The Beginning of Us (129 page)

May 25
^th

Prom day baby! I am so excited. There is a killer party tonight. Stoshua won’t know what hit him when he wakes up tomorrow. Everything is going as planned. Soon, everyone will think the baby I’m carrying is his. It will not only destroy my sister, but it will kill my parents. This couldn’t have worked out better.

I put my hand over my mouth, because her world started to nauseate me.

I couldn’t stop reading.

May 26
^th

Just got home from a night I won’t forget.

I could tell Stoshua hated himself when he woke up next to me. That poor guy didn’t even realize that nothing happened between us. He believed every word out of my mouth. What a loser!

Soon, I can tell the family that the child I’m carrying is his. I can’t wait to give them the horrible news.

It will be the best day of my life.

June 7
^th

We graduated!

Yay me!

I won’t have to share the car anymore, because my dad is planning on getting the princess a new one. She still thinks she wants to stay home. I can see it on her face when she looks at me. She hates that I had him and she didn’t. Little does she know, that I didn’t even want him.

Her little pathetic pity party is about to begin. I can’t wait to watch her fall off her pedestal.

June 10
^th

I couldn’t wait any longer. They all know.

Fake baby daddy told his parents. He wants to do the right thing by me.

I got my ticket out of here and I couldn’t be happier.

He’s going to take care of me and the baby, while we stay home and pretend to like him. He never has to know the baby isn’t his.

My sister is a mess. I heard her crying again. I think she may have thrown up. I stayed on the other side of the door smiling the whole time.

She’s finally in Hell, where she belongs.

June 12
^th

Willow is leaving town. She made the announcement to me in private, but I made sure to pass it along to Stoshua. He seemed equally upset. He’s even been drinking. I guess he’s trying to numb the pain of losing his chance with her. They’ll never be together now. That makes me so happy.

July 2
^nd

I got married today.

It wasn’t perfect or even what I’d imagined. My ass looks fat and I can’t stand Stoshua’s cologne. He keeps telling me that he’ll try to be a good husband. He apologizes for loving her. The irony in that is fantastic.

July 14
^th

Willow’s gone! She’s gone off to school and to start her new life. I pretended to be sad, but I was partying inside.

August 27
^th

Last night I had a miscarriage.

Stoshua stayed by my side.

He seemed broken up about it.

My parents came to the hospital, but the princess never showed. I thought she’d come, but she never did.

I feel alone. I’m stuck in a marriage with someone I loathe. He’s my only way out, though. I can’t go back to that house. I’ll never go back! I guess I need to pretend to love this guy and get knocked up again. The sooner the better.

I heard Stosh clearing his voice and looked up to see him leaning against the doorway. He was completely naked with a concerned look on his face. “I thought we agreed to not deal with this shit until tomorrow?”

I tossed the book to the side with shaky hands. “I couldn’t help it. I had to know.”

I thought about how he felt when he read that he’d never slept with her.

“How far did you get?” He sat down on the bed next to me.

“The miscarriage.”

He laughed and shook his head. “Yeah, the jokes on me! I can’t believe it. I feel like a fucking fool, Will. I knew I wouldn’t have slept with her.”

I grabbed his hand and traced the palm with my fingertips. “She needs to pay for this.”

“Don’t stoop to her level. You’re not that person, Willow.”

“I, at least, need to tell my parents. They should know what she’s capable of. If she has this much animosity towards me, I can’t imagine what she’s planning on doing to them. They don’t deserve it either.”

He played with my hand, before looking right at me. “Let me ask you something. She writes about things she overheard your parents saying. Is there a chance that maybe they treated you differently?”

I shrugged. “I guess she could have perceived it that way. I mean, I always got praise for my hard work, but it was only so that I would continue to do well. I think they did it to make her try harder. They’d never pick favorites like she’s saying. It’s ridiculous.”

I didn’t know the person that had wrote in that diary. She wasn’t the sister that I’d loved since birth.

“We need to head back today.”

I nodded. “Okay. I know you have to get back to work.”

He smiled and leaned over to kiss me slowly on the lips. “I don’t want to go anywhere, but the longer this goes on, the worse it’s going to get. She’s up to something. She wouldn’t have gone to extremes to get you here if she weren’t. We need to be prepared, Willow.”

“For what? What can she possibly do to us?” I didn’t understand. I got that they had to get a divorce, but what wasn’t he telling me?

“Willow, I’ve been married to your sister for four years. At first it was just an arrangement, but at some point, before I knew what she’d done, we tried to build a relationship. We…we did what married people do.” He looked so disappointed in himself.

“Stosh, I know. I don’t hate you for that. You did what you thought was the right thing.” Just the thought of him being intimate with her made me cringe. It wasn’t anything new. I’d thought they were together after Prom. For some reason this was a little easier to take. “It doesn’t change the way I feel about you. I’ve been with other people, too. If we’re going to be together, we need to live for the future and leave the past behind us.”

He stood up and started walking around the room, scratching his head. “I want to be with you. I just don’t see it being easy. Have you even considered what our parents are going to say? Ivy will make them all hate us. Are you willing to give up your parents to be with me?”

