Lost In Our Darkness (Demons Of Darkness Book 2) (3 page)

“Trix, what are you doing?” I turned around, Venom was leaning up against the wall across from me.

“What do mean?”

“Trix. Don’t do what I think you are going to do.”

“I wasn’t going to do anything. I was just changing out of my clothes since Zaiden spit up on me.”

“Don’t lie to me Trix.” I looked at him quizzical. “You just seen Nix who for the longest time put you above everything and everyone. He would do anything for you. Then you left.”

“I had to.”

“No Trix you didn’t have to.” He paused. “ You fucked him up Trix. He ain’t the same as he was before. You did that. You fucked with his head and now you show back up here with his baby. You took a lot from him Trix and now you think you can walk in here and everything will go back to normal? He is the fucking president now Trix, you go out there flashing around that you’re his old lady just to piss him off or the stupid bitches that have been sucking his dick because you’re not here to do it. What do you want.  You planning on staying this time or just until you can figure out how to get more money from him and take off again?”

“Fuck you Venom. I did what I had to do for my son. I didn’t want to come back here but I had no choice. Nitro drug me back here when I called him asking for help. I wanted to keep Zaiden out of this life. He does not need to grow up with a fucking target on his back.”

“Ya know what Trix, I can’t wait to see your face here in about a half an hour. Just remember you did what you did and he did what he did because you fucking left.” He pushed off the wall and walked away. What the fuck was he talking about?

I walked back into the room and pulled out a hoodie throwing it over my tank. I  picked up a sleeping Zaiden holding him in my arms as I walked back out to the main room to get a drink. I found Nitro sitting at the bar talking to Cheyenne. She was laughing and smiling at him. Shit did she have the hot's for my dad? Fuck. I walked over to them and took a seat next to Nitro. Zaiden stirred but fell back asleep as quickly as he awoke.

“Hey.”

“He’s adorable Trix.” Cheyenne beamed as she stared at my sleeping boy with his head on my shoulder. .

“Yeah, he looks just like his dad though. Can I get a water Cheyenne?”

“Sure thing.” She turned around to the cooler and brought me back a bottle of water. Opening it for me before she passed it over to me.

“Thanks.”

The front door swung open. “Shit.” Cheyenne’s smile fell from her face. She looked at the door then me trying to give me a reassuring smile. I turned to the door. A blond haired pregnant women came waddling in, followed by two prospects. “Who’s that?” I asked both Nitro and Cheyenne.

“Ahhh. I’ll be right back.” Cheyenne walked quickly to the back room. I looked over at Nitro who had his drink up to his mouth. I turned and watched the blonde as she made her way over to where Nix and Red were. Maybe she was with Red. I continued to watch her as Nix looked up at me and smiled as he pulled the blonde onto his lap. I couldn’t look away I stared at him in shock. As the girl wrapped her arms around him.

It was at that moment my heart broke. Knowing that deep down it was my own fault. I knew it would hurt. But I wasn't expecting it to be this painful. Seeing him after over a year apart. One and a half years. That was all it took to ruin everything we had. Although in the long run, this would make my next move easier. Walking away from him. But fuck did it hurt. It wasn't supposed to. Seeing him wasn't supposed to hurt. Then to feel him and smell him. I wasn't supposed to love him. But I did. I fucking loved him. No matter what he did. I would always love him.  

I turned away from them and pushed away from the bar. Holding Zaiden to me. I would not turn into one of those girls. I wouldn't cause a scene. I wouldn't pull a gun on her. No, she has him and no matter how much I want to hate her for it I can't. Because I know she is my ticket out of here. He can be with her and forget about me. I will move on. I just needed to figure out where I was going to go and make sure I was safe. I hated being paranoid. The year and a half I was away, that's how I spent my time. Always looking over my shoulder. Anything out of place would get me antsy. I  didn't sleep. I didn't eat unless I had to.

I started walking back to Nitro' room when I heard Nitro call my name. I didn't stop. I made it into his room and shut the door. Zaiden stirred in my arms as I laid him down on the bed. I pulled an old t-shirt out of my bag and changed. I crawled in bed with my little man. I was not going to cry. I repeated it to myself over as I felt tears running down my cheeks and onto the pillow.

I watched the pain on her face as she stood up and walked away. She is good at that. Walking away.

“Baby who was that?” Zoelle purred in my ear.

“Nobody.” I shook my head and brought my attention back to Zoelle. She was the complete opposite of Trix. I pressed a kiss to her head and placed my hand over her swollen belly. She was eight months pregnant.

I needed to wrap my head around everything that Trix had told me.
      “Prez?” I looked up at Venom who was standing in front of me.

“Yeah.”

“Got a min?”

I gently slid Zoelle off my lap and stood up. “Be right back.” I looked over to Red and waved him over. “Keep an eye on her.”

“I don’t need a babysitter.”

“Yeah Zoe you do.” She puffed out her lower lip and huffed.

I walked to my office with Venom following behind me.

