Guarded Heart (10 page)

He didn’t live to far away and he ran home to get some
things Kayla won’t sleep without plus her pajama’s and clothes for the morning.
We got her ready for bed and she loved the fact that all her dolly’s had enough
room to sleep with her in the ‘Big Girl Bed’. Wes read her a bedtime story and
I sat on the end of my bed after I got out of the shower listening to them. He
was an amazing dad.

After things had been quiet for a while I figured she had
falling asleep and Wes made his way across the hall. He stopped and leaned on
the door frame as he watched me. I stood up and walked to him wrapping my hands
around his waist and hugged him closely. He ran his hands through my hair and
rested them onto my back. He held me for a moment and I was trying to form the
words that I wanted to say. “You freaked me out earlier Wes…I never expected
you to say…for you to admit that you…” ‘Loved you’ he finished. I took a deep
breath and nodded my head into his chest. He brought his hands to the back of
my neck tilting my head up to his. He smiled down at me, “Baby I’m sorry that
it freaks you out but…I do. I meant it and I don’t regret saying it. I love you
Sam…I have fallen in love with everything about you. Even when you frustrate
the hell out of me from being stubborn I still love you. I didn’t expect you to
say it back…not until you know that you won’t regret it.” He kissed me sweetly
and resting his forehead onto mine.

I reached up and pulled him close to me. Running my hands
up his body and under his shirt I slowly lifted it up over his head. He didn’t
speak and I didn’t speak as our breathing became heavier. I trailed kisses
across his shoulder and down his chest pulling him by his hands and leading him
to the bed. I nudged him backwards as he lowered himself lying onto his back. I
stood at the foot of the bed looking at this amazing man with such a big heart.
I knew I was in love with him too…I just wasn’t ready to tell him…not yet. I
brought my body down over his to continue kissing him. Letting my tongue slowly
run across his stomach as he tensed his muscles, “Mm baby…”

His sexy voice hit me and I knew I wanted to make him
moan...over and over. I unbuckled his pants and slowly started to lower them
along with his boxers as his erection sprung free. Knowing I did this to him
made me feel sexy and erotic. Maybe the fact that I had been craving him so
badly for days was driving me but I wanted to pleasure him and had every
intention of doing just that. After his pants were lying in a pile on the floor
I ran my hands up his legs and rested them onto his stomach. I knelt at the end
of the bed and leaned over him looking up at him as I circled my hand around
his hardness…I slowly began stroking him before lowering my mouth onto the tip.
“Holy fuck…yeah!” He groaned in response and I ran my tongue over him and
slowly lowered my mouth onto his throbbing cock. Licking and sucking I took him
in and then I tasted him. Pre-cum dripping from the tip…he had his hands at his
sides gripping the sheets. “Baby you got to stop or I am going to lose it. I
don’t want to cum in your mouth Sam…Damn Mm. Baby I want make love to you…come
here”, he reached for me and I brought myself up and over him as I undid my
robe. I hadn’t bothered to get dressed and he moaned in approval when he discovered
I was completely naked. I straddled him as he rose up to kiss me. His tongue
ran down my neck to my breast as he sucked on one and massaged the other, “Sit
on my cock baby…I need you.” I didn’t hesitate as I lowered myself onto him and
began to move. His breathing was so heavy and I wanted to scream out in
complete pleasure but I needed to control myself from not waking up Kayla. He
felt so good inside of me and I felt so full. “Does that feel good baby? Do I
make you feel good…” it felt so much better than good. “Good doesn’t even come
close Wes. Making love to you is so amazing…yes!” He groaned deep in his chest
as I tensed and shook with pure pleasure. He thrust upward and before I could
bring myself back from the intense orgasm he spun me around and was now on top
of me slamming into me hard and fast. I was so sensitive from my recent orgasm
that my toes curled and I dug my nails into his shoulders and back. I bite my
lip to keep from screaming out his name. He had buried his face into my neck
and I could hear his low whispers. “I love you baby so much...you make me so
happy. I am so deeply in love with you Sam…we are so good together”, hearing
his whispers pulled at my heart and at that moment I felt his love, it was so
intense. I was climbing that familiar ladder and felt at any moment I was going
to be thrown into another yummy orgasm. I squeezed my legs tightly around his
hips as he drove into me over and over. “Cum with me baby…let go. I am so close
I want you to cum with me…give it to baby…oh yeah there you go. FUCK YEAH!” He
moaned as we came together hard and intensely.

