Guarded Heart (14 page)

When we pulled up to his parent’s house I turned to glare
at him, “What are we doing here Wesley?” He laughed when I used his full name
because I never do, “Well –Samantha- I think we need to tell my family about
our baby. Wade already knows and I think they should hear it from us and not
him.” He jumped out of the truck quickly before I could argue and grabbed
Kayla. I got out very slowly and began to walk in the direction of the house
without looking at him. Damn him…now I was just mad as hell he had tricked me
into this. MaKayla ran ahead of us and he slowly jogged up from behind. I
pushed away from him when he tried to put his hand on my lower back, “I am so
pissed off at you right now…don’t even talk to me.” I forced a smile and walked
up the stairs to the front door. I had sworn I heard him laugh but I refused to
turn around and face him.

Everyone was there in his family and they all acted as if
he and I had never split up. I was hugged and welcomed.  Wes just kept a
ridiculous smile on his face that only continued to fuel my irritated state. I
felt like throwing something at him. I was really going to tell him off later.
I had on a snug shirt and jeans that I bought with a little elastic belly in
them. I had on my coat and still hadn’t removed it, “Oh sweetheart take that
coat off and get comfortable.”  Wes’s mom was resting her hand on my arm. “Yeah
Sam take your coat off baby…get comfy, “I turned and glared at him still
keeping my coat buttoned securely. “Damn dude she’s got some lethal looks for
you today”, Wade had hollered at Wes from across the room. Wade was the only
one that knew about the pregnancy and he also knew about the very heated
conversation regarding everything between Wes and I that took place last night
at the party. Wes walked toward me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders I
couldn’t freak on him in front of his parents so I chose to play nice. “You see
mom…Sam still has her coat on because she feels like she needs to continue
hiding something…I mean I told her that having my baby isn’t really something
she should feel the need to hide but for some reason she doesn’t want to show
of her little baby bump.” Immediately when everyone realized what Wes had just
announced started to ewe and ah over me and his mom started crying from
happiness. His dad shook his hand and Rachel his sister hugged me and whispered
words of love in my ear telling me I was good for Wes and that he worshipped
me. I tried to appear un-annoyed at Wes’s approach…I still had an incredible
urge to throw something at him.

We spent hours at his parents and then decided to leave.
I was quiet on the way home I surely did not want MaKayla to witness me yelling
at her daddy. He sensed my irritable mood and chose to let me sit quietly for
the entire ride.

“Kayla daddy will be right back sweetheart, I’m going to
walk Sam to the door”, she yawned and nodded as he got out of the truck to walk
with me. “Hey I know your upset with me I didn’t realize it would piss you off
so much to go visit with my parents and the family.” He sounded confused and
maybe a little worried. “Wes…you should have given me time to prepare I wasn’t
upset about visiting everyone you just…we just started talking again. I mean
this is the first time I have been around you since I found out about being
pregnant with the exception of last night. I am just cranky and hormonal…I feel
like crying one minute and screaming the next. I feel like I am bipolar because
the things that would normally make me smile and laugh…they just piss me off
now. I just don’t know which was is up and I’m tired and hungry….just forget it
Wes. Just take Kayla home and I’ll talk to you tomorrow.” I unlocked my door
and started to enter the house to finally sit and cry because right now I was
really fighting it back. “Hey baby, I am not leaving you like this…I am not
going to leave you alone”, I was at my breaking point. “You know Wes I have
been alone in this for the last four months why the hell should I change
anything now”, after I said it I regretted it so badly. He looked at me like I
just ran his heart through the meat grinder…I was a bitch.

I lost it as I started crying hard and stumbled in
through the door almost falling over my bag as I drug it along side of me. He
caught me around the shoulders before I planted my face into the hardwood floor
of my entry way. He turned me to face him, “Samantha I am here okay, if I would
have known about the pregnancy I would have been here then too. I want to make
up for everything but you have to let go of your anger toward me…please”, his
voice sounded shaky and hurt. I hung my head, “I don’t want you to be here just
because I’m pregnant…I want you to be here because you can’t live without
ME…You need ME. I need you Wes but I CAN NOT go through the hurt and heartbreak
anymore. I can’t trust anyone with my heart because it always gets broke…every
time.”

