Hold My Hand (12 page)

“Yes. Please, please,
please.” I chanted. I offered this benediction as a prayer for
release.

William pushed my knees even
further apart, spread me wide and slammed into me. The dark look in
his eyes terrified me, the ferocity of his clenched jaw and the
sharp planes of his face pulled in his own sweet agony. I wanted to
look away but I didn’t dare to disobey him. He was my key to this
need being fulfilled.

The pressure, the invasion
of his thick shaft as he thrust even harder made me frantic. I was
so close now and I had his permission. With one more long thrust, I
came apart – there’s no other way to describe what happened to me
in that moment. I closed my eyes, lights firing under my lids, and
flew into pieces. If William weren’t holding me, I might not have
landed safely but he was. He held me until I came back to him.

When finally I opened my
eyes again, he was watching me with the most appallingly victorious
grin on his beautiful face but I knew the truth – I was the
victor.

*****

I woke again to the most
delicious sensation. This time the room was full of light. There
was warm breath on my neck and a warm, naked body covered me.
William’s cock was hard, its full length stabbed at my stomach.
When I made a move to adjust myself, his hand on my leg stayed
me.

“Don’t move. I want you just
like this.”

He entered me slowly, eyes
locked on mine, hands fastened on my hips to hold them down.
William pushed forward slowly –ever so slowly– and I could only
wait for my fill. I was held down so completely, there was nowhere
for me to go. The pressure inside my core built steadily. He was
thick and the slow movements caused feelings of closeness to
blossom.

I felt more of William in
this position, nearly all of his muscular body against me. I could
smell his scent. I wanted, no, I needed more. I lifted my hips as
much as possible, just a nudge to find the right spot. William
applied more pressure and I rubbed against him.

“Do not move.” His slow but
stern command pulled me up short. I closed my eyes to center myself
but a pinch to my nipple caused them to open. “And keep your eyes
open.”

William bent to take my
nipple in his mouth and soothed the sting of his pinch, only to
pinch the other and soothe it just the same. Over and over. Each
time with more pressure, he toyed with my breasts. I felt the sting
of tears just as he released my peaks from his fingers and lapped
them with his wet tongue. I pushed against him as the pressure
sought to drag me under.

I felt the absence of his
lips on my breast before I realized he draped my body over his lap.
He moved. Oh God, he carried me across the room without me even
feeling the movement. I had been so lost to the sensation.

“You earned a punishment, my
little elf. Since it’s your first, it’ll be across my knee so you
can be close to me and know you’re safe.” He was now sitting on the
chair in the corner of the room but I could only see the
floorboards beneath where my hands were rested.

“W-what are you going to do
to me?” My voice was high-pitched as I craned my neck around to
look for his eyes. In the short time we’d been together, I’d come
to rely on his expressions to regulate my own.

“I’m exacting your
punishment as we’ve already agreed on.” His hand rubbed along the
cheeks of my bottom. And if that wasn’t enough, he wedged his hand
between my thighs and wiggled his fingers until he found that small
bundle of nerves. “You will not come during a punishment. Remember
I told you punishments hurt because they require a lesson.”

Even as he spoke, he was
stroking my engorged clit. The blood was rushing to it, causing the
little bundle to pulse with need. I was once again embarrassed,
knowing he could feel the cream of my pussy as a sign of how his
actions turned me on.

William moved his finger
faster and faster still; bringing me closer to that place he called
orgasm. I called it ecstasy, the release I’d experienced now twice
at his hands. I would happily remain forever at his mercy for such
ecstasy. Dangling across his lap as I was, I felt dizzy and
lightheaded, so close to my edge, moans escaped from my throat and
I clenched to hold them back, embarrassed still that this was
turning me on. He had just informed me that I’d receive a
punishment and yet my body melted into his touch.

“You will follow my every
instruction while in bed. I asked you to do just two things. Keep
your eyes open and not move. You failed at both.” William’s stern
accusation lashed me. I wanted him to be happy with me. It was all
that I craved. I wanted that moment we were in before he laid me
across his lap.

