Hidden Barriers (17 page)

My eyes reopen, and I see her face inches from my own. “So, what was it you were saying you couldn’t do? Because if I remember correctly, you did promise to make me ‘feel like a
queen,’ and I hate waiting.” She winks at me as I recall saying those exact words.

I let out a deep laugh because she clearly isn’t ready for what I’m thinking can make her
feel like the queen she should feel like, but my dick has other ideas as I grab her by the waist and look her dead in the eyes. “You want to feel what I can give you? Are you sure? Once I start, I’m not stopping, Sam. If you want this, you tell me.”

Sitting back up, she straddles me and reaches up to push her bra straps off her shoulders before undoing the clasps behind her. Pulling the bra away from her body, she tosses it aside and I’m left with nothing but one of the most amazing views I’ve ever seen. Sam straddling me as her long, curled, brown hair cascades against her naked skin. The ends of her hair tease me as they barely cover her perky breasts and hardened nipples.

“Touch me, Josh,” she commands as she wraps her hands over mine to bring them up to her breasts. I’m at her beckoning wish the moment she places my hands over her tits. I gently massage my hands with hers, and my dick throbs within my pants, wanting to be somewhere else at the moment. All in due time. Slow and steady will win this race. She doesn’t deserve a morning quickie.

“Sam, tell me what you want. I need to know what’s running through your mind,” I plead with her to tell me she wants to know what it feels like to have me inside her.

“I want to feel you, Josh.
All of you
. Right now.” She bites her lower lip and pulls her hair up into her hands before letting it fall against her back.

Before she even knows it, I’ve moved so quickly she’s already on her back. Staring back at her, I place gentle kisses along her stomach as I inch closer to her core. I wrap my fingers under her pants before looking up at her for the green light. Her eyes are still trained on mine, but she gives me a nod, allowing me to continue with my slow movement in removing her pants.

Slowly I start pulling down her pants, unaware of how perfect her shaved pussy is until the minute I have all of her right in front of me. Tossing her pants over my shoulder onto the floor, I just stare at Sam, her naked form lying there. I’m speechless. “Fuck, Sam. You are the most beautiful woman I’ve ever laid eyes on,” I say before I see her scoot up to me as I sit back on my knees.

Her hands make quick work of pulling my shirt over my head, but hesitate at my zipper. She looks unsure of how to proceed. I grab her chin in my fingers and lean down to kiss her passionately rather than with desire. I need to make her mine, but a part of me is just as nervous as she is. I pull back and wrap her in my arms as our skin warms each other.

“Talk to me, Sam.”

“I don’t have any condoms,” she says timidly.

“That’s what’s stopping you right now?” I ask softly. She nods back. I pull away to find my jacket on the back of the chair and reach into the pocket to pull out a packet I put there yesterday.
Fuck.
I stare back at it, knowing I didn’t put it there for her.
You are scum.
Using a condom that was put there for use on another woman, one you fucked just hours before you came here. My hand shakes as I hold the condom until I hear her voice from behind me.

“Is everything okay?”

I turn around and see her lying there waiting for me. “Yeah, I found a condom in my coat. You’re absolutely sure you want to do this?”

“Josh, why do I get the feeling I’m the one who wants this more than you do?”

As I make my way over to the bed, unzipping my pants on the way and dropping them to the floor, my last thought before I make her mine is just how long I’ll be able to live with the guilt of fucking two women in less than twenty-four hours. How long can I keep that information from the one my feelings are growing deeply for? I know I need to tell her the truth, but honestly, I’m not ready to lose her, too.

Something isn’t quite right with Josh as he pulls the condom from his jacket. Thoughts run through my head, wondering why he would have one if we’ve only just started working on this relationship. I squash that thought as I remember he’s a guy. Most guys usually carry those things around, right? It’s not as though he’s a teenager; he’s only a couple of years older than me, but I’m almost certain he’s been more sexually active than me the last few years.

Just so we’re clear. I’m on the same level as a nun in the sex department these days. It’s been far too long of a vacation for this cupcake.

Granted, I feel safe with him and am surprised by how quickly I have been able to trust him. Perhaps I was able to physically handle being with a guy all these years. I just never tried. I never wanted to, but with Josh, there’s a connection I can’t place. It’s as though he understands my pain, only on another level.

I’ll never admit to Josh that I’m freaking out about having sex with him, but how will I know my limits if I don’t push myself? I’m supposed to be a fighter, a scorer. Well, the truth is, I need to score right now, but I’m not entirely sure Josh is as ready to pop my re-virginized cherry as I am to let him do it.

Josh finally makes his way back to my bed. “It’s about time you made up your mind. Do you even know how cold it is lying here naked?” I tease him.

“Listen, you. I’m not rushing this with you,” he says, reaching out to stroke his thumb along my cheek. “And, if you haven’t already noticed, I’m almost as naked as you are. It’s not my fault the house is freezing right now.”

“Oh, so that explains it.”

“That explains what?”

“That explains why it’s so small.”

“Woman! I will make sure you know just how
not
small my dick is as it’s hitting all the right spots inside you.”

“Well, what are you waiting for? I’m not getting any younger here. Seems as though you’re all talk and no action, Josh.”

“All tal—” He stops mid-word. “Are you for real? That’s it. It’s on!”