“Not this time baby…never again!”

Wes and Kayla ended up spending the night with me. He
didn’t feel good about leaving and I was exhausted. I just barely made it to my
bed after my shower. He got Kayla settled and asleep when he finally crawled
into my bed with me. I was barely awake but I felt him pull me securely against
him from behind placing a kiss on my temple. He softly whispered that he loved
me that he refused to live another day apart from me and he was going to take
care of what was his from this day forward.

“HOVERING…He is smothering me I mean it…If I get up in
the middle of the night to pee he seriously his knocking on the door asking if
everything is okay…I think I am being suffocated”, Rachel was laughing so hard
as I vented about her overbearing overprotective brother. She met me for lunch
Saturday afternoon. It had been almost four weeks since Wes found out about the
baby and he was taking the “Taking care of me” very seriously. “I was feeling
movement last night and I held my hand to my stomach I guess to long and he
freaked out like I was in pain or we needed to go to the ER. It took me fifteen
minutes to convince him that everything was fine.” She couldn’t stop laughing.

“So Monday you have the sonogram right? I hope they can tell
what the sex is I am so ready to start buying things”, she was all excited. I
would be 21 weeks tomorrow and the doctor is doing the sonogram Monday morning
to determine the sex. Wes took the morning off and we were taking Kayla with
us. She was excited about having a brother or a sister. I told him I wanted her
to be there when we found out. She has to give my tummy a kiss every night
before bed and she whispers good night into my belly, it really is the sweetest
thing. She has attached herself to my hip but her mommy decided after only
completing two weeks of her ninety day substance abuse treatment that she had
enough and checked herself out. No one has heard from her or seen her since. It
was so sad that Sarah could honestly do that to Kayla…she was really missing
out on an amazing little angel.

After I finished lunch I stopped into the grocery store
to pick up a few things I needed. Wes was helping his dad with a bathroom he
was remodeling and had been there all day. He took MaKayla with him. Wes had
been making a lot of comments lately about maybe we should just move in together
because he was at my place ninety percent of the time anyway. I was getting
pretty good at avoiding the conversation and quickly sidetracking him from it
getting any further.

“Sam…Wow I had no idea that…um…you were having a baby”,
Tony was in the isle next to me. I had seen him and thought of getting back out
of line to wait in the back of the store until I knew he would be gone. I
stayed though and he found me, “Yeah I am a little over five months actually.”
I continued to load my things onto the counter and chose to not go into any
more detail with him. I had noticed that he was lingering by the door as I paid
and turned to leave. “So the guy that was at your house that time…is he the
dad?” Why was he waiting? I didn’t want this conversation, “His name is Wes and
yes he is the father.”

He followed me out to my car and I began feeling really
uncomfortable. “Not really good for you to be lifting all these bags and things
on your own. Not much of a man if he isn’t helping you and taking care of you
is he?” Yeah he was really going to go there. Damn it…I just wish he would have
walked away. “You know what Tony that is really none of your business…if you
must know he has no idea I even stopped at the store. He is an amazing guy and
he takes care of me perfectly…you of all people have no right at all to worry
about if I am being taking care of because Wes isn’t the one that couldn’t keep
his dick out of random women.” Tony never backed down after I just yelled at
him. “Here let me help you. You shouldn’t be lifting that shit”, he grabbed the
bag out of my hand and leaned in entirely to close grazing his arm across my
stomach. I flinched anyway and he noticed, “I am not going to hurt you Sam
wow…I just don’t want you lifting that stuff. You shouldn’t be overdoing it. He
should be doing this shit not you.” He placed his hand on my stomach and I
pushed him away shutting my trunk and getting into my car. He stood there next
to my car for a few minutes and then walked away. The fact that he placed his
hand on my stomach was entirely out of line and to intimate.

I grabbed my phone and quickly dialed…

Wes, are you still at your parent’s?
I breathed
into the phone. I tried to slowly relax but I couldn’t believe Tony actually
had the nerve to act that way. I wanted to tell Wes every detail and now.