‘I’m sorry sir,” I whispered
against his leg.

“I know but this will be a
reminder the next time. Every morning you’re in my bed will begin
the same and I ask just those two things. Remind me what they are.”
His voice was cold and dredged the regret for my actions from
somewhere deep inside me.

“Keep my eyes open, on you
and be still, sir,” I squeaked the words out while working
diligently to hold back my tears. The swell of both dread and
desire were this jumbled mess inside me.

Then everything found its
center as his heavy hand struck my bottom. I yelped, more surprised
than hurt. It was a sharp strike but not terribly unpleasant and I
thought then that this was something I could handle. I was relieved
and took a deep breath, holding it as I waited for the next
slap.

The second strike came
across the opposite cheek and then the third before I’d had a
chance to recover. My body was quaking with a sharp pleasure and a
gripping, whirling sensation converged in my center. Feelings as I
had never known formed a vortex inside me. I moved my arms to get
balance, looking for purchase, lost in this moment where escape
seemed necessary. Yet even still, my traitorous ass moved towards
his palm seeking more.

I felt his large muscular
arm across my back holding me in place. I concentrated on his
strength and allowed it to filter into me. I felt his hard cock
pressing into my belly as he anchored me across his lap with his
firm muscular arm. I was completely his in this moment, to do with
as he pleased, and I’d never felt freer.

His hand continued to
deliver my punishment. His smacks rained down on me. They burned
and delighted at the same time. The squeals I once made now sounded
more like moans as I began to yearn more earnestly for more. My
pussy was clenching, the bud William called my clit pulsed harder
still, and I was defeated. My body was a traitor. I should’ve felt
nothing but revulsion and yet I wanted to scream out for more.

“The last five will be
stronger. It’ll be more difficult for you now but I know you can be
brave, little elf,” William soothed me both by word and by the soft
stroking of his hand over my reddened cheeks.

I shuddered at his words,
too many emotions raced through my mind to think straight, and then
I found comfort in his gentle touches along my back and bottom. I
felt myself float before an enormous wave swelled up against me.
William’s hand struck my ass with such authority; it pulled me
under. I surfaced only to feel the wave again immerse me and pull
me under. I lost count but it didn’t seem to matter. I simply
floated in this ocean where I was free from everything.

I felt a pull as William
sunk his fingers into me. His dark chuckle told me he’d discovered
my arousal. Cream dripped along my inner thighs and soaked
William’s fingers. I was aroused from my spanking. It made every
filthy thought I had about myself ring true. I should repulse him
but my reaction seemed to delight him. Though I had these thoughts,
they were somewhere just out of reach as if I was still floating in
my ocean and watching.

Abruptly he sat me on his
lap. Startled by the soreness in my bottom, I jumped but he held
onto me by taking my hip in one hand and my chin in the other. “You
enjoyed that.” His eyes were shining, large and bright, only to
shutter and grow dark. “Little elf, I believe you may have nearly
reached sub-space.”

“
I’m sorry, sir.” So
ashamed, I felt the humiliation to my toes. My body betrayed me. I
was everything I hadn’t wanted to be.
You will be a heathen reading such dirty things.
There’s no helping you now.

William’s laugh was
unbelievably loud. It grabbed me from my thoughts and I shuddered.
“You are amazing. Don’t apologize for being perfect.” There was no
time for my shock to settle in before William lifted me directly
onto his shaft. Leaning back with his hands behind his neck, he
directed me, “Ride me.”

“I – I don’t know how. I – I
don’t know what you mean.”

“
Use your legs to move
up and down. Your reward for taking your punishment is that you now
get to control this fucking.” He placed his hands on my hips and
began the motion he wanted for me to maintain. “Slowly for now
until you’re accustomed to this new position.”

I continued this same slow
movement. With my legs wrapped around his hips, sitting above him,
his shaft was deeper inside me than it had been before. I trembled
when his cock pushed up against a wall inside me and pulled
immediately out. The abrupt sensation caused me to shiver and I
rolled my head back, closing my eyes and relaxing. William would
have nothing to do with that.