Once we were both behind closed doors I walked over to my desk and with one quick movement I brushed everything off. “Fuck.” I sat down in my chair and pulled the bottle of whiskey from my drawer and took a long drink.

“She needs to leave.”

“Who? Trix or Zoelle?”

“Trix.”

“You really want that?”

“Yeah I do. She was right. She should have left and she shouldn’t have come back. She should have stayed away with the kid.”

“You know there is a bounty on her back.”

I nodded. “Yeah, there’s one on mine too.”

“You think they will try anything?”

“If they don’t know she’s back they won’t. I need to get her to leave again.”

“Just tell her about Zoelle. That should send her running off and never to return.”

“I don’t want to hurt her.”

“Fuck, Nix. After all the things she has done to you, and you’re worried about hurting her. What the fuck. Stop being a fucking pussy and send her on her way.”

“What about the kid?”

“As soon as they figure out she’s back with your kid you think they are going to care. That’s just one more way to get to you. That kid is a fucking liability that you need to send on his way with Trix. They will be fine just get them out of here. You have Zoelle and then the baby.”

“She isn’t Trix.”

“No one is going to be like Trix. Fuck Nix. How many bitches do you know that are going to kill for us? Torture someone for us? And then fuck your brains out still covered in the asshole’s blood?”

I laughed. “Ya you’re right.” I laughed and took a drink of whiskey.

“You and I both know Trix won’t stay here. No matter what we say to her to get her to stay she won’t do it. She will want to fight the war with us. If you want her safe and that little boy safe you need to get them out of here and fast before anyone sees her.”

I nodded.

“Now get back to your wife before you go stalking your baby momma.”

I shook my head as I stood up and walked back out to the main room. Zoelle was sitting in the same spot where I had left her. With Zoelle I never had to go run her down and look for her. She actually listened. I sat down next to her as she twirled her straw in her water.

“Was it really necessary to have him watching me? You have never worried about me here before.”

“Yeah and until I say so you need to listen. I don’t want you anywhere around here without me or a prospect with you. Unless you are in our room and then I want the door locked at all times.”

“Okay but what’s this all about.”

“Just do as I say Zoe. I have enough shit to worry about and I just need to make sure you and that baby are okay.”

She smiled. “Okay well then I’m going to bed. If that’s okay.”

“Just lock the door.”

Chapter Four

I woke up to Zaiden slapping me in my face. “Hey little man.” I changed his diaper and slipped on a clean pair of sweatpants and a fitted tank top. I changed Zaiden’s diaper and we made our way to the common room. It was still early and only Cheyenne was up. I found her in the kitchen making coffee.

“Hey, you need any help?” I asked.

“Trix how did you do it? I swear I just can’t get this coffee right and it’s been almost two  years since I have been doing it.”

“Here hold Zaiden.” I handed him over and took over. I got the coffee started and turned to Cheyenne. “So what’s new around here I should know about?”

“Not much has really changed. I mean other then Edge stepping down. Since then Nix was voted in as President. Things haven’t changed that much really other then, well…” she paused and looked up at me giving me a slight smile. “I really am glad you’re back though.”

“I won’t be here long.”

“How come,” she asked but suddenly stopped as she looked over my shoulder. I turned around.

“Well don’t stop talking on my behalf.” The pregnant blonde girl smiled at me. “Hi I’m Zoelle, and you are?”

“Trix.”

“Ahh you wouldn’t happen to be the Trix I have heard so much about would you? Daughter of Nitro and the girl with the black heart who fears no one?”

“I wouldn’t say black heart but yeah Nitro is my father.”

“And who is this little guy?” she asked as she moved closer to Zaiden.

“Zaiden my son.”

“He sure is cute.” She rubbed her swollen belly. “I can’t wait for this little girl to come.”

“You’re having a girl?”

“Yeah hopefully within the next few weeks or so.” She smiled back at me. “So what are you doing here? I thought they said you left a long time ago?”

“I did, and believe me I don’t want to be here but according to Nitro I have no choice until this stupid lockdown is lifted.”

“I hate lockdowns I just want to go back home and finish getting this little girl’s room ready.”  I faked a smile at her. Was she that stupid that she didn’t know who I was or was she playing dumb. I was ready to ask her when Nix walked in shirtless. He took one look at me and then her before he turned around and walked out. I stared at where his back had just disappeared. Where my name once was, had been covered in blood red roses. My name had been erased from his skin.

“Shit, I better go see what he wanted. I’m not allowed to wander around without a bodyguard.” She got up and waddled out of the room after him.

“Well that was fun. How long have they been together?”

“Not long after you left Trix. He went out of town and the next thing you know she was on the back of his bike and then well…they are married Trix.” I felt the tears start to swell in my eyes as I wiped them away.

“Good for them.” I smiled and then took Zaiden from her arms and walked back to Nitro’s room.

I sat Zaiden on the ground and pulled his little trucks out of my bag and handed them to him. Fuck. I needed to get out of here and I needed out now. I couldn’t stay here.