I am actually pulling into your drive-way, Kayla
stayed with mom…why baby…what’s wrong where are you?

I told him I would be right there and I drove home the
shortest route. My heart was racing and I was really…I didn’t know exactly what
I was to be honest I just knew that I did not like that situation AT ALL!

When I pulled in Wes came walking out and down the
sidewalk. He looked a little worried when he seen me and took me into his arms
asking me what happened and if me and the baby were okay. I told him everything
that happened with every single detail of my encounter with Tony down to when
he placed his hand onto my stomach.  Wes was beyond pissed but I just needed him
to know so it later didn’t come back to cause us problems because I kept if
from him. He finally relaxed and insisted on carrying every bag in my trunk in
by himself.

We had the night to ourselves and I knew that sex between
us has been scarce I was just beginning to open up to him again but he looked
so stressed and I just felt like I needed him close. After he put the groceries
away I was able to convince him to take a shower with me. We have only been
together sexually twice since we got back together but I just felt so
unattractive even though he told me I was beautiful. He stepped into the shower
and I leaned back into him when he brought his hands to rest onto my hips. I
knew what was on his mind once our bodies came together because I could feel
him against me. He was already hard and I hadn’t even touched him. I let him
explore me with his hands and just took in all the sensations running through
me. Wes was so gentle and sweet. His hand slid down between my legs to lightly
massage me. I spread my legs just slightly to allow him better access as he
slipped into me and he began fingering me slowly. I moaned and pushed forward
to meet his hand moaning with every movement. “Is my girl horny? Do you need me
to make you feel better baby?

Hm…Sam do you need me relieve
you? You need to cum don’t you baby?” Holy shit did I ever I moaned and said
yes please. He lowered himself to slide his hard cock between my legs running
it along my folds to open me up for entrance. I arched myself up opening more
for him as he gently entered me. I felt so full and extremely turned on. “Yes that
feels so good…fuck me please”, I encouraged him on as he began to move. Slowly
at first and then he picked up and really began pumping himself in and out of
me. He brought his hand back around the front and began massaging my swollen
clit as he gripped my hip with the other hand. He felt amazing as he moved his
hips in a circular motion. Wes was hitting that spot that drove me over the
top. I screamed out his name as I came around him. He groaned deep in his chest
right before he reached his own release. “I love you baby…so fucking much”, He
whispered against my shoulder before he kissed me and pulled out slowly.

We sat in the waiting room of the doctor’s office and
Kayla was getting a little antsy. This would be Wes’s first time coming with me
and he was almost as bad as she was because he continuously was shifting around
in his seat. I think I told him to sit still ten times in the last fifteen
minutes.

“Samantha…we are ready for you”, the nurse announced that
it was our turn. Wes and Kayla followed me back as we entered the room that had
the Sonogram machine set and ready. The nurse excused herself and said that the
doctor would be in soon.

“Good morning Samantha…and you must be daddy?” The doctor
spoke directly to Wes shaking his hand and of course he was beaming. “So are we
ready to see if you are going to have a baby brother or a baby sister”, Dr.
Overlash spoke directly to MaKayla as he sat down in his chair next to me. I
lay with my belly in clear view and bare. Wes came up on the other side of me
so he could see the screen clearly and took my hand in his. He had lifted Kayla
to sit up on the edge right next to me.

“Here we go!” The doctor announced as he placed the warm
jelly covered instrument to my belly and began moving it around. Everything
came into view and appeared in so much detail. I was getting a 3D sonogram and it
was amazing compared to my last one. Wes was mesmerized by what he was seeing
and he watched the doctors every move.  “Here we have a foot, and what appears
to be a hand…wait a minute let me try to position this just right…yeah here we
are. It looks like little Miss MaKayla you will be getting a…baby brother.” The
doctor spoke as he brought his hand up to the monitor screen to point to the
spot determining in fact we were having a little boy. I felt Wes squeeze my
hand tightly when I turned to look up at him he smiled, “I told you it was a
little man…now we get to pick out a name.”