I opened my mouth to answer, but my cell phone started to ring.

We both looked at each other. “It’s her. What do I say?”

“She doesn’t know I have the diary. You have to make her think everything is fine. Tell her you’re miserable.”

I let it ring four times before I picked up.

Hello?

Will, it’s me. How are things going?

I guess they’re fine. He sat me down last night and talked about us not being on the same page. I guess you were right when you said things weren’t good.

Well, what did you say? Did you tell him you still want to be together?

Of course. He drank a few beers and passed out. I guess he didn’t want to talk about it anymore.

Stosh was in the corner winking at me. I could hardly contain myself from laughing.

Change of plans, sis. I need you to do whatever it takes to get him back in good graces with me. I don’t care how far you have to go. Do you get what I’m saying?

You want me to sleep with your husband? What if he doesn’t want to sleep with me?

I had to cover the phone so she couldn’t hear me laughing. Stosh got down on his knees and started kissing my inner thighs.

Jesus! When do you guys get back?

Today.

I have hot outfits in my dresser. Seduce him tonight. I can’t lose him, do you understand?

Yeah, I get it. I just don’t think I can go through with something like that. I can’t just sleep with someone for the hell of it.

Please!
She started to cry.
I wouldn’t ask if I wasn’t desperate. I am hoping to be back in two days.

Just hurry up. I should have never agreed to this.

I will be back as soon as I can.

I tossed the phone on the bed after she’d hung up. “She thinks we haven’t been together, but she wants me to try and sleep with you.”

He kissed my neck. “You don’t have to try. I’d give you anything.”

“Aren’t you curious to know where the hell she’s at? What kind of wife wants someone else to sleep with their husband? She claims to know how we felt about each other, but she’s purposely pushing us together. Do you think she’s had a change of heart? Maybe she’s trying to make it up to us?”

He stopped kissing me and placed the palm of his hand on my cheek. “I doubt it. You need to read the rest of the diary. You need to know everything, even if parts of it hurt you even more. I don’t want secrets between us”

“What are you talking about? Why would I be mad at you?”

He picked up the diary and kissed me on the top of the head. “Just remember that I’ve only ever truly loved you. The words mean nothing without the actions.”

He left me sitting there, wondering what was happening. I was more afraid to open the book than ever before.

Feb 11
^th

Things have finally calmed down. My friends have gone off to college and I’m stuck in marriage hell. I can tell he’s as miserable as me. He puts on a fake smile and pretends to be happy, but I know a liar when I see one.

I can’t go back to my parents, so I need to do whatever it takes to make him happy. It’s time I started trying to be a real wife.

Feb 14
^th

I gave Stosh the best night of his night. He’s sleeping like a baby next to me. I know he liked it, because he went down on me for a good half hour. He couldn’t get enough of my sweet pussy. At least he’s good at something. I wish my stupid sister didn’t delete her Facebook page. I’d love to rub that shit right in her face.

She says she met someone and they’re serious. Who knows with her? I guess I don’t’ care anymore anyway. I stole the guy. He’s eating out of the palm of my hand. As long as he’s willing to do what he did last night. I think this arrangement can work out.

March 26
^th

Stosh took me out to my favorite restaurant. For the past month, we’ve been a real couple. I think he’s really falling for me and maybe I’m falling for him too. I can see why Will loved him. He’s kind and generous and well endowed. Good thing he’s all mine.

April 7
^th

We talked about getting pregnant again. I think I’m ready. We’ve been so happy and I know we can make a beautiful family. I’d never pick favorites with my own children. Stosh will be a great father. I’m so in love with him.

She didn’t write anything until that following June.

June 13
^th

We took the test this morning. He held me in his arms until both lines filled that little stick. It’s too soon to tell the family, but I’ve never been happier. Maybe all I needed was to feel loved. I know I was wrong for the way I stole him away, but I don’t regret it. He’s everything to me.

I was vomiting in my mouth reading about her devotion to Stosh, so I ignored the next few months.

Sept 1
^st

We spent the night in the hospital. The doctor said there was nothing he could do. Our baby is gone and my chances of having another baby are slim to none. He suggested we look into other options for conceiving. Maybe this is what I get for being an awful person. Maybe I don’t deserve to be a mother.

Stosh is a mess. I saw him crying when I was supposed to be asleep. He wanted that baby. He wanted our baby. My heart is broken. I just wanted us to be able to love something together. I wanted to give him something that nobody else could.

I never even knew she was pregnant again. How sad! I had to skip a few months to read anything worth mentioning.

Dec 24
^th

I found out that Willow isn’t coming home for Christmas. Part of me actually wanted to spend time with her. It’s a shame that I don’t want her around Stosh. I don’t’ trust her with him. She’s had too much time to think about what she wants. What if she wants my husband? I’d kill her before I let her touch him. He’s mine! She’ll never have him! NEVER!

I had to take a break. I was both disgusted and enraged. My sister didn’t know what love was. My heart hurt when I read about her miscarriage, but I didn’t feel sorry for her.

I flipped through a few more pages, going almost a year ahead.