Seduction (The Journal of the Wolves of Spruce Hollow) (16 page)

“I am so done with you and all this garbage, Roan. I had hoped that maybe things would be different between us this time around but apparently, we are in the exact same situation as we were five years ago but the only difference this time is, I’m the one who’s walking away,” she said as she stormed over to the side entrance off the kitchen and shoved her feet into her running shoes by the door.

Oh no, there was no way that I was letting her leave the house in this state. She was completely out of control.

“That is enough, Aspen! You are not going anywhere,” I said, my body blocking the side door as she tried to get past me. Snarling at me, she scratched me across the face and made a mad dash across the kitchen in an attempt to get to the front door.
 

She was small and pretty fast now that she was a Were but I caught her easily and we crashed into the breakfast nook as I took her down.
 

“Aspen, stop it and listen to me,” I said as I held her away from me as she tried to sink her teeth into my forearm, “I didn’t want to have this conversation with you like this, yelling and screaming at each other. But since you really need to know…I have had various girlfriends over the years so that I didn’t lose my fucking mind while I waited for you to grow a brain and a pair of tits. Are you satisfied now? Is that what you wanted to hear? Jesus, Aspen, haven’t you figured it out by now?
You are my mate
,” I said shaking her gently, “Do you hear me, YOU ARE MY MATE!” I roared at her. I was now as good and worked up as she was. I had been holding on to this secret for too many years and was ready to implode from keeping it in for so long.

“What? No, no! You’re nothing but a liar, Roan! Only you could come up with something absolutely ridiculous like that to try and get me to stay here with you,” she shrieked at me.

“Do you seriously not feel it at all, Aspen? Do you not feel the pull between us?” I said to her as we stood facing one another. Her eyes enormous and searching mine.
 

“The first time we met was not here in Spruce Hollow. I met you for the first time when you were six years old at a swimming pool for fuck sake. I had been dreaming about you for months and when I finally saw you and realized who you were, I was shocked because you were only a little girl, not a woman. The pack brought you here to Spruce Hollow and had you placed with Valerie so that you and I wouldn’t be separated. I have been waiting for fifteen fucking years for you to mature and be mentally and physically ready to be my mate, Aspen!! It’s amazing that I haven’t gone fucking insane by now. So, yes, Aspen, I have a girlfriend and yes, Aspen, we have sex. I’ve had many girlfriends over the past fifteen years while I’ve waited for
you
.”
 

We stood and looked at one another, chests heaving with emotion. The air between us was thick and charged with anger and despair. She was completely still as she narrowed her eyes and stared at me. I knew that she didn’t believe me, so I did the only think I could think of and grabbed her by the wrist. Instead of plunging into her head to search out her emotions, I pulled her into consciousness and my memories of the day we first met slammed into her like a tsunami wave.
 

I showed her everything

A beautiful little girl walking by me at the outdoor pool with her curls bopping and wearing her pink “I’m a little sea monster” bathing suit. I couldn’t stop looking at her while my wolf sniffed her repeatedly. It made me feel weird inside because she was so young. I sat at the edge of the pool and made contact with her eyes for the first time and realized that I knew those eyes. They were my mate’s eyes. I was nearly sick to my stomach as I followed her back home. I kept watch over her for months as she went to and from school by herself. I nearly had a mental breakdown. I was only sixteen years old.

I let go of her wrist, breaking the connection, and she stood in front of me, her body trembling with emotion.
 

 
“I’m sorry Aspen. For everything. You have no idea how sorry. I’ve never wanted to hurt you. I’ve loved you since you were six years old. I’ve only ever loved you, little girl,” I said softly.

Like a flash, she closed the gap between us and barreled into me with her newfound Were agility. She knocked me over and we both fell to the floor as her mouth was on me, kissing me desperately. She was growling into my mouth and whispering words of love and need.

“I love you Roan. I love you so much. I’ve always loved you. I never stopped,” she whimpered into my mouth as we kissed.
 

Having poor emotional control because of her newly turn Were status, didn’t only apply to the negative, angry emotions. It influenced every single emotion that Aspen felt and the gentle kissing soon turned rougher as she licked and nipped my neck. I knew she was losing control when she reached down with trembling hands and began unzipping my pants.
 

Of course, I didn’t mind her lack of control very much when it came to sex. My cock was already painfully hard for her and truthfully, I loved it when she was rough and out of control when I was buried inside her. It was a huge turn on and soon, I was kissing and biting her back with every ounce of repressed sexual need I had stored up inside me.
 

My hands were tangled in her beautiful curls as I held her head immobile. I wanted her mouth
exactly
where
I
wanted it. I was on fire for her as my blood burned with the need to mate with her.
 

“Please, Roan. Oh, god, please. I need you,” she begged.

I don’t know why she always begged for my cock whenever we started fooling around, but it turned me on like crazy. It’s like “please” was the only word she remembered when she was full of sexual need. And I liked it because being the one who had what she needed was a heady, powerful feeling.
 

Aspen unzipped my pants and pushed them down past my hips as she pulled my cock out of my boxers. I moaned as she reached down and wrapped both her hands around my rock hard shaft. She started stroking me as she bit and kissed my mouth and I quickly started to feel like I was going to explode if she didn’t stop soon.
 

So, I pushed her down onto her back and yanked her pants off. While coming that fast would have temporarily satisfied my physical urges towards her, I was far too emotionally aroused to be content with such a climax. I
needed
to be
inside
my mate to satisfy that emotional need.
 

