Guarded Heart (8 page)

Wes dropped his keys on the table as he walked across the
room slowly toward me. He was just staring at me not saying a word. He grabbed
his shirt and lifted it over his head holding it in his hand for just a second
then tossing it in the chair. When he reached me he grabbed my waist and lifted
me up setting me onto the countertop that separated his kitchen and living
room. He slowly nudged my legs open to rest in between them as he ran his hands
up my bare legs and under my skirt bringing them to a stop on my thighs. He
looked directly at me and leaned in as if to kiss me. Wes lightly licked his
lower lip just to add a little more tension causing me to squeeze my knees
creating pressure on each of his sides. “You actually believe that you have no
effect on me huh? You think that I don’t actually feel the need you do. I find
it hard to think about you without feeling insanely hungry. I have thought
about your body every fucking day since that day you walked out of that Deli. I
control my hunger for you but it is there Sam. Every damn second it is there. I
told you that you are under my skin and I meant it. I crave you so badly. The
feel of your soft skin and the taste of you…so addicting, I want you so badly
and today not being able to make love to you drove me out of mind. I want to
bury myself deep inside of you and forget about everything else.’’ Wes leaned
in to suck my lower lip into his mouth and bite lightly then releasing I moaned
softly as he pulled back, “That right there…that sexy ass little moan is so
hot.” Wes moved his hands up a little as he traced the edges of my panties with
the tips of his fingers. I pushed my hips forward into his hands. “Touch
me…please”, I begged him. I could see he was turned on. He ran his hands up
along my hips grabbing at my panties to slide them off. I rose up so they could
be removed easily. I sat here on his countertop exposed as my skirt was
gathered around my waist and my panties now lay at his feet. He kept his hands
secured on my thighs and brought his mouth to mine slowly teasing me with his
tongue. Wes ran kissing along my jawline and then down my neck. His tongue was
lethal as he teased and nipped at my chest. He reached for my dress and lifted
it over my head. I unclasped my bra and dropped it next to me leaving me now
naked besides my boots. He continued the pleasurable tease with his tongue
along my neck and chest passing to take each nipple into his mouth and sucking
lightly. “Baby, you are so fucking sexy. I could spend hours and hours touching
you and kissing you still needing more. Sam I am addicted to your body. I can’t
get enough of you.” I was extremely turned on, “I need you inside me…now.” I
slid to the edge of the counter and wrapped my legs around him to try to pull
him closer. He pulled back and my legs fell to the sides, “Not yet Samantha…I
want to taste you first.” I felt the moisture pool between my legs with the
thought of his tongue teasing me. He smiled the drop dead sexy grin and then
lowered himself between my legs. I felt his tongue trace my inner thigh before
pulling back just long enough to look up at me quickly. Not taking his eyes
from mine he lowered his mouth over my clitoris and sucked it lightly massaging
it between his lips. “Oh Yeah, god that feels so good…Mm”, my head fell back as
he continued to taste me. Running his tongue through my folds to once again
suck on my swollen clit and I began to feel myself climb higher and higher. I
gripped his hair and he licked and sucked until I exploded onto his tongue. “Oh
yeah baby…” Wes slid his finger into me and after a couple strokes he added a
second one. He brought his mouth to mine and kissed me deeply. “You taste so
good baby…so sweet.” He pumped his fingers in and out of me while he lowered
his jeans with his other hand and then his boxers. He was so hard and ready, “I
need to be inside of you…deep inside.” He could undo me with his words alone.
Would I ever get enough of him…I really doubted it. I felt him guide his hard
cock to my wetness and slowly pushed in until he could go no further. “Fucking
hell…damn baby you are so fucking tight! You are so wet.” He thrust forward and
I came hard around him yelling his name as he moaned loudly and started pumping
harder and faster. “Tell me your mine”, he panted as he continued to drive into
me over and over. I felt that familiar pressure begin to build, “Tell me
Baby…Tell me your pussy is mine.” I came once again and I yelled back at him,
“Yes yours it’s yours…Oh Wes…Fuck ya!” He slammed into me once…twice as he
exploded deep inside me. He could make me lose my mind completely. I knew sex
with him was never dull. He was so expressive and really pleased me to the
extreme.

