My Body-His (30 page)

“
Oh fuck me hard, fuck me hard … that feels so
good,” I said as he continued to slam into me.

“
Your ass looks so good and your pussy is so
wet for me. Your big swollen nipples are so hard. Tell me when
you’re getting close,” he said as he bit my neck.

I could feel his panting against my shoulder and his
sweat against my back. “I’m already close,” I called out, gripping
the left side of the desk with my free hand.

“
Okay, babe, it’s time! Cum with me,” he roared
out as he slammed against me harder than before, forcing my hips
against the edge of the desk.

I frantically rubbed my pussy, cumming with him as we
both collapsed.

I laughed, “Goddamn, where did that come from?” I
wondered how many more pieces of furniture we would be
christening.

He laughed with me as we both tried to catch our
breath and slow our racing hearts. He pushed himself off me,
swatted my ass and said, “You are fucking amazing. I love you so
much, Soon To Be Mrs. Hall.” He pulled me to my feet and wrapped me
in his arms. “I would love to crawl in bed with you and take a nap
but I really want my office set up before tomorrow.”

“
Maybe we can try the kitchen next time,” I
said as he pulled on his jeans. I swatted his butt as he left my
writing room.

He leaned back in the doorway and said, “That’s a
great idea! There are a lot of spatulas in there.”

“
Luke!” I pouted, but this time he headed back
to his office.

* * * *

The deliveries began by ten. Men were out on the
beach setting up a tent for tomorrow and other men covered the pool
with a wooden dance floor. I still hadn’t heard from Sandy. Parker
had agreed to be my backup maid of honor. She felt sure Sandy would
come through but I had my doubts.

I had such mixed feelings about our upcoming
nuptials. I couldn’t wait to be Mrs. Luke Hall but I could wait
forever to walk down the aisle in front of my mother and friends. I
could barely breathe for the whole day leading up to the
wedding.

I sat and watched the workers transform the back of
the house. I couldn’t focus enough to write down my thoughts and
feelings. If only I knew whether Sandy would show up and support me
through it …. Finally I gave in and picked up the phone.

“
Hi Jason,” I said when I heard his voice on
the other end of the line.

“
She’s not here,” he said.

“
Oh ….” I said.

“
We will be there, Jane,” Jason said, to my
utter relief.

“
She hasn’t called and—”

“
Yeah, I know. She’s being a bit stubborn but
she’ll be there. We’ll be there to support you. We don’t get your
choices but as I’ve told Sandy repeatedly, we don’t need to. We
just need to support you in the choices that you make because we
love you.”

“
Jason, if you were here I’d give you a big
hug. Thank you so much. It’s such a relief to know you’ll both be
here.”

“
Wouldn’t miss it, Jane. How often does one get
invited to a wedding where a beautiful woman marches down the aisle
naked? This is a once in a lifetime opportunity.” He laughed. “No
way I’m missing it.”

On the day of the wedding, I awoke in a panic. In my
last dream there were hundreds of people in attendance and I had to
walk past all of them. I breathed a sigh of relief that it was only
a dream.

After my morning ritual, I settled myself on the
couch by the window. When I looked out back I saw a gazebo on the
beach and men arranging chairs behind it. One man came around back
with an additional set of chairs on a hand cart.

“
Luke!” I said, yelling toward the back of the
house. My dream was manifesting before my eyes.

He stuck his head out of his office and said, “Give
me a sec.”

I never considered that anyone other than the people
I had invited would attend the wedding.
Fuck, shit, fuck
, I
thought.

“
What is it?” he said, waltzing up behind
me.

I knelt on the couch, gazing out the back window.
“How many?” I said without looking at him.

“
We’re expecting fifty guests.”

“
Fifty? Fifty! Motherfucker!”

“
Janey,” he said, touching my
shoulder.

“
Don’t,” I said, moving away from him. “Did it
ever occur to you to tell me you had invited an additional
forty-four people to our wedding? What happened to the small
wedding we were going to have? Fuck, Luke.” My hands had clenched
into fists.

“
Jane, honey, you never asked. Come on, babe,
it’s going to be fine. Come here,” he said, pulling me toward
him.

“
No Luke. NO! This is supposed to be the
happiest day of my life and you decide it would be a good idea to
hide the fact that—”

“
Wait a minute, Jane, I’ve hidden nothing. All
you had to do was ask besides you still owe me for being clothed at
the little get-together at our apartment.”

“
So you thought our wedding was a good time for
that to come due? You should have told me. I didn’t know there was
anything to ask you. You led me to believe ….”

“
I did nothing of the kind. You left the
wedding for me to plan and plan it I did. You made no specific
requests. These are all the people I want you to meet anyway and
some you already know.”

“
Does it not register in your brain that I
might not want to meet ALL your business associates and friends
naked as the day is long?”

“
You need to check the way you’re talking to
me, Jane, because I will not tolerate your disrespect. You would
meet them that way eventually when they came by the
house.”

“
You can’t be equating meeting them one by one
over time with meeting them en masse on my wedding day. You must be
the most insensitive man I’ve ever met.”

I had hopped down off the couch and was moving away
from Luke when he clutched my arm. “Wait, Jane,” he said. “I don’t
want us to get married when we’re fighting.”

“
You might have thought about that sooner than
right the fuck now, don’t you think?”

“
Jane, you’re pushing it with me.”

“
Well, Luke,” I said, “you’ve pushed it with
me. It was one thing to be naked in front of my people and or even
a small gathering of your friends but a whole other thing to be
greeting all of your associates naked and exposed. I don’t know
what I was thinking but I’ve made a huge mistake. You don’t know me
at all. Who the hell was I kidding?”