“Look at me. Open your eyes
and keep them on mine. Always on mine.” His command was mine to
fulfill. I silently lashed myself for already forgetting this
simple rule.

“Touch yourself. Stroke your
clit lightly.” His command was again mine to fulfill. I knew only
that I must follow it. He compelled me to do so. I wanted so much
to please him, for him to be pleased by me.

William may have declared me
in control but I was no fool. He was controlling me with his words,
his eyes, and his touch. Does he know this? Was it only an illusion
he wanted to create for me? It didn’t matter to me right now. I’d
do anything for this man. I knew this already as if I’d known it
for all time, just as I knew that allowing for his control would
ultimately benefit me. His control allowed me this freedom I was
beginning to feel. Despite my uncertainty, I continued to move
towards William and away from my past.

My fingers stroked over my
clit, obediently following his directions. When William smiled at
me, I knew I’d earned that smile. My pace picked up – my legs
brought me up and down faster on his cock. My fingers worked at my
clit in quicker strokes. Pleasure started out in small vibrations
and built, centering in this nerve center. It was nearly too much
to see him watching me pleasure myself.

“Sir, I need to come.”

“You may, little elf. Come
all over my cock. And then you will clean me.”

His words were the final
incentive I needed. Bowing into his chest, my fingers found
purchase in the sweaty hair scattered on his muscular chest as I
bent to press my clit against him. I came hard. Surrendering to the
sensations, I cried out my release as William loved, vocalizing my
pleasure for his pleasure.

In those next moments as my
reality returned, my eyes brimmed with tears. I recalled the
spanking, my arousal. My embarrassment flamed in my cheeks as I
attempted to hide myself from William. I wanted nothing less than
to burrow into a hole. Shame flashed through me once more. I
couldn’t shake it and I looked everywhere but at William as my body
began to cool and my sensibility rebounded.

“No hiding. You aren’t
finished yet.” William’s stern voice snapped me to attention. He
adjusted me, pulling me up so his cock was released from within me.
Then he guided me to sit between his legs. “Clean me with your
tongue.”

I moved my eyes from his
cock to his face, contemplating what he was asking of me. “But
it’s…”

“
Who is in
charge?”

“You, sir.” I mumbled.

“Then do as I say. Or I
might start thinking you like being punished after all.” He paused
and we stared at one another before William quirked an eyebrow and
continued, “Or perhaps I’ll think you aren’t truly committed to
this, to us.” The smirk on his face angered me. Despite knowing he
was likely baiting me for a reaction, I also recognized that my
struggle amused him.

I refused to fail him. I
bent my head to his cock, keeping my eyes on his face even as I
took my first taste, my first lick, and shuttered. Different from
the first time I took William in my mouth, our juices were now
mixed together to create a blend unique to us. William and Aubrey.
That simple thought grabbed hold of me as I pulled him fully into
my mouth and sucked deeply.

I felt power as his thigh
muscles tensed and I heard his deep inhale and groan. Smiling at my
small victory, I licked up and down his shaft until the only
wetness was my own saliva. Our taste was still on my tongue. I
prayed it would stay a long while for me to remember this moment
with William, this time when I felt cherished.

“Come to me.” He pulled me
up by my arms and cradled me into his chest. His tongue licked at
my lips to separate them. “I want to taste us.”

I opened to him as my body
trembled with the intimacy of such an act. I shook my head and
moaned as his tongue licked over my teeth and tangled with my
tongue. He sucked on my tongue and as if they were linked, my
nipples turned to hard, sensitive pebbles. Already, I wanted him
again. I burrowed in closer into him and my nipples rasped against
the hair on his chest. I ground myself into him only to feel him
pull away.

“You need a break. And we
need to talk about what we’ve done.” William smiled at me but shook
his head. “I could so easily be persuaded to stay in this bed with
you all day but no, we need to talk first.”