After our breathing became under control he looked into
my eyes, brushing my hair away from my face. He kissed me slowly, “Spend the
night with me Sam. I don’t want you to leave. I just want to wake up next to
you again…please.” I nodded my head in response and he picked me up and carried
me to his bed. We fell asleep with my head on his chest and our legs wrapped
together.

POUNDING…We woke to someone pounding on the door. “What
the fuck…” Wes mumbled as he crawled from bed. “Wait here baby”, he whispered
as he slipped on a pair of shorts. I looked over at the alarm clock and it was
almost one in the morning. I felt my heart race…something must be wrong. I
heard some yelling and a woman’s voice mixed with his. I got up from the bed
and eased my way to the doorway but only so I could hear.

“Where the hell is my daughter Wesley? GIVE HER TO ME!” I
heard a light scuffle and then silence. I peeked out to see him holding her
against the wall by the door. “You need to leave Sarah you are wasted and if
you think I am going to give her to you in this condition you are crazier than
I gave you credit for. Get your sorry ass boyfriend and get back in your car
now…or I will call the police. I’m pretty sure by the look of both of you…alcohol
isn’t the only thing in your system. Wes nudged her out the door and slammed it
behind him. After taking a few deep breaths he grabbed his phone off the table
and I slipped on his T-shirt that was on his floor then went to him. He was
dialing his phone, “Who are you calling?” He looked at me and mouthed ‘Cops’.
When they answered he explained that he just witnessed a drunk driver swerving
all over and gave them the plate number. Once he hung up he looked at me, “I’m
just securing my daughters safety…she will not get her back. That is a
promise!” I felt like maybe I should say or do something when he reached for my
hand and pulled me to him kissing me softly and when he looked at me again he
smiled. “Can I take you back to bed and…make love to you very slowly?” Oh hell
yes and that is just what he did.

Over the next few weeks spending time with Wes was a
little rough due to our work schedules. He was spending the nights at his
parent’s house since Makayla was staying there. He didn’t feel comfortable
taken her to daycare because he had to wait to see a judge about Sarah’s
condition. We spent as much time as possible with each other. He was always so
sweet and I really enjoyed our time together. I felt alive and I knew he cared
about me he never once hid that.

‘I miss you beautiful’
this was my text waiting
for me after work on Thursday. I missed him too more than I thought I would. It
had only been four days since I had seen him but it had seemed so much longer.

When I got home I decided I would just order a pizza and
when I started to dial the number my phone rang in my hand. Just seeing his
name made me smile so big.

Hello handsome…how was your day?

He sounded off a little. I knew he was nervous about
tomorrow. He went in front of the judge regarding custody of MaKayla.

It was a long day how about you.

I wanted to hold him or kiss him something, anything…

Are you okay? Did something happen?

He didn’t respond right away…

Can I come in for a few minutes?

Was he serious…was he here? I walked over to the front window
and looked out to see him sitting in his truck waiting.

Of course…come in.

I had the front door open waiting for him as he came up
the sidewalk. He took me into a strong hug and just held me in the doorway. I
hugged him back, “What is going on Wes?” I whispered against his neck. He
breathed me in and let out a deep breath, “I missed you and I wanted to see you
before I went to see Kayla. I was wondering if you wanted to come with me.
Sarah showed up at my parents today and put on one hell of a show in front of
Kayla. It took over an hour to get her to stop crying. My mom had to call the
cops on her and her boyfriend.” He looked so stressed and I felt horrible that
he and Sweet Kayla had to go through this. I agreed to go with him to his
parents and changed into some jeans quickly and we left.

He held my hand the entire way lightly rubbing his thumb
across my knuckles. The ride was quiet and I let him just think without
interruption. His sister was there with the baby and Makayla instantly ran from
Rachel’s lap to leap into her daddy’s arms. I couldn’t believe her mommy was
putting her threw this garbage. I joined them all for dinner and when it came
to bedtime Kayla cried and cried because she wanted her daddy to stay all night
with her. He knew he needed to take me back to town and I could tell he felt
torn. “Hey, don’t worry about it I can call Allison to come and get me really
it is okay. She needs her daddy to comfort her…she feels safe with you.” I
kissed him lightly and told him to take her to bed.