I wrenched my arm out of his hand and ran to my room,
slamming the door. I threw myself onto the overstuffed chair in the
corner of my writing space and wept. I hated my life in that
moment. I hated every choice I had made up until that second. I
condemned my stupidity and wanted to run away.

Where does one run when they’ve just relinquished
their possessions?
My car was gone, my apartment, everything I
owned, gone.

Time passed amid endless babble and debate with
myself about my lack of judgment. I started when a sudden knock at
the door commanded my attention.

“
Fuck off,” I said.

“
Jane, it’s me,” Parker said.

“
Oh … come in,” I said. I wiped the tears
off of my cheeks the best I could and changed my position on the
chair so my arms covered most of my body.

“
Luke called.”

“
Apparently,” I said.

“
He explained it all to me. Tell me what you
want to do and I’ll make it happen.”

“
You’re not here to talk me into going through
with it?”

“
Is that what you want me to do, because I’ll
do that, if that’s what you need? If you want me to call it off,
I’ll do that, too.”

“
I’m just so damn mad at him right now, I can’t
see straight.”

“
I can understand that. Is it true you left the
planning of the wedding to him and didn’t ask any questions about
it or make any requests?”

“
Yes but—”

“
Seems like you’re starting married life with a
great need to learn better communication.”

“
Are you saying you think I should go through
with it?”

“
Do you love him?”

“
Yes, I do.”

“
Is this something you can get past? Because
Jane, today’s the day. Luke doesn’t strike me as the kind of man
who will reschedule, if you know what I mean. So it’s all or
nothing. Tell me what you want.”

I could always count on Parker to tell it like is.
She had my back, whichever way I wanted to go.

“
How do I get past this?” I said.

“
You forgive him. That’s all there is to it. Go
talk to him so we can get you cleaned up and ready for your big
day. Luke planned a spa day for us and we’re due in thirty
minutes.”

I walked to Luke’s office and as soon as he saw me he
took me in his arms and said, “I’m sorry, Janey.” He pushed my hair
behind my left ear and continued, “I really wasn’t trying to
surprise you. I should have realized. I’ve just been so focused on
making this day perfect for us that I was probably being a bit
myopic. Can you forgive me so we can get back on track to having
the most wonderful day of our lives?”

“
You owe me,” I said. I tried to stay mad but a
smile tilted the corners of my mouth upward.

“
Oh, and I will pay you back in spades, love. I
have a lifetime to make it up to you.” He lowered his mouth over
mine and I accepted the path I had embarked upon.

“
I’m glad you called Parker,” I
said.

“
So am I,” he said and I knew he meant
it.

* * * *

The time at the spa with Parker relaxed me in the
exact way that I needed. Luke had taken care of everything. We
received full body massages, facials, manicures and pedicures. I
felt buffed and shined for the wedding.

By the time we got back to the house the caterers had
arrived and the kitchen was a hotbed of activity. Staff worked to
set up a bar by the pool and a long buffet table. I could see birds
of paradise in vases leading to the gazebo on the beach and gold
tablecloths dancing in the wind atop the tables surrounding the
pool.

I removed my clothes by the door without much
thought. Luke must have warned the staff because no one took much
notice of me.

“
Do you always do that?” Parker said to
me.

“
Yes, always by the door. I get dressed in the
bathroom just before going out. I honestly don’t think about it
anymore. It’s normal for me. Of course, having all these people
running about isn’t.”

Luke walked over to us with a huge smile. “It’s
almost that time,” he said.

I walked straight into his arms and he held me
close.

“
How was the spa?” he asked.

“
Just fabulous,” Parker said. “Anytime you want
to send me along, just say so.”

“
I’ll keep that in mind,” Luke said, chuckling.
“In all seriousness, Parker, I’m indebted to you. Thank you for
being the kind of friend Jane needs and deserves.”

Parker blushed, which I’d never seen before. “Two
amigos, that’s us,” she said. “Jane and I have stuck together for a
long time now. I’m very excited to see her happy. I expect you to
keep her that way.”

“
Consider it done,” Luke said. He turned to me
and said, “It’s time to get you ready.”

“
Oh, I thought I was ready, stark naked and at
your service.”

Both Luke and Parker cracked up and I chuckled along
with them.

I looked back outside and said, “If they’re setting
up the chairs and tables by the pool, what’s the tent for?”

“
Backup, but I have a couple of ideas for
later,” Luke said.

“
Uh oh, should I be worried?” I said,
smiling.

“
Very,” he said. “Now off with you.” He pushed
me toward our bedroom at the front of the house. “Parker, you go,
too. I’m sure she can use your help.”

Parker and I walked down the hall to the bedroom. A
chair had been placed in the middle of the room. I sat in front of
the large mirror on top of the chest of drawers, suddenly all too
aware of being utterly naked.

“
Hi, I’m Karla and I’m here to get you ready,”
she said. “I’m going to do your hair first.”

Dressed in sweat pants and a tank top, Karla had an
all-business demeanor that made her seem older than her plain,
unlined face indicated.

Parker sat on the bed and watched Karla part my hair
in the center and French braid either side on the top. The rest of
it flowed down my back. She connected the two braids behind my head
and I imagined I looked like a hippie chick from the ’60s. She wove
tiny yellow flowers throughout the braids. I felt like a teenager,
not a thirty-five-year-old woman.

“
Okay, please stand up,” Karla told me. “And
can you help for a minute?” she asked Parker.

“
Sure,” Parker said.

Karla handed her a tube of lotion that had a gold hue
to it, and they both began spreading it over my entire body.

“
Bend over please,” Karla said to
me.

I bent over and she proceeded to put the lotion on my
folds and in the space between my butt cheeks.