He swiftly drops his boxer briefs, and I see just how
not
cold he is. He strokes himself a few times before kneeling on the bed and stalking toward me. A devilish grin seeps across his face, and I know I’m in trouble. My heart pounds as he planks himself over my frame.

“I know you’re nervous, but I’ll go slowly, okay?” he says, pushing my hair back from my face before placing a tender kiss upon my lips. I reach up to hold his face in my hands and feel my breathing accelerate, and suddenly, I’m no longer cold in the room with him near me. My body feels as if I could catch on fire right now.

Josh moves a hand down over my breast, past my stomach until he’s closing in on my core. I watch him as his fingers inch slowly to open my folds and begin tenderly rubbing my clit. “Holy shit,” I say, slamming my head back against my pillow. Pulling up my leg slightly to give
Josh easier access, he teases me some more before putting his hand to his mouth to lick his fingers. He watches my reaction as my eyes tell him one thing, but my body says another.

I consider the thought of reaching out to stroke his hardened cock as he prepares me for what’s about to happen, but before I have the chance to move my hand, a slickened finger is already back on me, circling my entry.

“Do you want my fingers inside you, Sam?”

“Yes, God, yes.”

“Do you want my dick in you more?”

“Mmmm Hmmm.” I nod, as words are not generating from my lips anymore. He pushes two fingers inside me, and I feel myself tighten around him almost instantly.

“Fuck, you do that to my dick, and it’s going to be hard for me to keep my promise.”
“What promise is that?”

“To make you feel amazing.”

“Josh, if you don’t slide your cock inside me right now, I will finish myself off without your help.”

“Damn, are you always this feisty in bed? Don’t worry, sugar. I’m just getting warmed up. The only thing you’ll be screaming is my name in about five minutes.” I give him my best
are you kidding me
look, and he realizes what he said and corrects himself. “Okay, ten minutes.”

“Phew, I feel better now.”

Josh pulls his fingers from my now dripping core to grab the condom from the end of the bed. While he tears it open, I watch as something flashes across his face, but I can’t place it. Within seconds, he’s rolling it over his hard length and moving above me. I adjust my legs to allow him to rest between them as he gauges my reaction.

My heart is beating so loudly that it’s ringing in my ears. Josh lowers his mouth to my nipple and begins sucking it gently into a hardened bud. His hand massages my other breast as he causes my stomach to do somersaults with all the newfound emotions running through my body. To my surprise, not a single one of those emotions is fear. I can handle this. I can handle him. Maybe he’s what I’ve been waiting for all these years, and I never knew it. Damn Kim and her fate talk.

Josh releases my nipple from his mouth and looks down at his cock seated above my entry. “Sam, I need to know you’re all right with this. We don’t have to do anything if you don’t feel ready.”

“Josh, I think I was always meant to find you. This…us…it feels right. I know I’m okay with this. Please, let me feel you inside me.”

“What is it about you that makes me want to fall to my fuckin’ knees and hand you the world? I don’t deserve you, but I will do whatever it takes to make you happy, and if that means fucking you until your heart’s content, then your wish is my command.”

“You have such sweet pillow talk,” I tease as he positions himself and slowly slides inside me. His eyes squeeze shut as he pushes all the way inside.

“Shit, you’re so tight around me.” His eyes reopen to take in my reaction.

I’m not going to lie; it hurt a little at first, as it’s been nearly three years since the last time I had sex, but never have I felt anything as incredible as this.

Josh starts rocking himself inside me, and I’m instantly transported to another world. My core tightens at the reignited sensations that only sex brings to your body.

“Josh,” I say breathlessly. He leans over me as he continues to push deeper. Grabbing my leg, he wraps it around his hip as I run my fingernails down his sculpted abs and back up around to his back.

A deep moan sounds from his throat. “Sam, you’re driving me crazy with those wandering hands.”

The more he drives his dick into me, the greater the sensation encompasses my body. I can hardly control my own moans. My body so desperately needs to release the orgasm that’s been held in for so long.

Josh’s lips find mine as he pushes his tongue into my mouth. Our muffled sighs of pleasure unite as our bodies are connected in all the places they can possibly be joined. He pulls back, stilling his movements in the process.

“What’s the matter?” I ask, wondering if there is an issue.

“It’s nothing, but if you squeeze my dick one more time, I won’t last much longer.”

“Oh, you mean like this?” I clench my core around him.

“Do that again, and you’ll regret what I do to you with my dick.”

I eye him curiously and clench again before laughing at the absurdity of this sexual encounter. Josh’s cock pulses inside me even more than before as he rests his head on mine and lets out a painful sounding moan.

“Sam, I’m not lasting much longer. I thought clenching around me was enough to drive me insane. You laughing just sent my entire body into overdrive. I need to know you’re with me if I go hard and fast.”

“Make me come, Josh. I need to feel your cock throbbing inside me when you come.”

He picks up his pace, and his breathing quickens. With every hardened thrust, he hits a spot inside me that causes my core to ache. My hands grasp the bedding at my side as I feel a surge of tingles throughout my body.

“I’m close,” he says, keeping his pace.

I look up at his sweat glistened face as the words seep from my lips. “Make me come. I’m close, too.”

His hips instantly begin slamming into me as he hits the spot he’s been aiming for this entire time. My back arches as my head drops backward, and Josh’s thrusts still completely. I feel his dick pulse inside me as my own orgasm envelopes my body. My core throbs around him as our groans and cries merge together in unison until we’re both out of breath and collapsing in each other’s arms.