Bella (28 page)

   
“
Mmm let me think.
”
She said smiling.
“
Well a little birdie told me you were here visiting your mother
because she had been transferred near here. I also knew that your belly would
bring you here. You see great minds think alike.
”

I cupped her face
with my hands and kissed the tip of her nose. Then I looked into her beautiful
blue eyes. That was the moment where we would usually tenderly kiss, but I
didn't kiss her because I felt somewhat awkward and nervous

 
“
I know you are nervous and so am I. It
’
s
because we both know we no longer have the worry about being blood related. If
I were to kiss you now it would be completely right and it makes me feel
strange.
”
Bella whispered. It was like she knew exactly what I was thinking.
I put my finger on her lips and silenced her because at this moment I knew it
felt right. I tenderly kissed her long and passionately and this time there was
no awkwardness. The only problem at the back of my mind was that Bella was
married. I realised I couldn't break up her marriage. Again Bella read my
thoughts.

   
“
It
’
s ok Simon I know what's worrying you and I feel the same. I have
been thinking about nothing else. It makes me feel physically sick that now I
can be with you, but that I`m married.
¨

   
“
We have waited this long so I am sure we can wait a while longer.
”
I told her.

  We walked along
the beach holding hands and talking. I looked at my watch.

  
“
I have to go soon Bella; I have to go to the hospital.
”

   
“
Yes I know I am coming with you.
”
she said.

   
“
How did you know about that anyway?
”
I
asked with a puzzled look on my face.

   
“
Ryan called me and told me everything and that you were here
”
She laughed.
“
Did you think I was psychic?
”

We headed off
towards the car. The sun had gone and dark clouds were looming.

  
“
I think it's going to rain
”
I shouted.

Bella was way behind
me so I stopped and waited for her. When she caught up with me I lifted her up
into my arms and ran to the car. The heavens opened and we could hear the
distant sound of thunder. We were soaked by the time we reached the car

  
“
I should have parked
nearer.
”

Bella was only
wearing a thin white shirt; I could see the shape of her breasts and her
nipples stiffening through it.

    
“
That's it.
”
I said,
“
I need to kiss you again and again.
”

I needed to feel her
touch on me. I kissed her hungrily and slid my hand down her shirt. I cupped her
breasts and starting teasing her nipples. They were hard as rocks and I felt
extremely horny. 

The thunder was
getting nearer, and the lightning lit up the dark sky. Even if I had wanted to
drive, I couldn't have done, the rain was too heavy. We just had to wait until
it calmed down. We both slid to the back seat. I stripped off my wet jumper and
unbuttoned Bella`s shirt. We started undressing each other desperate for our
naked bodies to meet.

I kissed her again
and again going down to her neck, then to her nipples. I could tell her body
ached with hunger for more. Bella slid her hands down my shorts, I swear my
body was about to explode at that instance. I caressed her and kissed my way
down to her
secret garden
. She was soaking wet and I wanted to drink
her.

She moaned with
excitement and put her hands through my hair.

  
“
If this isn`t right, I don't care. Bella's mouth slid over my penis
and I was in pure heaven. Feeling her mouth round my penis was just the best
feeling ever.

I wanted our
lovemaking to last forever; it was as wild as the waves that were crashing
against the rocks. After, we both lay there silent and happy.

Eventually all good
things come to an end. We both got back in the front of the car and I drove to
the hospital. The rain was still heavy and my wipers were going ten to the
dozen.

It took me a little
longer than expected due to the weather conditions. Caroline was already there.
She was talking to a nurse

   
“
Ah there they are.
”
She said

I introduced Bella
to Caroline and they both shook hands. Then we headed to my mother
’
s ward.

Mother was
sleeping,she looked so frail and old. I stroked her hair and took her hand.

   
“
My boy is here.
”
She whispered, stirring from her sleep   

     
“
I am here mother, don`t worry, I won't leave you.
”

Bella sat next to
me, and Caroline went and fetched us all a coffee. Mother sat up in bed. Bella
got the brush and brushed her hair.

  
“
I am Hungry Simon.
”
Mother said.

I went and fetched
her a sandwich whilst Bella and my mother chatted. When I got back they were
both laughing.
 
I was happy to see my mother laughing with the woman I love; my
beloved Bella.

The doctor in charge
came to see mother and updated me on her condition.

  
“
Ryan will be here shortly he is just waiting for some results, but all
I can say is, there is no reason why your mother can't be released as soon as
she is well enough physically. Mentally she is fine. She just needs to be with
the right people.
”

Ryan knocked then
entered the room.