Allison pulled in about twenty minutes later and after I
told his parents goodbye I left. I filled Alli in on the way home about all the
stuff Wes was going through with Sarah. “Listen with all of this I probably
shouldn’t even bring it up but you’ll find out eventually anyway. I saw Heather
today at the Hospital…she lost the baby.” Oh no…I mean I hated her for what she
did to me but I felt sorry for her and Tony they had lost their baby. She must
be crushed. “How is she doing?” Allison pulled in to my driveway and turned to
me,” She didn’t say much I could just tell she was heartbroken. She was there
for a follow up with her doctor.” Wow…for the first time since I found out Tony
had cheated I actually felt sad for him. I hugged her goodbye and went inside.

I knew I shouldn’t but I called Tony anyway.

Sam, Hi…

He sounded okay maybe a little to okay.

Um hi…I just wanted to call to tell you and Heather
how sorry I am to hear about the baby. She must be heartbroken.

He paused before answering.

Yeah it was a shock really. She went in for a regular
visit and the baby had no heartbeat. She’s been a wreck since…she went to stay
with her mom…so

I was wondering how he was but I didn’t want him to look
into it further then he needed to. I decided to end this call and I was already
regretting even calling to offer my sympathy.

Well I just wanted to say I was sorry but I’m going to
let you go now

And he went for it…

Sam I want you back…please. I can’t stop thinking
about you. Will you please just talk to me…please Sam I love you so much.

I couldn’t do this I just hung up…why the hell was I so
stupid. I never should have called him…Idiot Samantha…damn it.

A text came through and I thought for sure it was from
Tony.

Have I told you lately how amazing and understanding
you are…you are so special to me and I adore you.

My heart raced when I read it. Wes was thanking me for
being amazing and damn it I just called my Ex fiancée. Dumb Samantha, just so
fucking dumb!

You are pretty amazing and wonderful yourself. Sweet
dreams Handsome!

My phone kept ringing for the next fifteen minutes and I
refused to answer it. Then my doorbell rang…motherfucker you have got to be kidding
me. I was so damn pissed off at myself.

I opened the door to Tony and he immediately started
pleading with me to forgive him. We argued for about twenty minutes and I
really just wanted him to leave. I told him there would never be an ‘Us’ ever
again. He wasn’t getting it. I screamed at him, “I NEVER SHOULD HAVE CALLED
YOU!” I fisted my hands and started to tell him to leave again when I heard Wes
from behind Tony, “You called him?”

Oh no! Shit… “It’s not what you
think Wes really. Heather lost her baby and I called to tell them I was sorry
to hear about it…that was it.” The look on his face broke my heart as he just
stood there staring at me. I could tell he was pissed, “Tony I think you better
take off.” Tony spun around and took a step toward Wes. “I am really not sure
who the fuck you think you are but I am not going to go anywhere. I came to
work things out with Sam and I am not…”, before he could finish Wes grabbed his
shirt and slammed him against the house holding him securely. “I said fucking leave!”
He let go of Tony and he stepped back to allow him to pass, “Sam I still love
you and I am not going to give up…I will get you back.” Tony turned and left, I
swallowed hard and when I saw the look on Wes’s face panic set in, “Wes
please…don’t be mad let me explain.” He held his hand up to stop me, “Do you
want him?” I shook my head immediately, “Do you still think about him…do you
still love him?” I started to answer him but he interrupted me, ‘Forget it Sam,
I can’t do this…I have enough shit going on right now this…you and I, I  just can’t
do right  now.” He turned and walked toward his truck. I ran after him,
“Stop…Wes stop look at me please. I don’t want him. I want you please don’t
leave mad. Don’t walk away please!” I pleaded with him but he never turned
around he just got in his truck and backed out.

                I tried calling
him three times with no answer. I cried and cried then tried once more leaving
a message this time.

                I told you I
wanted you and you walked away…you just left. I don’t want Tony and I never
will…that part of my life is over. I felt bad for Heather after everything they
did I still would never wish losing a child on anyone. I see the way you are
with Kayla and it tore at my heart thinking that they would never get that with
the child they had lost. I had a weak moment where I put my feelings aside to
share my sympathy…it was a terrible lapse in judgment. I know you are going
through a lot but the way that you left things it was just wrong. You can’t do
the ‘us’ anymore…fine if that’s how you want it but you remember you are the
one that walked away. I hope everything works out with MaKayla… Goodbye Wes.