He curled me into his arms and whispered into my ear,
“Gets better every single time…I will never get tired of you. Sam you’re my
addiction baby.” He kissed my neck and we fell asleep together.

The next couple weeks passed and things with Wes were so
good. He and MaKayla had spent the night half a dozen times and I had been
staying at his house the rest of the time. We were in a pretty good routine and
I got to pick Kayla up a couple days a week to meet him at home, whichever
place we had planned to stay at that night anyway. I still had not told him I
loved him even though I wanted to so many times. He was sweet about it and it
didn’t stop him from telling me he loved me over and over.

Friday had arrived and lunch time always gave me time to
think and my mind wondered back to this morning waking up to Wes watching me…
“What are you doing?” I asked him as I looked up at him resting his head on his
hand propping it up. “Watching you sleep, you are so beautiful.”

Ahh this man pulled at my heart strings so hard. He made
me feel so special but then again so did Tony and it all back fired in my face
when I least expected it too. I looked through my phone and called Allison, I
needed some girl talk.

‘Hey Hot Stuff what’cha doing? I was actually going to
call you soon’

She seemed to be in a great mood

Oh you were…is that a good or bad thing? What is going
on?

Things had been better with Mitch’s mom after he talked
to her and told her she needed to respect his wife or not come over to their
home. Allison was in heaven from Mitch finally standing up to his mother in her
honor.
               
So…I need you to come to my rescue…before you say no keep in
mind of all the times I have rescued you and helped in your time of need…I need
you to go to dinner with me. Mitch’s mother and aunt have invited me and I
already told them my best friend and I had plans hoping that it would get me
out of dinner but they only then insisted that we both join them…PLEASE!

She was right I did owe her but I wanted to go to Wes’s house
after work…I just wanted to curl up with him and watch a movie together. I
wanted to fall asleep in his arms and wake up to see his gorgeous face next to
me. I was ready to tell him I loved him too and that I have…I was just too
scared and stubborn to admit it.

What time?

She giggled in excitement

Meet me here at five thirty we have to get there at
six

Good early which meant I would still be able to go to
Wes’s and spend the night in his arms.

I agreed to meet her and sent Wes I quick text to let him
know of my plans that Allison had just made for me. He replied back with a sad
face followed by telling me to hurry because he misses me and wanted to cuddle.
Cuddle to us really just meant we would end up naked having unbelievable sex.

I finished my day at work and ran home for a quick shower
throwing on something presentable and running out the door to meet Allison. I
really wasn’t left with much time to get ready since I didn’t get out of work
and home until after four thirty. Alli text me asking where I was just as I was
pulling into her driveway, geesh woman breathe I am coming! I decided to leave
my car at her house and ride with her.

I was shocked at the politeness Mitch’s mother was showing
to Allison and even to me. I made a note to hug Alli’s man when we got back to
her house and thank him for finally making her life a little easier. Time was
flying by and we were actually having a really good time. Mitch’s mom Kathy had
me laughing so hard telling stories about her husband and how they met years
ago. Alli was actually doing shots with both of them which was shocking to see
from a woman Alli and I both thought had a stick up her ass. She seemed like a
different person and was really fun to be around. Who would have thought Kathy
could smile and laugh…it was great to see her and Alli get along. I looked down
at my phone to check the time and saw that I had one missed call and two text
messages from Wes. It was now a quarter ‘til eight and I couldn’t believe so
much time had gone by.

‘Hey baby I miss you call me’
and the second
message
‘Kayla crashed early and I am craving cuddle time with you…You still
with Alli?
That last one came at seven thirty. I quickly sent him a text
and told him that we were having a blast and that I would try to drag Alli away
and get there soon.

No Rush…please stay and have fun.

