Shattered Rose (4 page)

I held in a laugh. I was honestly starting to wonder if this girl ever had a thought that she didn’t verbalize. I looked at her drink again and couldn’t help but ask, “What on earth are you drinking?”

“It’s my hangover juice. Does the trick every time.” She sat back up and looked at me intensely, making me a little nervous. I swear her eyes could penetrate the soul. “So, what did you and my cousin talk about last night?”

I shifted uncomfortably and started pulling some cereal out of the pantry.  “What do you mean?”

“Oh come on, that’s Jake’s MO…the tortured, brooding type. Girls love it.”

I didn’t know what to say. I wanted to believe her words had no effect on me. I mean
, I just met this guy, who cares what his “MO” was.  My defenses immediately went up, a practice I was used to doing when a situation got out of hand.

“He told me about his mom and how he came to live with you. That’s all. We really didn’t talk much. He did say you were his best friend, though.” I was hoping she would take the bait and change the subject.

“I am his best friend, and that’s why I know he’s intrigued with you.”

As I looked up at her, my eyes must have completely betrayed me.

“Ah ha, I knew you liked him,” she accused. “Yes, he’s intrigued with you. I know this because he mentioned you more than twice last night. But don’t be deceived. Jake is not the fall in love type. He’s just not.”

“Maybe I’m not the fall in love type either,” I retorted, feeling annoyed by the conversation.

“Oh please, you have hopeless romantic written all over you.”

I rolled my eyes and continued to make my breakfast. It didn’t seem to deter her and she continued on.

“Every once in a while a girl gets a glimpse of who he is and they immediately fall head over heels. But a glimpse is all you get. He doesn’t do more than that. Jake is complicated.” She seemed careful in how she said those last words.

“What do you mean?”

“It doesn’t matter. Just trust me. If I thought he would ever treat a girl the way he treats me, I would move out of your way, but he won’t. You need to hear this before it goes too far.”

I nodded and looked at her. “I hear you. I do. You don’t have to worry; I’m not going to fall head over heels for Jake. I’m much too practical,” I lied, searching my head for anything else to talk about. “By the way, I met some guys from apartment 315. I think one of them likes you.”

“Ugh, no thanks. I’ve already met Aaron and feel like I have to shower every time I see him,” she explained, grinning for the first time this morning.

I laughed in agreement. “Not him. It was his roommate, Danny, that was asking about you.”

“Huh? I haven’t met him yet. Doesn’t matter, I don’t date guys from our apartment complex.”

“Really, why not?”

“Because I only got out with guys once, maybe twice, and it’s hard enough to make them go away. It would be impossible if they were living just up the stairs from me.” She gave me another penetrating stare, almost a warning. “I’m a lot like Jake in that way.” I didn’t respond to her comment, and she got off the stool. “Now, I’m heading back to bed. Don’t you dare wake me before two o’clock. It’s Saturday for crying out loud.”

I watched as she slowly threw herself on her bed, arms and legs spread out across the entire thing. Yes, it was Saturday, and I was already so behind. Two of my professors had posted the syllabus and expected
three chapters read before the beginning of class. I put my cereal bowl in the dishwasher and headed to my room, determined to make today as productive as possible.

As I passed by my mirror, I stopped to examine myself.  Jake was intrigued with me, huh? I wasn’t sure exactly why. I mean, I wasn’t ugly, but I’ve never seen myself as beautiful, and Jake definitely was the type who could get the beautiful ones.  In grade school, kids teased me a lot. I’ve always had predominant features that seemed to get attention. Growing up, my blue eyes were too big for my head, and I spent most of my awkward years being taller than the boys. It also didn’t help that I was pretty chubby in junior high. It wasn’t until my sophomore year in high school that I finally quit growing and the boys caught up.  That same year I joined the
cross country team and learned how to run. Weight came off pretty easily after that and all of a sudden boys started noticing me in the halls. It didn’t last long, though. My shyness and insecurity kept boys at arm’s length, and they gave up without much of a fight. It still amazed me how I could look so different but feel exactly like that chubby girl they poked fun at all those years.

