You Must Change Your Life (42 page)

Read You Must Change Your Life Online

Authors: Rachel Corbett

116
   
“I can ask” . . . “two old”:
LP, 184.

116
   
“There is nothing real”:
To Lou Andreas-Salomé, August 8 1903.

116
   
“drawn along”:
To Lou Andreas-Salomé, July 18, 1903.

116
   
“I was as if”:
RAS, 56.

117
   
“You have become”:
RAS, 59.

118
   
“small and”:
DF, 133.

118
   
“in the process”:
DF, 130.

118
   
“There is a lot”:
PMB, 305.

119
   
“man” . . . “good man”:
Rainer Maria Rilke and Lou Andreas-Salomé,
The Correspondence
. Translated by Edward Snow and Michael Winkler. New York and London: W. W. Norton, 2006, 62.

119
   
“Roman winter”:
Rainer Maria Rilke and Lou Andreas-Salomé,
The Correspondence
. Translated by Edward Snow and Michael Winkler. New York and London: W. W. Norton, 2006, 88.

119
   
“Jacobsen's city”:
RL, 194.

119
   
“It was difficult to reach” . . . “He had no”:
Stefan Zweig,
The World of Yesterday: An Autobiography
. Lincoln: University of Nebraska Press, 1964, 141.

119
   
“having a hard time”:
To Clara Westhoff, July 27, 1904.

120
   
“beautiful concern” . . . “sure and calm”:
LYP, 33–39.

120
   
“Do not write love-poems”:
LYP, 19.

120
   
“things that hardly anyone”:
LYP, 34.

120
   
“mental nausea”:
RAS, 261.

120
   
“nameless horror”:
To Ellen Key, April 3, 1903.

120
   
“words about words”:
To Lou Andreas-Salomé, May 13, 1904.

121
   
“firm, close-knit”:
To Lou Andreas-Salomé, May 12, 1904.

121
   
“There are starry”:
RAS, 117.

121
   
“enable me to”:
RAS, 119.

121
   
“To love is good” . . . “difficult.”
LYP, 53.

121
   
“Love is at first” . . .“as burden and”:
LYP, 54–58.

122
   
“teacher of” . . . “questions and”:
Rainer Maria Rilke and Lou Andreas-Salomé,
The Correspondence
. Translated by Edward Snow and Michael Winkler. New York and London: W. W. Norton, 2006, 137.

122
   
“protective” . . . “intensification”:
Quoted in Scott Appelrouth and Laura Desfor Edles,
Classical and Contemporary Sociological Theory: Text and Readings
. Thousand Oaks, CA: Pine Forge Press, 2008, 262–273.

122
   
“Every intensification”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Letters to a Young Poet
. Translated by Stephen Mitchell. New York: Random House, 2004, 101.

123
   
“By inventing a new”:
Quoted in Debora L. Silverman,
Art Nouveau in Fin-de-siècle France
. Berkeley and Los Angeles: University of California Press, 1992, 313.

123
   
“one should not draw”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 76.

124
   
“inner history” . . . “indispensable”:
To Clara Westhoff, June 16, 1905.

124
   
“cuddly” . . . “getting to see”:
PMB, 375.

124
   
“one tear after”:
Quoted in Diane Radycki,
Paula Modersohn-Becker: The First Modern Woman Artist
. New Haven, CT: Yale University Press, 2013, 130.

124
   
“What Paula” . . . “very much under”:
PMB, 377–378.

125
   
“My very dear”:
LP, 228.

125
   
“It is the need to see you”:
Auguste Rodin,
Correspondance de Rodin
,
II
, Editions du Musée Rodin, 1987, 167. [From the French:
C'est le besoin de vous revoir, mon Maître, et de vivre un moment la vie ardente de vos belles choses, qui m'agitent
.]

125
   
“so you can talk”:
To Clara Westhoff, September 7, 1905, in French.

125
   
“its garden”:
To Clara Westhoff, September 7, 1905.

125
   
“Follow my example”:
DF, 178.

126
   
“Without doubt”:
DYP, 166.

126
   
“blocks of sound”:
Quoted in Malcolm MacDonald,
Varèse: Astronomer in Sound
. London: Kahn & Averill, 2003, 15.

126
   
“revolting slaughter” . . . “doesn't know how”:
FG, 497.

127
   
“asininities as if”:
Louise Varèse,
Varèse: A Looking-Glass Diary
. New York: W. W. Norton, 1972, 34.

127
   
“didn't know a damn”:
FG, 493.

127
   
“We have actually three” . . . “sound projection”:
Edgard Varèse, “The Liberation of Sound.”
Audio Culture: Readings in Modern Music
. Edited by Christoph Cox and Daniel Warner. London: A&C Black, 2004. Originally published in 1936. 18.

127
   
“Much more world”:
To Clara Westhoff, September 15, 1905.

127
   
“It is wonderful how”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 78.

127
   
“like a big dog” . . . “recognizing me”:
To Clara Westhoff, September 15, 1905.

128
   
“make good the”:
FG, 502–503.

128
   
“My pupils” . . . “They are all”:
FG, 495.

129
   
“head spin”:
FG, 493.

129
   
“his deepest desire”:
LB, 78.

129
   
“I shall come” . . . “He wants me”:
To Countess Luise Schwerin, September 10, 1905.

129
   
“if you'll deign”:
FG, 493.

130
   
“has become a stanza”:
To Arthur Holitscher, December 13, 1905.

130
   
“joie de vivre”:
FG, 492.