I craved the feeling of her tight wetness squeezing against me. It was all I could think about as the scent of her arousal assaulted me. I didn’t even bother with her panties, instead I roughly shoved them aside and plunged my cock into her in one stroke. She gasped with the intrusion but I slid in easily because she was slick and gushing. She was more than ready for me and I made her take me all the way up to my balls on the first stroke.
 

I was an animal and she was mine, I fucked her the way I wanted.
 

“Oh fuck, your pussy is so tight, Aspen.”
 

She was wild and clawing at my back with animal ferocity. I was not close enough for her. She wanted our bodies pressed tightly together as we fucked. I pulled her hips into mine and rammed into her again. Her head was thrown back with her throat exposed and I could see the tiny scar that our blood bonding had produced. It made my dick throb painfully to see my mark on her that warned all other Weres that she was mine.
 

“You’re mine, little girl, mine,” I said as pushed into her as deeply as I could.
 

She growled at me as she kissed me on the mouth and I mentally pushed into her head, intruding on her thoughts as we ravaged each other. She could sense me there and looked into my eyes as I heard her thoughts

“I love you, Roan…I’ve loved you for so long…Yes, I’m yours, I’ve always been yours…Oh, god I can’t hold on much longer, you’re going to make me come.”
 

I pulled out of her thoughts and grinned wickedly at her.
 

“I
am
going to make you come. You’re going to come all over my big cock like a dirty little girl.”
 

I loved talking dirty to Aspen while we had sex, she always looked at me with wild green eyes whenever I said something dirty to her.
 

She was sinking her teeth into me right now and biting my shoulder over my filthy words. I knew she must be close to orgasm because she tended to get more and more feral, the closer she got to release.
 

I bit her right back, her shoulders, her neck, her arms, and her jaw line. She whimpered but I didn’t bite her very hard, not like she did to me. I usually ended up with numerous bites and bloodied scratches from her after we had sex. In time, I would teach her some restraint and how to be more gentle during sex. But right now, she was newly turned and control with
anything
wasn’t going to be her strong suit. Besides, I wanted her too much to take my time with her.

My hard cock was spreading her wide open with each thrust, yet she took it all and eagerly thrusted back against me. She was a dirty girl in bed, or on the floor, or the kitchen table and always gave me everything that I’d ever wanted in a sexual partner. She was made for me and gave herself to me with such wild abandon. I knew I would never tire of pushing inside her or hearing her moan as she came against my hardness.
 

My cock was throbbing so hard inside her, precum was squirting out the tip. I wanted to blow my load but I held out, waiting for her to catch up.
 

She was panting now, she was so close, I could feel it but I was ready to explode, so I pulled my cock out of her wetness.
 

“Get on your hands and knees.”

 
I flipped her over and pulled her ass up. I pushed my cock in deeply and she started coming immediately from the change in position alone. She came hard and I could feel her pulsating heavily around my shaft. Her legs were slack and wobbly but I held her up and pushed inside her with bottomless strokes until I orgasmed deep inside her.
 

Completely spent and sated, we collapsed on the floor, a tangle of sweaty arms and legs.
 

Chapter 19

~Aspen~

“How much further is this training camp anyway, we’ve been walking forever,” I said as I trudged along behind Roan on the narrow wooded trail.
 

He looked back at me with piercing blue eyes and smiled.

“Oh c’mon, little girl, you’re a Were now, you’re supposed to have boundless physical stamina,” he said as he laughed out loud He was clearly enjoying the fact that I was having a hard time.
 

“Apparently that part hasn’t kicked in yet,” I say dryly.

“It’s not far now, only two more miles or so. Stop and take off your pack, I’ll carry it for you if you’re tired,” he said as he smiled broadly, showing me his perfect teeth.
 

“No, it’s okay, Roan,” I smiled an easy, relaxed smile back at him.
 

 
We’d been shyly smiling and touching one another like two lovesick teenagers ever since we’d had the big blowout in the kitchen. Things had been much calmer and stable between us. I was taking cues from Roan now and was checking in through our blood bond more often to gauge his thoughts and feelings, the way he constantly did with me.

I had a lot to learn about being a Were and even more to learn about being a mate, but I knew that I was in enormously capable hands with Roan. I had no doubt that he would have an inordinate amount of patience with me and would teach me everything I needed to know about how to be a Were. As the pack Beta, it was required of him but as my mate, he would ferociously protect and take care of me. I
felt
it, in the blood that coursed through my veins.

Having Roan finally tell me the truth about our past was like an epiphany for me and after we’d had untamed, passionate sex on the kitchen floor, Roan had scooped me up and carried me back to his bed where we slowly touched, explored and made love to one another for hours.
 

I felt so raw and exposed with Roan now, especially when he was deep inside me. I was completely defenseless against him then. He would frequently whisper to me, “Open your eyes and look at me little girl,” right before I came. I would open my eyes and be assaulted by his penetrating blue eyes gazing intently into mine and our eyes would lock as my body started to clench and spasm around his hardness.
 

Being physically naked in front of someone is one thing but being emotionally
naked
is a completely different animal. And Roan made me feel both of them…intensely. I felt completely bare in front of him, like there was no longer any place to hide because he could just rummage through my head and stalk down the truth through our blood bond. And because of that, our emotional connection was very intense.
 

Having Roan pull me into his memories and showing me how he’d been waiting for me for so many years was actually a really smart move on his part because I was too far gone with rage to listen to his words at that point. It tuned out to be a huge relief for me because I had loved him almost my entire life and those memories of the very first time we’d ever met, at the pool, explained everything better than words ever could have. Roan had known exactly what I’d needed from him and he’d given it to me without reserve.