His response was definitely not what I was expecting. Was
he upset with me? I excused myself and said I needed to use the rest room. I quickly
stepped out in front of the restaurant and called him. It rang four times and I
expected his answering machine to pick up but he answered sounding a little out
of breath.
“Ya!”
What kind of way is that to answer, maybe he didn’t
realize it was me calling?
Hey is everything okay…are you upset with me?
He took a deep breath,
“No Sam I’m fine and I am not upset have fun with
Alli. I am actually really tired from work this week I think it caught up with
me. I’m just going to call it a night. Call me tomorrow.
Before I could
respond he hung up. I looked down at my phone and wonder what in the hell just
happened. What was that all about?

                I was finally able to get Allison out of
the restaurant and into her car. I told her a quick version of what happened
with Wes and she looked puzzled. She was a little tipsy so I drove her car.
“Hey do you mind if I stop by his place real quick I just want to make sure
things are okay. He said he wasn’t mad but he sounded like something was
wrong…I promise I’ll be fast.” She didn’t care as she laid her head back and
closed her eyes. It was almost nine at night when I pulled up to Wes’s
apartment. Climbing his stairs I could see a light on which only made my
stomach flip he told me he was going to bed.

I lightly knocked on the door and waited. I didn’t want
to knock to loud and wake Kayla. The door came open and my knees began to
shake, I instantly became nauseous when Sarah was the one looking back at me…I
felt my heart break. She was wearing a tank top which showed her entire flat
stomach. She had on a pair of tight little pink shorts that had a heart on the
left hip…WAIT A MINUTE, those are my fucking shorts. My eyes met hers and she
smiled at me. She looked right at home, “Can I help you with something?” I started
to respond when I saw movement behind her. Wes was walking out of his bedroom
and he wore only his sweats…he froze looking passed her and straight at me. I
just turned around and walked down the steps toward Allison jeep. I heard him
behind me charging down the stairs quickly. “Wait…Sam wait a minute it isn’t
what you think. Let me explain.” Not again I couldn’t do this again. Why did
guys feel the need to cheat on me? What the hell was I doing wrong? Maybe my
mother was right. “Baby Please, listen to me”, it happened before I even
realized what I had done. I spun around and smacked him across the face so hard
my hand was now burning.

Wes reached for my wrist, “Sam I never slept with her I
know that’s what you think. Nothing happened.” I jerked my hand away, “Fuck
You! Nothing happened huh? That is why your EX-WIFE is upstairs in your
apartment wearing MY FUCKING CLOTHES! MINE Wes…!” He reached for my waist and I
pulled back, “Don’t fucking touch me…don’t call me. Just go back upstairs and
fuck Sarah Wes…again!” Allison had already stepped out of the car when we
walked up and she was staring at him as if she couldn’t believe what she was
hearing. I got in the car slammed the door and locked it. Wes said something to
Alli and she didn’t respond back she just stood there. I needed to get out of
here, “Get in the God Damn car Alli…GET IN THE FUCKING CAR!” I screamed at her
and she slowly got in without saying a work. Wes pounded on the window and ran
aside Alli’s jeep as I backed out and I put it in drive looking up at him as
the tears came rushing down my cheeks. I turned forward and stepped on the gas
and drove away from Wes. My heart was shattered.

Allison wouldn’t allow me to go home that night she made
me sleep in their guest room and I had no energy to argue with her. I felt
empty and angry and sad…I couldn’t stop crying. Mitch looked shocked when Alli
filled him in on everything. He couldn’t believe that Wes would go back to Sarah
after everything that had happened.

I cried so hard I made myself sick and found myself
laying on the little bathroom floor that was attached to the room I was
sleeping in. Able to finally drag myself back to bed I heard Mitch yelling from
out in the living room. Was I causing an argument between him and Alli? I would
leave…the last thing I wanted was to drag their relationship into this. I
opened the door slightly to try and hear what he was saying, “You fucked up
dude! You never should have let her in. After everything you have had to deal
with from her and what she has put Kayla through…you should have turned her
away…You did it.” There was a long pause I realized he had to be talking to
Wes. “You love her? Well then her feelings should have been top priority man.
How would you have felt if the roles were reversed…you got pissed when Tony was
on her fucking front porch imagine him answering the door half naked and she
comes out of the bedroom in nighty…not good man. You know you fucked up and I
am sure as hell not getting in the middle of it and then having my wife pissed
off. I got to say I am with them on this one…you know damn well you are wrong.”