My Body-His (26 page)

He went into his office and my heart skipped a couple
of beats. I prayed he wouldn’t notice anything out of place. After
dressing quickly, I met him in the living room. He had a camera in
his hands and my heart soared. Forgetting my crimes and
misdemeanors, I danced about on the spot.

He took my hand in his and spun me around and around.
I laughed as I almost lost my balance.

“
Let’s go,” he said. “Grab the
flowers.”

* * * *

At a grocery store we bought wine, cheese, grapes and
bread. He drove east to the beach and pulled into a driveway of a
house right on the shore.

“
Whose place is this?” I asked as I climbed out
of the car. The house had a 1970’s architectural design. The rather
large one-story structure had palm-frond fencing surrounding the
back.

“
A friend’s,” he said.

“
Oh.”

We walked around to the back, which faced the ocean.
A large raised deck was built around a small pool and hot tub.
Settling on a table and chairs at the far end that faced the beach,
we unpacked our groceries and Luke uncorked the wine.

“
You’re prepared,” I said.

“
Always,” he said and smiled. “You’ve made me
extremely happy, Jane. We have much to talk about and much to
celebrate.”

I smiled and tossed a couple of grapes into my mouth.
“Cups?” I asked.

“
Be right back,” he said. He walked into the
house and returned with two wine glasses and a couple of napkins.
He poured us both glasses of Chardonnay.

“
You look beautiful in this light,” he said. He
lifted his camera off the table and took a picture of my
profile.

One picture with my clothes on,
I thought,
smiling and rejoicing until he said, “Undress for me, love.” Fully
engaged in opening the cheeses and tearing off a hunk of bread, he
missed my reaction.

“
Huh?” I said. The house was mostly protected
from the wind by sea grape bushes, but people could still see in if
they looked. I had thought this would be a date, as in the photo
album. There would be pictures of me and Luke with our clothes
on.

He quickly pushed the table forward between us and
seized my arm. His strength continued to amaze me, because he had
yanked me onto his lap in a matter of seconds. He spanked my ass
very hard with an open hand.

“
Were you questioning me, Jane?
Because—”

“
Oh … no … of course not,” I said, quickly
moving to stand up. I disrobed responsively. I covered the bottom
of the chair with my shorts and sat down.

“
Are you sure you want this, Jane?”

“
Yes, please,” I said, but tears filled my
eyes. “Do you love me, Luke?”

“
Very much so, Jane. BUT I have my ways and it
would serve us both if you learned them well.”

“
I know. I’m sorry. I’m trying, really. Truly I
am. I’m so happy to have you back home. When you’re away it’s like
a vital part of me is missing. It’s just, well, everything is going
so fast. You ask a lot of me, Luke. Sometimes I think we’re going
in one direction and the next second it all changes. It’s hard to
keep up.” I wiped the tears off my cheeks and looked at
him.

“
You’ll be freed from all that worry once you
truly turn your body over to me. You’ll never have to worry about
what direction you’re going in because that is my job. You’ll know
I’m there to direct and protect you. Once you truly understand I
only want your happiness and to fulfill your true desires you’ll
relax into us. We are an US, you know. You and me. We are family
now.”

He held out his hand and I walked over to him. He
scooped me into his lap and held me as I cried. I cried for the
life I had turned my back on for the unknown. I cried for the woman
I was becoming and didn’t really know. I cried because I felt
desperate to belong. I wanted a place where I fit in, a place of
safety. I questioned whether he could provide that for me.

“
I’m scared, Luke,” I said as the tears slowed
their course down my cheeks.

“
Baby, I know you are. That’s a normal
reaction. A lot is changing in your life and I’m here to help you
through all of it. Trust in my strength and we’ll get through it
together. I know this is right.”

“
I still have so many questions. The ones you
don’t want to answer. You want me to trust you completely, give
myself over to you but you don’t trust me enough to give me my
answers.”

“
We are at a standstill of sorts. You need me
to become more open for you to give yourself to me and I need for
you to give yourself to me before I can fully open up to you. And
that’s not something that would happen all at once. I’m a very
private person and slow to share myself.”

He placed me on my feet and stood himself.

“
This is not how I planned it but,” he fell to
one knee, “will you marry me?”

So taken by surprise, I screamed, “Yes!” before I had
a chance to even think about it. “Yes, Luke, oh yes! I will marry
you.”

“
We can shop for a ring tomorrow if you’d like.
Let’s commemorate this moment with some pictures of you.” He swung
the camera strap over his shoulder and took the flowers off the
table. Clasping my hand in his, he led me naked to the
beach.

People walked by, and some stopped to watch what was
happening. He had me lie on the sand near the water. After fanning
my hair out around me, he placed a Gerber Daisy behind my ear. Soon
a daisy covered each areola and another, my mound. He lifted my
arms over my head and positioned my legs into sevens. My upper body
leaned to the right while my lower body leaned to the left.

He shot pictures from many different angles,
adjusting my position and switching flowers.

As I lay there I found myself in another world. I
stopped worrying about the onlookers and found a similar space I
found when writing.

Gradually the way Luke posed me became more and more
risqué, and he abandoned the flowers for complete nudity. He asked
a young man watching us to join me. He stood about 5’ 8,” and his
curly blond hair made him very attractive. He was lean and his
tanned muscles rippled throughout his body. Without much prodding,
he stripped off his trunks and lay beside me.

Luke continued to pose us, move us around, move the
flowers in the sand. After what seemed like hundreds of shots he
said, “It’s time for a new location.”

As we walked back toward the house Luke whispered in
my ear, “Trust me, Jane, and remember, your body’s mine …
nothing to think about.”

A chill ran over me and my skin broke out in goose
bumps.
Go along
, I thought.
He wants to marry
you.

