Worth the Wait (Sexy Nerd Boys #1) (12 page)

Abby

              I wake up on the couch next to Ethan. We must’ve fallen asleep at some point out here. I look around in a haze trying to tell what time it is. There’s a faint light coming through the windows so it must be extremely early. I get up to go peek in on Lee.

              “Hey,” She says as soon as I open her door.

              “Busted, sorry I thought you’d be asleep. It’s really early,” I admit in a whisper so that I don’t wake Ethan. Plus, somehow it seems wrong to talk at normal volume before the sun is fully up.

              “It’s okay. You can come in if you want,” She offers.

I step in and close the door behind me. I climb into bed beside her and pull her into a hug.

              “Do you want to talk about it?” I ask. She nods her head but doesn’t say anything. A tear slides down her face silently. It suddenly registers that I consider Lee to be my closest friend, but I’ve kept so many things from her.

              “I don’t know what to say, I feel like it was my fault for going upstairs with that creep to begin with,” Lee admits, silent tears streaking down her cheeks. 

“I was raped,” I whisper.

Lee's eyes grow wide at my confession but she still doesn’t say anything.

“It was my boyfriend when I was in high school. It, uh, started small with him forcing me to give him hand jobs when I didn’t want to. Then, I just felt so gross about the whole sex thing that I really wasn’t into the idea of being touched by him or anyone else. Eventually, he started forcing me to have sex with him. Even if I would cry and tell him to stop, he never would. Sometimes he would hit me if I cried too much.” Tears are rolling down both of our faces now. “He’s dead now, he died in a car crash last year.”

“I’m so sorry that happened to you,” She gives me a hug.

I feel so much lighter now it’s out in the open. I thought telling people would make it worse, and in a way it
is
more real, but I also feel so much better knowing Ethan and Lee are here to support me.

“I was upset last night so I drank too much. Then that guy, Brad, approached me and started flirting with me. I don’t know what I was thinking when I agreed to go upstairs with him. We started kissing and fooling around. I wasn’t into it so I told him to stop, but he climbed on top of me and held me down. He wasn’t going to stop,” Lee explains, her voice quivering.

“I’m so glad Ethan and I found you when we did.”

“Thank you,” She whispers.

“So why were you upset in the first place?”

“There’s something I haven’t been honest with you about,” Lee admits apprehensively. “Nikki and I aren’t just friends, she’s my...girlfriend.”

“I know sweetie, it’s been obvious since we first met that you like girls,” I tell her with a smile. “And, Ethan and I both love you anyway. We don’t give a shit, and we’ve both been hoping you and Nikki would get together because you’re so perfect for each other.”

“So my sexual orientation is the world's worst kept secret?”

“Pretty much.”

“Well, now I feel even more stupid. Nikki and I had a fight yesterday because she’s been pushing me to make our relationship public. She doesn’t want to hide it. That’s what I love so much about her, she is so confident and honestly doesn’t care what people have to say. But, I told her I wasn’t ready, and we fought, and you know the rest.”

“Whoa,
love
?” I pick up on the key adjective.

“Ugh, I don’t know. I think so,” Lee blushes.

“Well, I hope she deserves you because you’re a catch.”

“She does, the question is whether or not I deserve her,” She sighs. “So, since we’re in a sharing mood please tell me what’s going on between you and Ethan because the curiosity is killing me. And, please spare me any details he is my brother after all.”

“Nothing really,” I shrug. Lee pins me with a look that says she’s going to disembowel me if I don’t fess up. “Okay, we had sex.”

“Ew. Go on.”

“And that’s it. I don’t know. I mean, we agreed not to put any sort of label on things and we’re not exclusive or anything.”

“Oh please, you are blind if you don’t see that he is absolutely in love with you.”

“What? No way. He doesn’t even believe in love or relationships. And, after everything with me I think it’s better to just keep things casual. Besides I have a lot on my plate right now, I’m going to be applying to med school soon and I can’t afford to lose focus on my classes and applying to med school soon. I’ve given up a lot in order to have the future I want, it would be unfair to...myself...if I lost focus now.” I stumble over my words, almost coming out and saying the one thing I
never
say. The one thing I never even think about.

My blood runs cold as the thoughts surface and I shove them down deep again. Lee gives me a curious look, catching my sudden discomfort.

“I’m just rambling. It’s too early and I haven’t had coffee, yet. Also, you’re bother scrambled my brain with the hot sex,” I lie in the most reassuring way I can.

“Ick. Okay, stop talking.”