I continued to scrutinize my large lips and straight nose in the mirror and wondered how men noticed me at all. Then again, my courses were predominately in the math and science arena, so I didn’t have a whole lot of competition.

Jake was different. He didn’t look me up and down when we first met. In fact, he spent more time examining my room than he did me. He treated me like a friend, or at least someone he wanted to get to know, and I couldn’t help but admire him. He was fourteen when he had to become an adult and take care of his mom. Of course he would be emotionally guarded…who wouldn’t be in the same situation? To his credit, he didn’t seem bitter at all; just factual, almost nonchalant about what he went through.

I pulled out my statics book and settled in to read the first chapter. No luck. My mind kept going back to Jake on the couch, fully confident and relaxed, yet exposed, all at the same time.  I shook my head, scolding myself, “This is ridiculous.”  I obviously needed to clear my brain before I could hope to get anything done. Reading could wait; it was time for a run.

The breeze outside immediately cooled my flushed skin. The rain came earlier, and I could still smell the scent of raindrops in the air. A haze fell just above the surface of the lake; it was eerie and breathtaking, full of mystery.  The ambience reminded me of Jake, and once again sent my stomach into a whirl. 

I stood outside, stretching, when I saw Danny and Aaron descending the stairs. They looked ready to workout too, and I wondered if it was a coincidence that I was running into them again.

“Hey Avery,” Danny called from the top of the stairs. “You going for a run?”

“Yep, too beautiful outside to waste the day,” I answered, trying not to look as uncomfortable as I was feeling.

“Can we join you?” he asked once he got to the bottom step. Aaron was right behind him, checking me out again.

I really didn’t want them to
come with me, but I had the misfortune of being one of those people who never could say no. “Um, sure.”

Danny smiled and then looked around. He was trying to be subtle, but I knew who he was looking for. “
Issy’s not coming,” I offered, hoping that meant they would change their mind about running with me.

Aaron started laughing and stepped around Danny. “Dude, give it up. Alright Avery, let’s see what you’ve got.”

We ran down fraternity row. The area was quiet and serene, a vast difference from the life it took on each night. I wasn’t having any problems keeping up with the guys. I knew I was a pretty fast runner, at least for a girl. We passed one house that had plastic cups strung over the front yard and two empty beer kegs in the driveway. Five guys, who I assumed were pledges, were carrying around large trash bags to pick up the mess. I wondered what house Jake was a part of and what he was doing at one o’clock on a Saturday afternoon.

Aaron pulled me from my thoughts of Jake and I felt grateful. “You didn’t come by last night,” he stated.

“I had to unpack.”

Danny chuckled. “That’s pretty sad when unpacking is more appealing than hanging out with us. We really are fun, if you get to know us better.”

I didn’t know what to say so I just smiled at him. We turned right to take the trail around the lake. The route would put us at six miles for the day, but I didn’t care. Every time Jake popped in my head, my stomach started to flutter and then came an onset of nervous energy. I picked up the pace and the boys matched my stride.

“I have to admit I’m impressed,” Aaron said, starting to breathe a little heavier now. “Most girls just act like runners; they don’t actually do it. But, it does explain those
rockin’ legs of yours. Muscular and tan…oh yeah.”

I almost stopped running. Who says stuff like that?

“Shut up, Aaron,” Danny scolded. “I’m trying to convince her that we are nice guys.”

“You just want to meet her roommate. Gees dude, just go to Caesars. She’s there every Thursday night.”

“I’d be happy to introduce you,” I finally cut in, looking at Danny who was notably embarrassed. “But I have to tell you that she doesn’t date guys from our apartment complex. From what she said, I really don’t think she’s that much into dating at all.”

Aaron snickered. “That’s what all girls say. They act like they don’t care, but deep down they are all dying to fall in love.”