Luke moved us over by the pool, away from the opening
in the bushes.

“
Lie down on the lounge chair, arms above your
head,” he told me.

“
Okay,” I said.

Luke removed his belt from his shorts and wrapped it
around my wrists. He fixed the belt to the top of the lounge.

I lay still, looking up at Luke and our new young
friend. My nipples were rigid and ripples of soft wind caressed my
exposed skin. I was turned on and fueled by anticipation. I had
chosen to put my life in someone else’s hands and although it
frightened me, I felt a profound freedom.

Luke spoke to our stranger, who lowered himself at
the far end of the lounge. Luke spread my legs wide and then came
to kneel next to me. I turned to look at him and he stared into my
eyes. He shook his head at the guy and looked back at me.

I felt warm breath and then a tongue on my thigh. The
stranger kissed and nibbled his way up until his tongue lavished my
clit. Luke and I kept eye contact the whole time. I knew this was
for him. I knew that he got real gratification in controlling my
body and my satiation.

Our boy/man did his best, but his style didn’t cause
my desire to grow. Luke looked at me questioningly and I shook my
head. He immediately understood.

“
Stop,” he said. “She doesn’t care for your
technique. This has been fun but it’s time for you to
go.”

“
But ….” the young man said, rising to his
feet. His erection stood prominently in front of him.

Luke made a slight movement, the implied threat
clear. My male model hurriedly snatched his clothes, threw on his
trunks and left.

“
You are amazing,” Luke said to me as he
removed his belt. “Sorry our friend wasn’t as skilled as we would
have liked. How about we go for a swim?”

Luke disrobed and we walked together into the shallow
end of the pool. We sat down on the top step and looked at each
other.

He kissed me deeply, our eyes open. “Do you want a
big wedding?” he asked. “Because I prefer it to be small and
accomplished as quickly as possible.”

“
Yes, please,” I said.

He laughed and lifted me easily onto his lap. “I’ll
make all the arrangements. We can have it here on the beach. We can
talk about who to invite later.”

“
Can I ask you a question?”

“
Sure,” he said with a huge smile.

“
Have you been married before?”

“
No, love, I haven’t,” he said.

“
Good,” I said. My heart soared. I no longer
cared about the website; I no longer cared if I got into his silly
photo album. We would have our own album, not one filled with other
women.

“
Face me,” he said.

I straddled his legs and his hard thick cock
penetrated me.

“
I love how wet you are for me, always. Your
body not only wants me but needs me, babe.” His eyes caressed my
soul as his cock slid in and out of me.

If I could’ve stopped time I would have lived in that
moment forever. I’d never felt such happiness and contentment. I
rejoiced at being filled by another person fully, spiritually, and
emotionally. The bliss flowed through me and out into the universe.
I wanted to scream my joy to everyone. I wanted to wax poetic and
glory in the freedom of my captivity.

Luke kissed me with the expertise he had acquired
with his other women and I ceased to care about them. Each woman
had brought him closer to me and they all lived in the past.
I
am solely his future, me,
I thought.

“
We will have a wonderful life together,” he
said, reading my thoughts.

He lowered his head, breaking our eye contact, to
draw my nipple into his hungry mouth. His pulling and sucking
offered exquisite pressure and pleasure. Taking a fistful of my
chestnut hair, he tilted my head to one side and ravished my neck,
biting and kissing his way from just under my ear to my collarbone.
My groans of lust and gratification filled the warm air as he
applied his lips and tongue to my other protruding nipple. His
suction caused me to cry out while he continued to move his rock
hard phallus against the walls of my pussy. His roar began softly
and, just before he filled me with his cum, his cock expanded and I
moaned my pleasure along with him.

After we both recovered, we swam awhile in the pool.
Neither of us spoke. We remained connected without words. I could
hear the waves from the ocean coming in for the day as Luke held me
in the pool. I lay back in his arms as he swirled me around.

I remembered something my father had told me during
one of his reappearances. He said that for a relationship to remain
healthy, each person needs to stay separate but connected. I
couldn’t put much stock in his relationship advice—he seemed to
struggle with it for himself—but I did wonder. Could Luke and I
stay separate but connected? I didn’t think so. At that moment I
wanted to merge myself into him, letting go of my separate
self.

“
Let’s get out,” Luke said. “I want to show you
the house.” He pulled two towels from a trunk by the pool and used
the first to dry me off. After drying himself off, he took my
hand.

We walked naked through the French doors and into the
house. On the right sat a space for a dinner table with a low light
hanging from the ceiling. Deeper in, to the right, was a kitchen
that could have fit at least three of our kitchens from the
apartment. I admired the black speckled granite countertops and the
stainless steel appliances. Certain my mother would approve of this
house, I laughed a bit.

To the left was a sitting area currently occupied by
a yellow flowered couch. We walked through three empty bedrooms,
each larger than what we currently shared. I wondered why the house
stood mostly empty. The location couldn’t be more ideal for any
beach lover.

“
What do you think of it?” he asked.

“
What’s not to like? It gets great light … it’s
on the beach … it has a big bathroom ….”

“
We could shower and bathe together,” he
said.

“
What do you mean? Now?” I spun around in the
bathroom, which had to be five times the size of our current one.
“I could get lost in here,” I said, laughing.

“
I thought you might like it.” He smiled as he
watched me looking around.

“
So is this place yours?” I said, turning to
face him.

“
Could be, if you tell me you could see us
living here.”

“
Really? I mean, this place must cost a
fortune. It’s right on the beach and not far from where I usually
run and it’s beautiful and big and oh my god, you must be kidding
right?”

“
Not at all. For all those reasons I thought
this place would be perfect for us.”