Aversion success. A soft knock at the door makes us both jump and then start laughing. Ethan peeks his head in.

“Sorry, am I interrupting girl talk?” He teases with a smile.

A look of concern flashes through his eyes as his gaze lands on Lee. She gets up and wraps him in a hug. Hushed words pass between them that I can’t hear before he kisses the top of her head and shoots me a smile.

“I have to head out for work, I’ll see you later?” He says.

I nod and wave at him.

As soon as he’s gone Lee and I settle on the couch with steaming mugs of coffee.

“So, what am I going to do about Nikki?” Lee asks with a desperate whine in her voice.

“I would say that if you want to be with her, then you need to get over your fears about being ‘out’. And prove to her you’re willing to be public with your relationship.”

“I don’t know if I can,” she says staring into her coffee like it holds all of the secrets to life.

“I know it’s hard, but I think you have to decide which scares you more being openly gay or being without Nikki,” These words of wisdom from my lips actually surprise me. I know as much about relationships as Gordon Ramsey knows about anger management.

Lee lets out a sigh and chews on her bottom lip.

“Anyone who matters in your life won’t give two shits if you date girls, I promise you.” I set my coffee down and wrap her in a tight hug. “I love you Lee, no matter what.”

“I love you too.”

Ethan

Lee: meet us out tonight, I need to talk to you and I need your support for something

Ethan: of course, see you when I get off work

I read Lee's message several times trying to decide if I should be worried about her after everything that happened last night. I text Abby to see if she knows any more about how Lee is doing.

Ethan: Is Lee ok?

Red: Better than ok

Red: I am so fucking horny today, I can’t wait to see you tonight ;)

Damn it now I have a hard on at work and a goofy fucking grin on my face that I can’t get rid of.

“Girlfriend?” Asher asks with a knowing look. I punch him lightly on the shoulder.

“Not quite man,” I shake my head and bite back what I really want to say, which is: ‘I fucking wish’.

“Well if she’s special enough to hold your attention for this long you should probably lock that shit down before other guys start to realize what she has to offer.”

“I’m working on it,” I laugh.

Ethan: you’re a naughty girl getting me all riled up while I’m at work, I think you’re going to need a spanking later

Red: I love when you talk dirty to me, it makes me so wet

Mother of god she has got to be kidding me with this. I look around to see if there are any customers getting ready to come up to the register. The store is empty and Asher is all the way over in the mystery section stocking books. I decide I can risk a few minutes of torture.

Ethan: what else makes you wet baby?

Red: your tongue on my pussy, I love the way you devour me until I come in your mouth

Ethan: your pussy is so fucking sweet. Here’s my secret for the day: I’ve jerked off to the thought of eating your pussy too many times to count since the first time we met

Red: god, that’s hot

Ethan: see you tonight baby ;)

Abby

              I r
eally
hate karaoke night.

              “You’re lucky I love you so much,” I inform Lee with a longing look at the bar.

I wish people would hurry up so I can get some booze in me to make listening to drunk people singing off key more bearable.

              “I know you hate this. But it’s the perfect way to show Nikki I’m ready. Oh, there’s Ethan. Ethan!” Lee waves Ethan over and we all edge over to a table that was just vacated.

              “Hey Sis,” Ethan gives Lee a kiss on the cheek before making his way to my side. “Hey there you beautiful, naughty, tease. My dick has been hard all day because of you,” he accuses playfully.

I look up and hold his gaze before running my tongue along my lower lip. He groans and pulls me closer.

              “Hey, whoa, before you two kids start going at it like bunnies I do need to talk to you,” Lee pleads.

Ethan takes a deep breath and a step back in order to give his sister his full attention. My heart swells a little at his attentiveness to her.

              “Okay, what’s up?” There’s concern in his gaze as he waits for Lee to say what she has to say.

I nod at her encouragingly.

              “Ethan, I’m a lesbian,” She blurts out anxiously.

Ethan’s whole face breaks out into a huge smile and he darts around the table to pull Lee into a bear hug.

“You still love me?” She whispers incredulously.

              “Lee, I’ve known you liked girls since you were in elementary school. Of course I still love you. I just hope Nikki is treating you well.”

              “I love you,” She starts to cry against his shoulder. “I was stupid to be so afraid.”

              “Lee, I’m dying to know your plan to win Nikki back. How do you know she’ll even be here?” I ask once Lee stops crying.

              “She always comes to karaoke night, it’s her favorite. The first time we talked was at a karaoke night. Nikki sang ‘I kissed a girl’. She was so sexy and confident I couldn’t keep my eyes off of her. Afterward she came over to my table and bought me a drink and we started talking and then we kissed,” She explains. “So I’m going to sing a song just for her.”

