. “Lucas Young has a tie to Wellington.”

Lucas Young is a former Green Beret team member I served with and a lone wolf. He got out of the Army shortly before I did and found his way onto a black ops team under Commander Jaxon Wall. The man fell off the radar until his team needed to go undercover with the Regulators. It was nice having him and his team around for a bit. Like everything else in our world, connections get lost until they are needed again.

I almost forgot how much I liked the fucker until I saw his face again. We didn’t gossip like ol’ biddies or anything, so I have no idea what the hell he’s been up to all these years beyond his new team, but there are some things you don’t need to say to know.