CHAPTER NINE

131
   
“Rilke plunged” . . . “For the first”:
Victor Frisch and Joseph T. Shipley,
Auguste Rodin
. Frederick A. Stokes, 1939, 272.

131
   
“everything”:
FG, 492.

132
   
“how necessary”:
To Arthur Holitscher, December 13, 1905.

132
   
“He shows you everything”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 77.

132
   
“The smallest things”:
To Arthur Holitscher, December 13, 1905.

132
   
“blossoming in this”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 82.

132
   
“flinging themselves” . . . “unspeakable”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 81.

133
   
“good and faithful”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 77.

133
   
“white bird”:
Clara Westhoff, December 2, 1905.

134
   
“Acropolis of France”:
CF, 203.

134
   
“The chief thing”:
Auguste Rodin, “The Gothic in France.”
The North American Review
, volume 207, 1918, 116.

135
   
“suppleness”:
CF, 206.

135
   
“There's a storm” . . . “But you don't”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 81. [Rodin's quote translated from the original French].

136
   
“outrage inflicted”:
FG, 503.

136
   
“liberation”:
FG, 421.

136
   
“mass of untransformed”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 84.

136
   
“the most elevated”:
Ralph Freedman, “Das Stunden-Buch and Das Buch der Bilder: Harbingers of Rilke's Maturity.” In
A Companion to the Works of Rainer Maria Rilke
, Edited by Erika A. Metzger and Michael M. Metzger. Rochester, NY: Camden House, 2001, 90.

137
   
“But I need ‘only time' ”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 83.

137
   
“incapable of love”:
BT, 131.

138
   
“suggests a scatalogical” . . . “bestial countenance”:
FG, 504.

138
   
“I avenge myself”:
RSG, 427.

138
   
“need of my support”:
To Karl von der Heydt, Wednesday after Easter 1906.

139
   
“had left the prime” . . . “In the first fifteen”:
George Bernard Shaw, “G.B.S. On Rodin.”
The Nation
. London, December 1912.

140
   
“indescribable delight”:
RSG, 391.

141
   
“M. Shaw does not”:
RSG, 390.

141
   
“Bernarre Chuv”:
FG, 511.

141
   
“Rarely has a”:
RSG, 390.

141
   
“this truly creative”:
RP, 120.

142
   
“No photograph yet” . . . “except their suits”:
Alvin Langdon Coburn,
Alvin Langdon Coburn, Photographer
. Edited by Helmut and Alison Gernsheim. New York: Dover, 1978, 40.

142
   
“luminous”:
FG, 570.

142
   
“He saw me”:
George Bernard Shaw, “G.B.S. On Rodin.”
The Nation
, London, December 1912.

143
   
“Shaw, Bernard:”
Quoted in Sally Peters,
Bernard Shaw: The Ascent of the Superman
. New Haven, CT: Yale University Press. 1996, 235.

CHAPTER TEN

144
   
“mince-meat” . . . “They've opened up”:
LYR, 75–76.

145
   
“ounce of fat”:
FG, 522.

145
   
“He is mad, brutally”:
FG, 517.

145
   
“Of course I'm a sensual” . . . “not the sensuality”:
FG, 514.

145
   
“understand me better”:
Frederick Lawton,
The Life and Work of Auguste Rodin
. New York: C. Scribner's, 1907, 276.

146
   
“erotomania” . . . “The whole of Paris”:
Quoted in Auguste Rodin, Dominique Viéville,
Rodin: The Figures of Eros : Drawings and Watercolours, 1890
–
1917
. Paris: Musée Rodin, 2006, 64.

146
   
“Sultan of Meudon”:
Alexander Sturgis,
Rebels and Martyrs: The Image of the Artist in the Nineteenth Century
. New Haven, CT: Yale University Press, 2006, 166.

146
   
“Nothing is so amusing” . . . “She takes off”:
LYR, 75–76.

146
   
“some girl or other”:
Alma Mahler,
Gustav Mahler: Memories and Letters
. Translated by Basil Creighton. New York: Viking, 1946, 136.

147
   
“The details hardly” . . . “She wanted to live”:
Jean Cocteau,
Paris Album: 1900
–
1914
. London: W. H. Allen, 1956, 108–109.

148
   
“He ran his hands” . . . “How often”:
Isadora Duncan,
My Life
. New York: W. W. Norton, revised and updated, 2013, 74–75.

149
   
“little wife”:
RSG, 457.

149
   
“very poorly dressed”:
FG, 487.

150
   
“Yes, I am proud”:
RSG, 415.

150
   
“No use disturbing”:
Bernard Harper Friedman,
Gertrude Vanderbilt Whitney: A Biography
. New York: Doubleday, 1978, 288.

150
   
“The Influenza”:
James Wyman Barrett,
Joseph Pulitzer and his World
. New York: Vanguard, 1941, 288.

151
   
“astonishing intensity”:
Rainer Maria Rilke,
Selected Letters of Rainer Maria Rilke
. Translated by R. F. C. Hull. London: Macmillan, 1946, 86.

152
   
“Rodin's disposition had” . . . “brutally and”:
Judith Cladel,
Rodin
. Translated by James Whitall. New York: Harcourt, Brace, 1937, 203.

152
   
“like a thieving”:
To Auguste Rodin, May 12, 1906.

Other books

London Under by Peter Ackroyd
The Sweetheart Rules by Shirley Jump
La lectora de secretos by Brunonia Barry
Dead Man Living by Carol Lynne
Lian/Roch (Bayou Heat) by Alexandra Ivy, Laura Wright
The Tantric Shaman by Crow Gray
Conquering Theana by LeTeisha Newton, Lillian MacKenzie Rhine