              “Starting off our Karaoke night tonight is Lee Hodge singing ‘your love is my drug’ by Ke$ha,” The announcer declares over the loudspeaker.

Ethan gives Lee one more kiss on the cheek and an encouraging smile before she makes her way to the stage.

              “This song is for my one and only, the love of my life, Nikki,” She says before the music starts.

I get on my tip toes and strain to see Nikki in the crowd. I catch sight of her near the bar, she whips her head around to face the stage.

Lee starts to belt out the lyrics, her eyes fixed on Nikki the entire time. Before she even reaches the chorus Nikki hauls herself onto the stage and cuts Lee off with a heart stopping kiss. The crowd goes wild.

              “God, I’m so happy for her,” I lay my head against Ethan’s shoulder with a contented sigh.

              He pulls me against him.

“Well, I don’t think we’re needed here any longer, please let me take you home now,” He half pleads.

Warmth spreads through my chest and I nod as I entwine our fingers and pull him towards the door.

              As soon as Ethan has his apartment door closed he fixes me with a predatory look that gives me goose bumps. His mouth claims mine ravenously like he needs to taste my lips before he can live another second. His tongue tangles with mine and he knots his hands in my hair.

              “Bedroom,” He mutters against my mouth.

              “Wow, you’re awfully sure of yourself aren’t you?” I tease.

He unbuttons my pants and slips a hand inside my lacy panties. I gasp and throw my head back. I’m soaking wet for him. If I’m being honest I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him fucking me soundly since the other night.

              “It sure feels like you want me baby. Am I wrong?” His voice is low and sexy and sends shivers up my spine.

I shake my head and inhale sharply as he runs this middle finger through my drenched folds.

“Say it beautiful,” He instructs.

              “I want you to make me come,” I rasp out and blush.

I clench around his finger and we both let out a low moan.

              “I fucking love it when you blush, it’s so sexy,” He kisses my jaw and then down my throat. I literally purr. Ugh I should kick my own ass for getting so wrapped up in him but I just can’t seem to care right now.

              “Bedroom,” He instructs again.

This time I turn and head towards his room without any token protest.

              His bedroom is extremely clean and the smell of pure man almost knocks me on my ass. It’s weird that all the time we’ve been hanging out and all the times he’s been in my bedroom this is the first time I’ve been in his. His walls are painted dark blue and his comforter is black. Somehow this is so Ethan.

“I want you to strip and then get on my bed on your hands and knees,” His instructions send a shiver up my spine. But I hesitate for a moment. I catch his gaze and stare into his glacial eyes.

“Alright, but I swear if you try to pull any
Fifty Shades of Grey
shit, or try to fuck my ass, you won’t like the outcome,” I warn him.

He chuckles and places a kiss against my temple.

“Duly noted.”

I turn to face him and slowly pull my shirt over my head keeping eye contact with him. Next I shimmy out of my jeans and leave them pooled at my feet. Ethan’s gaze caresses my body as he takes in the sight of me in my lacy red bra and matching thong.

“So beautiful,” He murmurs before claiming my mouth again.

I moan into his mouth and press my body close to his. He slides my bra straps off of my shoulders. I pull away and blink at him seductively.

“I haven’t finished complying with your instructions yet,” I scold him teasingly before pushing him away slightly so I can finish undressing.

I unhook my bra and slide it off and then slip out of my saturated panties and leave all of my articles of clothing on the floor at his feet. I give him a few seconds to eye fuck me before turning my back to him and slinking onto his bed, waiting to see what he has planned for me.

My entire body is taut, a combination of desire and nerves. My position is vulnerable and it scares me until I glance over my shoulder and see the passion and adoration in Ethan's eyes. I am dying for his touch, aching for release that I know he wants to give me. My nerves start to dissipate. I hear him unzip his pants and seconds later I feel the bed dip down as he climbs on. I turn my head to look at him and am met with a firm slap on the ass.

“Hey!” I protest.

“Relax sweetheart a little spanking is the only Christian Grey shit I’ll be pulling. Just trust me, please,” His voice softens at the end and I let out a sigh indicating that he can proceed.

I feel his lips press against the stinging flesh that he just spanked and my stomach flutters a little. Suddenly his soft lips are replaced with a sharp bite and I can’t help but yelp with surprise.

“I’m serious, this ass puts all other asses to shame. It’s not even fair to other women that your ass is this perfect.”