Aaron’s words made me think about what Issy had said,
Women get a glimpse of who he is and fall head over heels, but that’s all they get, a glimpse.
  The words were haunting. Was I going to be one of those girls? I obviously was headed in that direction, as Jake had consumed every thought since I went to bed last night. I pushed it out of my head and turned back to Aaron.

“Well, I don’t know her all that well, so I couldn’t tell you,” I finally said.  

We finished the run, keeping mostly to small talk after that. I learned that both of them were also Sophomores and were from Charlotte. They’d known each other since childhood, which made sense, because they were so different it seemed impossible they would get along. Danny was kind and somewhat shy, while Aaron, well he was everything a girl should run from…and fast.

We made our way back to the apartment and I checked my time.
52:25…by far my fasted in a while. We were all panting heavily and gripping our knees.

“Girl, I don’t think I’m running with you again,” Aaron declared, catching his breath.

I laughed and started towards the stairs. The guys followed and I noticed they hung by the landing, not taking the stairs up to their apartment.

“Are you guys going out tonight?” Danny asked, looking shy again. I felt bad for him. He obviously had a pretty severe crush on
Issy, and hadn’t even met her yet.

“I’m pretty sure she’s still asleep, but you’re welcome to come grab a water from my fridge.” I had no idea how
Issy would feel about me bringing two guys back to the apartment, but I had a soft spot for people. Years of being teased and ridiculed had made me more sensitive to other’s feelings, and I hated to see anyone upset.

Danny’s face lit up
, and Aaron just shook his head declining my offer. Danny followed me to the door and I opened it, hoping Issy wasn’t going to kill me.

“Avery! Where have you been?”
Issy’s voice called out as I came in the room.  The hung over monster from the morning had totally disappeared, and in her place was a stunning figure dressed for yet another night on the town. “I invited some friends over before we head out to the club; you just have to come with us tonight.”

I checked my watch…it was barely two in the afternoon. What club opened that early? Before I had the chance to ask,
Issy noticed Danny standing behind me, and I watched a grin form on her face.

“Who’s your friend?”

I motioned for Danny to come inside and didn’t miss the appraisal Issy gave his bare chest. I also didn’t miss that Jake was standing right next to her with his eyes slightly slanted.

“
Issy, this is Danny. He’s Aaron’s roommate from apartment 315.”

If she was irritated with me, I couldn’t tell. She was the picture of beauty and grace as she grabbed a towel out of the drawer and walked over towards Danny who watched her with fascination. She seductively draped the towel over his shoulder, touching him ever so slightly.

“You’re sweating on my rug,” she said flatly, her voice completely contradicting her body language. Danny seemed stricken and backed out of the apartment apologizing. Issy put her hand on her hip and smiled coyly at him. “I didn’t say I minded.”

Danny was lost, so out of his league that I felt sorry for him. He somehow managed a “nice to meet you,” and a “goodbye” before running off.
Issy shut the door behind him and shot me an annoyed look. “I told you I don’t date guys from our complex. Now you owe me. Go shower; we’re going out.”

I looked around at our guests. Jake was leaning against the bar talking to a shorter, stockier guy with a buzzed haircut. On the couch sat a guy and girl who were obviously dating, as they were practically wrapped around each other watching TV.

“I don’t know, Issy, I’m already so behind, and class starts Monday.”  I was moving as quickly as I could to my bedroom, suddenly feeling out of place in my running tank and shorts. Not to mention, I was sweating buckets in front of the one person I wanted to impress. Just then Jake stopped talking and looked up at me. “You should come. It will be fun.”

It was ridiculous how cute he was. “Ok, I’ll think about it,” I
answered, already knowing I would probably go.

“Well don’t think too long,”
Issy called from the kitchen. “Happy hour starts at four, and Jake here has agreed to back off tonight.” I saw her slam her elbow into his ribs, and he retaliated by tickling her.