  
“
Good news Simon. Mentally your mother is as sane as you or me.
Physically she can go home today.
”

“
What about her heart
problem?
“
It definitely wasn
’
t a heart attack. We ran many tests to be sure. It was a panic
attack brought on through stress. Sometimes the symptoms can be quite similar.
”

  
“
I am so relieved Ryan, but why has she been locked up for years like
a caged animal?
”

Ryan scratched his
chin and looked at me.                            

  
“
All I can say is forget what
’
s
happened and just focus on the future.
”

Caroline finally arrived
with the coffee.

   
“
I nearly sent out a search party
”
I
laughed.

  
“
It took me ages to find the damn machine.
”
She gasped. I asked Ryan if we could take mother home. I had noticed how weak
and frail she looked when I arrived.

   
“
Your mother just needs a lot of tender loving care and some good
home cooking.
”

 I looked at Bella.

   
“
That
’
s where you come in my girl I know you can cook.
”

It took us a while
to pack all my mother
’
s things and put them into the car.

  
“
The question is where do you want to live mum?
”

Caroline jumped in.

  
“
She can
’
t go back to the hotel! That wouldn
’
t
be a good idea at all!
”

Bella looked at me.

  
“
She can stay with me. I have time on my hands at least. I can cook
can't I Simon?
”

   
“
What you trying to say Bella?
”
She said giving me a wink. She laughed as she ran away from me teasingly
shouting.

   
“
Simon can
’
t even boil an egg.
”

 I chased after her.
Caroline and my mother were both laughing.

   We arrived at
Bella's house and Lizzie was there to greet me. I introduced her to our mother.
They hugged and there were tears all round. It was quite an emotional moment.

   It was getting
dark and the rain had finally stopped and the stars were out. What a great
evening I thought, being with all the people I loved.

   Over the next few
days mother grew stronger and stronger. Bella cooked some good homemade food
and mother started looking healthier.

We took her to get
her hair cut and her nails done. I let Bella deal with all the girlie
stuff,while I went to the gym. I hadn
’
t worked out in a
while and needed to get my body back in shape.

Bella, Lizzie and
mother had just finished when I arrived to pick them up. I barely recognised
her. Her hair was gleaming and beautifully styled.

  
“
Wow look at you!
”

I decided to take them
for lunch down by the lighthouse.   

 
“
They do the best lobster here and have a really good Chardonnay.
”
I said.

We all decided to
sit by the window. We could have sat outside but it wasn't that warm and mother
had forgotten her cardigan.

  
“
I have never tasted lobster like it
”
mother said licking her lips.

The next day Bella
went to meet Claudio and her children from the airport. Waves of jealousy hit
me.

I just don't know
how we are going to deal with this situation.

I think that
Bella and I will always be just a dirty secret. I love Bella and want to spend
the rest of my life with her. But it's just a dream.
I thought
.

Mother is getting to
know Lizzie more. I am so happy that we have our mother in our lives.

After Tammy dying
god rest her soul, we have all felt very lost. She was our step mother for many
years and we loved her dearly. I don
’
t blame our mother
Sarah and our father Ted anymore, they did what they thought was best.

My mother came into
the room. I was sitting alone by the window staring at the sea.

She sat down next to
me and squeezed my hand.

   
“
What's up son, you look like you have the world on your shoulders?
”

   
“
If only it was that easy mother. I just want to be with the woman I
love, it`s selfish I know. Claudio is a lovely man and that's what makes it
worse. I know I can
’
t break up their marriage, so I have to be strong.
”

Mother asked me to
take a walk with her. It was chilly outside so we put on our jackets.

 
We walked along
the sea front. Many places were closed up because the season had finished.

We decided to go to
the pub near the lighthouse, the open fire was welcoming, so we sat in chairs
close to it..We had a glass of wine, with chicken and chips in a basket.

  
“
I feel numb I can't cope with my feelings for a woman I can never
have.
”

"You know,
sometimes in life you have to do what is best, and if that best means putting
your own feelings aside then you must. You have gone all these years thinking
Bella was your sister and I think that's all she
’
ll
ever be."

  
“
But now it's different mother she isn't my sister. We are not blood
related and that was the only thing that was in our way.
”

Mother let out a
sigh!

   
“
Simon dear you have to think of Bella, Claudio and most of all, the
children. Can you imagine how they would feel? The only thing I can suggest is
we go back to my home town and you come with me. Then at least you are away
from the situation with Bella. Let her go Simon.
”