“Are you going to write a sonnet to my ass?” I ask with a laugh.

“There’s that smart mouth again. Don’t you ever play nice, Red?” He asks playfully.

“You love my smart mouth. You especially seemed to love it when you were fucking it the other day,” I counter wiggling my ass, dying to feel him touching me again.

Ethan’s strong hands grip my waist and he pulls my hips and then I feel his tongue running along my aching sex before dipping inside of me. I moan and drop down to bury my face in his pillow, keeping my hips in the air to give him access to my throbbing center because I am done with my sassy comments if he’s going to eat my pussy all night long.

“Wow, I think I’ve actually found a way to get my beautiful, combative girl to stop arguing with me for two seconds,” He teases with another chuckle.

I’m about to nail him with a great comeback, I really was, but then he flicks my clit with his tongue and whatever I was about to say is completely forgotten. He can say whatever he wants as long as he keeps doing that. My legs start to shake as he alternates between sucking my sensitive nub and fucking me with his tongue, doing neither long enough for me to come.                                           “Please...oh...Ethan,” I can’t form coherent sentences as I bite his pillow. He slaps my ass once more and then fucks me with his tongue until I feel the molten ball of heat spreading through my veins and I’m crying out his name repeatedly against his pillow.

Just as the spasms stop I feel his hard cock at my entrance.

“Do you want it?” He asks breathlessly. I whimper and nod my head fervently. “I need to hear you say it sweetheart.”

“Please fuck me,” I push myself back up onto my hands and thrust back into him.

I feel his weight shift as he reaches for his bedside table and pulls out a condom. After a few seconds he returns to his previous position and I wiggle against him again desperately.

“Impatient, beautiful? I already made you come.”

“More,” I rasp out.

He growls and pushes into me sharply. I arch my back and try to catch my breath. I’ve never done it in this position and the sensation is completely different than the last time. I can feel him filling every inch of me, as I stretch to accommodate his massive girth. He holds himself still inside of me and I start shaking all over, waiting for him to thrust into me.

“Please,” is all I manage to gasp.

Ethan’s tongue runs along my spine and I shudder. He slowly pulls out and then thrusts back into me forcefully. I clench around him and push my hips to meet his next plunge. He grips my hips more tightly as we meet each others thrusts with grunts and moans.  I feel the heat building between my legs again. He alternates between deep, hard thrusts and slow, torturous ones.

“Your cock is made of rainbows and sunshine,” I inform him between moans.

He lets out a raucous laugh. He runs his hands over my ass and up my back, thrusting slowly like he doesn’t want to rush this. Then, he pushes on my shoulders to get me to lower them, while keeping my ass firmly in place.

“Holy shit,” I gasp as he achieves deeper penetration. “You deserve some sort of award for sex.”

“Careful Red, you don’t want my ego to get too big,” He warns with a chuckle. Then he reaches one hand around and grazes my clit with his index finger. I bite down on the pillow to stifle my screams.

“Don’t hold back baby,” Ethan instructs, his voice strained with control.

“I’m going to come,” I pant out as heat starts to spread through my body as I begin to clench around him.

He presses harder into my clit with his fingers and I explode with pleasure.

“Ethan, yes,” I cry out as I come apart.             

“So fucking perfect,” He groans as he starts to pulse inside of me.

Ethan

              “So why a doctor?” I ask as I slowly caress the soft skin on Red’s back. I mentally catalogue every freckle and mole and draw hearts with my finger.

              “Um, well it’s kind of personal,” She says sleepily.

I hold my breath for some reason. I just touched every inch of her naked body and the reason she wants to become a doctor is too personal?

“Everyone respects doctors,”  She mutters.

              “That’s not personal,” I accuse quietly.

              “No but the fact that my father was an alcoholic piece of shit is,” She says with acid in her tone.

I stop my doodling on her back and wait for her to continue.

“He told me every day that he thought I was a worthless piece of shit and would never amount to anything. I don’t think anyone would ever call a doctor a worthless piece of shit, do you?”

              “Sweetheart, whether you become a doctor or not you are anything but a worthless piece of shit. You are the most amazing woman I’ve ever met. You are smart as hell, willful, funny, and god damn sexy. Anyone who says otherwise can eat my fist,” I kiss her shoulder and she laughs.

              “I-” She looks at me and I see something in her eyes that makes my heart leap. She presses her lips to mine quickly instead of finishing whatever it was she was going to say. “I have a really early class so I’m going to go home and go to bed. I’ll see you tomorrow?”

              “Of course,” I try to hide my disappointment. “Good night baby.”